| DECEMBER.2003 MONDAY, DECEMBER 22, 2003 -- The one I love most is the one that hurts me most. You're the source of my happiness and pains. Please, stop me from bleeding inside, dont say things if you do it too. Yesterday was an interesting day. Me and Stan went over to asian author, editor, UCLA english professor (etc etc.) Russell Leong's place to have dinner where I served up the fancy Vietnamese dish Cuon! He loves it. We all do. Its a spring roll that can be stuffed with veggies and meat, noodles, almost anything! While on the way to Russ' place, that's when I learned of them. Anyways, my trip to anywhere has been canceled because of my parents' insecurities. Thanks to Francis for giving me a heads up today on the AIDS ad contest that's due at the end of January, next year. Merry Holidays everyone! DECEMBER 15, 2003 -- I hate lazy teachers! One that I have in particular seems to be a slack off, not reading essays and only judging it on pure nothing. When questioned about how I can make it better or why I receieved this B, all I get is some vague answer and damn he's just beating around the bush. Stupid, I should report him to the dean, but then I'd be selfish. There are others who appreciate his ease in testing. Havent noticed how long I havent typed something here. The lastest news I have is the news that I'll be going to Vancouver this winter break with Stan and staying over at his aunt's place. It's going to be a blast, another road trip! Then not so recently, OAPP sent me my less-then-super satisfactory fat check. I was at APAIT's family room yesterday making SSKs. What else... I've got finals coming up... and Over the weekend I registered for my classes, and so far, i have only classes on Tuesdays and thursdays--two days a week only! Ill be working until 7:00pm tonight. where's my source of energy? still sleeping I suppose. DECEMBER 2, 2003 -- The Wall Las Memorias really impressed me with their candle displays at Lincoln Park last night. The reflection of the lights on the pond was soothing. Stan and I left early to get dinner at Phoenix Chinese Cuisines in ChinaTown. This Saturday will be APAIT's WAD dinner in ThaiTown. DECEMBER 1, 2003 -- WORLDS AIDS DAY! World wide remembrance of this deadly virus, today! I was at the Los Angeles Philharmonic on 133 N.Grande Avenue for breakfast put together by OAPP (Office of AIDS Programs and Policies) to receive my big check from creating an illustration for AIDS awareness and prevention purposes. Unfortunately, some things went wrong and disorderly, so Ill have to wait. The whole event was a cool experience, having a breakfast buffet, meeting important people, getting my work out there (they're interested in having me commissioned!)... releasing hundreds of balloons up to the sky was exciting. Tonight, im planning on going to The Wall Las Memorias' WAD event as well. Went on a shopping spree after thanksgiving, where I must have bought abut 200 dollars worth of merchandise, all free after mail-in rebates! Thanksgiving was Thursday last week at my maternal grandparents', and the day before that i was at APAIT's Thanksgiving get together. Im totally exhausted right now from waking up early. Later! NOVEMBER.2003 NOVEMBER 18, 2003 -- My situation concerning yesterday's entry is resolved. Just to let everyone know, Ive uploaded more pictures to view. Look to the left and enjoy pictures that are past due. Ive included Long beach pictures, my confirmation and the book festival. There are mmore to come, so stay tuned! NOVEMBER 17, 2003 -- With no thought no consideration my heart wondered what i was recognized as. To all my others, strangers or friends alike, they knew who you were, the one that would be with me for this lifetime. All i asked for was respect, but only after a long enough time did you realize how important it was. I dont want to be known as your whatever acquaintance or anything less than a significant other. Who are they to care or ask of us? It is only customery and expected that they have a response. Two months into the engagement for naught. Just a casual, habitual recognition, not so simple i realized...Forgiven, but certainly never ever in this lifetime will it ever ever be forgotten. The largest scar ive taken, and only someone so important can inflict such a wound -- in reference to 11-16-2003, past 2:00am. NOVEMBER 13, 2003 -- NEW SITE LAYOUT Well, sort of anyway... Ive just simplified this site down to almost just text and simple black/white patterns. I hope you all appreciate this change. My academic life is arg! This Saturday is my aunt's wedding, and that's a big deal. That's all for now, later! THURSDAY, NOVEMBER6, 2003 -- WHERE DO I GO FROM HERE All i can say is i will wait for you however long it will take. My heart aches with much pain and every moment im not with you i will try hard to stand up straight and smile. OCTOBER.2003 THURSDAY, OCTOBER 23, 2003 I thought I had written more, but I guess i forget to save. Well, some important dates I wanted to record: 10-14-2003 Noodle in my mailbox with my illustration, full page spread! Fall 2003 issue, pick one up! Um, Future Teacher's Conference on Saturday morning, Saturday the 25th and then Occidental College for Models of Pride afterwards. My staff BBQ tomorrow afternoon at 3:00pm, meeting Ren Sunday for brouchure design, brouchure design for SoCal Comp Recyc, work for Nelly Rodriguez and her new program, etc... TUESDAY, OCTOBER 21, 2003 I had a math exam yesterday and