September 10, 2002
Ninjas Make The World Go Round

I know how sick you are of all of these pitiful entries I've been giving. Well, I end the streak. Some good news, first: I showed Why Am I Back Here? and True Life: It Sucks to my psychologist and said, "Please, can I take a medicine?" and we talked for an hour about things, and she is going to write a letter to a psychiatrist! That means if they think it's appropriate, they're going to give me medicine! I'm so stoked, you have no idea. She also said that if they ask me to agree that I won't attempt suicide in a certain allotted time, and I disagree, they'll send me to a hospital. And shit, I don't want to go. If you've never read Go Ask Alice, read it now, because you get a good idea of what the hospitals are like. But I know I can't agree because I can't help it... but whatever. Because I just want the medicine.

Anyway.

I said this wouldn't be pitiful. I just needed to write that down for my own benefit. Right. So.

We had been working on the scrapbooks for history. Mine sucked, I had medicine bottles, and TMJ pamphlets, and Animorphs in it. I needed to find some pictures, though, so I was going through our old photo albums. While I don't have the pictures I put in, I did scan some other hilarious ones.

I've found that no matter what people say, I haven't changed. I haven't suddenly become an irritable person, be it for attention or because I'm mean or what have you. I have legitimate proof that I have always been a very unhappy person. Exhibit A.

From left to right: Patrick, Me, Amanda, Geoff. Notice my aggravated expression. When I showed my mom, she noted, "Yeah, that's the same face we always got."

Exhibit B. My favorite.

If you know me, and you've seen me when I'm pissed, tell me that's not the expression I make. This is the first time I've seen this picture. I laughed for about 10 minutes, and even now I'm trying not to so as to not draw attention from those around me. Man, I wish I was giving the middle finger. That would make the picture complete. Again, my mom said, "Haha. You were always so angry." (Two notes: Yes, I have hair, it's pulled back. And my eyes appear to be blue. But I don't think they ever were.)

I'm going to have to do a sequel to this. Maybe sequel isn't the right word. I think follow-up was what I was searching for. I just need more pictures. This entry kind of sucked, it lacked a lot of content. But I needed to share these pictures with you.

Now, a ninja to save the day.

- Molly{8:40 pm}

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