| October 9, 2002 11:15 pm Dude, I know, I know. It's been like forever and a day since I last updated. Just haven't gotten around to it and then I just had so many things I wanted to post about I just gave up the idea of ever getting it all down. So basically, all of the thoughts I've had the past several months are not going to be in the website because A) I don't remember all the profound things I've thought and B) I'm too lazy to type it all out. Plus, a lot of you probably already know what's been going on in my head lately cuz I've told you. Although I don't know who even bothers to check this website anymore since it's been so long. =) Oh wells. This can be for my own amusement. So, I guess I wanted to post about prayer. Actually, I wanted to post about prayer with Jessie. Last week at prayer meeting we were prayer partners. And that in itself was exciting cuz I don't see Jess as much as I used to cuz for the first time in 3 years, we're not in the same small group! Anyways, it was SUCH a refreshing time of prayer. I had forgotten how much I enjoy praying with Jessie. She is one of the only people who I can pray with exactly how I pray when I'm by myself. Like, you know how usually we pray differently out loud than we do when we're just talking to God by ourselves? Well, I find that to be true of myself anyway. But with Jess, I can pray EXACTLY how I would pray if it were just me and God and no one else listening. It's amazing. I can go on tangents or pray for random things as they pop into my head and she doesn't mind! She does it too! And she'll laugh with me (sometimes I laugh when I pray when I get really excited or giddy about something I'm praying about). It's just really cool to be able to pray out loud with someone where I can totally be myself with God and not worry about the fact that there is this other person listening as well. Another happifying thought. I have class with Melanie every Wed. and we've decided to hang out afterwards every week. I like hanging out with her and I'm glad we'll have regular hang out times because I'm going to be VERY SAD when she leaves in December. Sometimes I forget that I've been here for more than 3 years already and that it's almost time to move on and have everyone scatter. It makes me really sad, but really thankful at the same time for all the people that God has placed in my life while I'm here. I just feel really blessed by so many people and I hope that I can be a blessing to others too. I think my brain works in very strange ways. Or, at the very least, I get excited by too many weird things. And there are SOOO many things that I want to do and experience but I don't want to become too attached to things that this life has to offer because I know there's an infinitely better life waiting for me. I wish I could do all the jobs I want to, but I know that realistically I probably won't. It's really fun to dream though. So, here's the list of things that I would love to try if given the opportunity (in no particular order): missionary overseas, special education teacher, fourth grade teacher, flight attendant, librarian, some kind of counseling position, waitress. I think what's most appealing about all of these is that you get so much people interaction with each of these jobs and that's what gets me really excited. I just love the idea of working with so many people all the time because people are so energizing!!! =) I dunno. God is still working on me, reminding me to fix my eyes above. I pray that these desires for these jobs will not be distracting. Because I know that all of this pales in comparison to what is stored in heaven. |