bombed it. Had two hours of sleep and couldn't process anything! FUK squared!!! AHG!!! Interesting, always, how chance piles up away from my awareness and come jumping at me when it's reached high altitudes. Recently, through connections with people and my reaching others, I've created a jumbo mess with schedule management. I have a planner to organize my time, but damn where does doing nothing and wasting time fit in? The Wednesday of last week, i found out that I'd be doing logo work for a corporated company! Two logos! This is thanks to my boss' reference to me when my art client, Ken, needed someone pronto. Then Ken's boss, Randy, has a daughter who needed a tutor, and guess who's got the job! Rich family that lives in Redondo Beach. Beautiful! TUESDAY, OCTOBER 14, 2003 -- PART TWO Here I am again with my second blog of the day. I'm working now...sorta. Just waiting for people to attend my SI session located in the computer lab just for today. I knew they'd get lost. Or maybe its because they had a test yesterday and wanted a break from all this math mania. It's become official now, me going to Hong Kong this winter break! I dont think any of your net flies realize this, but for a few weeks now, Stan and I have been talking about going to Hong Kong for three weeks during my two months of winter break! It took a stab in my mom's heart to convinve her to let me go. It was early Monday morning when i blurted out something that made her realize how she treats me, and although it was bad to have expressed it, it was the truth. So about the last couple of millennia (so it seems): Viewtififul Joe for the Gamecube I own since Friday the 10th, the Friday after the Tuesday it was launched in stores. What else, ah yes, my Freddie Kreuger illustration I created for work has been appearing everywhere in school, in huge poster forms and 8 1/2 x 11's. Viewtiful! Aim high! Looking into the future, this Saturday I plan on taking my sister and Stan to eat Dim Sum. Yum! Julie will undoubtedly love it. And this Friday Im picking up a make-up set for my sister from the dreadful. The 24th of this month is my staff picnic where intructors and other coaches gather to BBQ. Invitable guests is limited to family or significant others, so Im bringing both my sig. other and family. Eat your heart out.When am i getting my Noodle? WEll, i said a while back that I'd talk a bit about my trip to San Fran and Las Vegas. All there is to say is grrreeat! Along the way we'd stop by at landmarks and attractions, to many to list, and eat buffets after buffets. I was able to know Stan much better, so Ann my friend was right when she said I'd find out more about him. The road trip was with Stan's roomate and her friend from the European country. The itinerary was mostly based on the girls' wishes, so we didn't get to do exactly much of what i wanted to do, but not that it mattered anyway. There's always tomorrow. I guess no one's showing up for my session today, YAY! this would be the first time this semester where I had no attendants. i miss APAIT. Im sick of stupid application Mathematica. I do not enjoy computer programming. TUESDAY, OCTOBER 14, 2003 -- Got my first pay check yesterday! Approximate value of $414.00 with about 20 dollars tax taken. I love you! THURSDAY, OCTOBER 2, 2003 -- EWW! Why should I have lunch with her? What a waste of time-- SEPTEMBER.2003 SUNDAY, SEPTEMBER 28, 2003 -- OH MY GOODNESS! An update?! It's been so long hasn't it? I have a ga-trillion pictures to upload and a googgleplex amount to write about, and a ton of artwork, but Ill do it another time. Today, right now im in my computer programming class trying to finish my work to help out with the SSK's later today at APAIT. Until next time! Bye. Oh i love you so. THURSDAY, SEPTEMBER 11, 2003 -- GETTING INTO THE GROOVE GAH it's been like forever since my last post on this site all this dust here almost had me forget i had this up here. I've just gotten back into school but even before that i was scrambling with all these events and activites I couldn'tt stop to take a breathe! There was my first road trip to San Fran and Las Vegas after I had barely completed a postcard for a conference, then a pool party where all is bare, my part-time job which I actually get paid to do, a recent magazine illustration, my engagement, getting a new computer, having problems with the old computer, helping out my aunt, helping out my cousin, and the daily parents and siblings, my search for enlightenment, and also the need to get some muscle on me. Well, that's all for now. I'll get into details another time, and also upload some new art and maybe even a new layout. SATURRDAY, AUGUST 9, 2003 -- TWENTY A few hours from now, 20 years ago, a child was born. 11:45pm. Ive accomplished do much and experienced a lot during these 20 years. I suppose not everyone is able to say the same. To be continued... JULY.2003 WEDNESDAY, JULY 30, 2003 -- WHY, OH WHY? nnnooooooooooooooooooooh~ TUESDAY, JULY 29, 2003 -- Gah, 94%, is that perfect enough? Ive got to get back into working on my art projects for the business and also the recently comissioned work for a postcard for Noel. "Embracing you." Last week was a fun diddy. The philharmonic concert was great, although i only liked a few pieces, but nothing to whistle along with. Ive forgotten the tunes already! It was me, my sister her friend, Stan in my car, and I was able to meet Carlos' Jason, who's a math teacher with a masters in mathematics! I