| 1 October 2002 10:38 pm Tuesday It's been a long long while, I know. But all that matters now is that I'm back. I've had an outstanding month. I've spent every weekend with friends, mostly out of town, too. I visited my alma mater this weekend, Jen came down last weekend, and I went to Chicago and NYC the 2 weekends before that. Plus, I do believe that I'm going BACK to Ithaca for the weekend for apple festival. I have no doubt that it will be as enjoyable as this past one, just in a different way. Anyways, off to Ithaca I go! Yep, I've been getting some major flying in during my weekends! I had a really fun weekend up there, but also kind of bittersweet. I went up to say goodbye to a good friend of mine (that I used to like), and I know we won't see each other for a while. And I also saw a guy I used to be totally smitten by... with his new girlfriend. And I met up with a nice guy who is, well, not the dating type. Not to mention seeing a wonderful guy who for some reason that still escapes me, ended up with this cute little emotional succubus, therefore ruining the very concept of dating him (not that it'd have happened anyways). And then I realized after all of this, am I doomed to be single? The ones I like don't like me, commit to someone else, clings to his independence, and date crazy leech girls. Hmmm. But it occurred to me: Do I WANT a boyfriend? I don't think I do right now, since I am enjoying an uncomplicated and incredibly enjoyable life. I don't feel any sort of longing for companion ship right now, though it is certainly nice. Sure I miss it, but I don't need it in my life quite yet. I'm not trying to pull some lame a$s Sex and the City bs - constantly going after men when they're not ready to settle down themselves (well, except Charlotte). I am fully aware that I'm not in need/major desire of/for one, so I'm avoiding the stressing over guys thing. At least, just for now. Otherwise, my life is going quite well. As I mentioned - it's gleefully uncomplicated. I'm working on a couple marketing projects that I actually need to, well, do. They should actually be pretty fun, since one is about sex, and the other is about coolness. So actually, I'm going to get on that now so I can actually pass my classes! Lol. Anyways, welcome back to the net, Scarlet! |
| howl call it a journal, or something like that |