| December 23, 2001 11:00 pm (Abby's thoughts) So I was thinking about what I've learned this semester and what sticks out to me as significant happenings and I realized that this has been a pretty challenging semester, emotionally and spiritually (not academically, as many of you already know, given my finals schedule...hahaha). I was trying to think of how to sum up what I've learned and I actually don't think I've learned all that much. I mean, I haven't really become more profound or more "spiritual" this semester. At least, I don't feel that I have. But as I was driving to LA from Berkeley, I was listening to my newest CD, Steven Curtis Chapman's Declaration (yay!), and one of the songs seemed to really strike a chord with me. It's called "God is God" and the chorus is something like this: God is God and I am not. I can only see a part of the picture He's painting. God is God and I am man, so I'll never understand it all for only God is God. (Forgive me if I messed up the lines; I don't have the lyrics in front of me) But yeah, that basically sums up what I learned this semester. All the problems that I faced, all the "setbacks" that fell into my path simply pointed to that one statement: God is God and I am not. Seems simple? Yeah, right. I need constant reminders of this. Because often when problems come or hardships seem to prevail, I'll forget this one statement and worry and try to "plan" things the way I want them to go. The last few weeks have been really hard and often I wonder what God is doing. God doesn't promise that my problems are going to work themselves out or even that they're going to get better. He simply promises that in all things He works for the good of those who love Him (Rom. 8:28). So even though I don't know how things are going to turn out and I'm not sure why things are the way they are, I'm going to cling to that promise and trust in the God that I'll never fully understand but who has already demonstrated how much He loves me. I only see in part; He sees in full. That's more than good enough for me. *************************************************************** Random aside: I love watching my sister and brother in law, Rachel and Damon. They crack me up with their silly sense of humor. But I also like watching them together because I see how well they complement each other and how well marriage suits them. Today in the car, Rachel and I were sitting in the back and it was getting really stuffy so Rachel tapped Damon on the shoulder and asked sweetly, "Are you cold?" Damon laughed and said, "Are you hot?" as he turned the air conditioner on. It was cool cuz he knew exactly what she was asking without her having to directly ask it. It was like it was this inside joke that I didn't get at first (I thought my sister was nuts asking if he was cold cuz I was melting!). I dunno. It seems like such a little thing but to me it just shows how well my brother in law knows my sister. I like watching how married couples can know each other so well. It's cool. =) |