picked him up and enjoyed hearing all the stories, benefits and thoughts of a teacher, especially that of a highschool one! I'm ready to get my credentials people! I wanna teach! It should be an opener when I start to teach this semester (just a math coach, part-time job for those who forget). So back to Thursday night, during intermission, I had Stan wear the sweater I got for him (which matches mines, only its red, mines is green), so now we can totally be mistaken as brothers when we walk around and have something to start a conversation with. AHAHAHA...no, its not all that amusing, i know-- Walking back, I saw the two of them fondling. You know who you guys are! How sweet... live long and prosper! I've got an appetite for something, anything. Until tomorrow! BYE MONDAY, JULY 28, 2003 -- Oh the value of preparation and peace of mind... there may be a chance of perfection. THURSDAY, JULY 24, 2003 -- =/ I feel faint. Why is it the person you admire so cruel? Maybe the question is why admire a cruel person? The answer is easy: cruel people are honest. But honesty is a kindness. just breathe jimmy... I found out that the suffix in Jimmiiko (my Yahoo! account name) is iko, which is for girl. Jimmiikun would have been the proper way. Jimmiisan would have been addressing an elder. This is ludicrous! imagine trying to tell someone this crisis and having them laugh in your face! "its nothing it normal" ... there's more to it ... Where are you how are you? im not talking to you. Thanks Linda for telling me. THURSDAY, JULY 24, 2003 --TRIUMPHANT x 2! Im hired! Hired to teach! It's simply not a tutoring job-- i will be required to take notes and prepare my teaching sessions and work with groups of students ranging from possible 5-20+ people at once! Will I be able to handle this? *yikes! At first I thought about declining when two veterans told me the downs about this position, but when they told me about the ups, I think it's all worth the time and effort. I need experience and exposure to teaching! I need money! I need to focus next semester and balance my time wisely! I've got 17 units for school, 15 hours of work, family, Kei-wun, freelancing, volunteering... what a frenzy! Ah, my weekend is here to calm me down from this week's bombardment of events. Starting off with tonight, I will be the the Hollywood Bowl. See you soon Carlos and Jason. I love my compliment angle. Together we make a right angle! WEDNESDAY, JULY 23, 2003 -- TRIUMPHANT! F, H YEA! Eat dust! Zoomed through today's math quiz and finished a mile ahead of everyone else. Although finishing quick leaves one walking away a bit nervous, paranoid. But thinking back at those problems, I got them on target! That's a great way to start the day. Haaa... I feel like conquering the world! But first I must prepare for a job interview. Actually, it's more like a demonstration of whether im able to explain the procedures on solving a problem versus doing a problem fast. Yes, if you havent guessed, Im getting a math-tutoring job! Or at least trying to-- Wish me luck guys! Random news... I dont have any random news to write about! As a forecast for this week, I will be in the APAIT offices for emergency work (Marie claims that there is much to do). Tomorrow Ill be at the Hollywood Bowl for the classical music concert. Friday is too far ahead of my schedule, and the weekend is only furthur. Ah wait, Friday im taking my mom to the dentist (hm, ironic, no?). BYEBYE! MONDAY, JULY 21. 2003 --WHOA! I didn't realize it has been this long since my last OLD (on-line diary) entry! So in a small nutshell: helped Stan move this past Thurs. and Fri., ran into Tech Man Fred at Stan's on Thurs. of all people, had dinner that night with Stan, Tiff and Joe (Stan's friend), love Stan's new place, love the drive there, made my own peanutbutter banana smoothie on Saturday (so long smoothie place at the South Bay Galleria!), gay men's chorus on the 11th, open-eye discussion with stan the 11th. And now this morning: @#$%!!! I don't know why, but I freaked out during my daily calc quiz today and when I walked out of the classroom i realized I forgot to find the roots of the functions! The easiest part and I skipped over it. I hope with all my might that he'll see the work. ARG! If only I had been calm and reviewed before the quiz and looked over more examples. AGH! I know it wont make a difference if I lose a few points, but my obsessive want of a perfect score it insatiable. And this lower points score will only make me more obsessive. what a freak. what a freak!!! TUESDAY, JULY 8, 2003 -- Did i say? Im working on secret project for a business starting up? I'll be creating the logo and brochure! I've got to start up with some good old fashion hand drawings again. I hope Ive got the skills in tact. UCLA campus tour tomorrow with Stan!. I should also be working on Magnificent Mac. He was a character I created for a spanish child's book. What other news is there? Email me people! Tell me about you lives! MONDAY, JULY 7, 2003 -- FOUNTAIN HEAD My sister's Bday's coming up and Ive nothing in mind yet! Maybe I should get her a DVD that i like- Gah! I ran to this lab earlier and showed some signs of exercise lackage! Must go jogging today. Must! I was at the Bergamont Station Arts Gallery in Santa Monica with Kei-wun after making and eating sushi (love love them) and took a few pictures there, undoubtedly violating a copyright law or something. But just as long as im using it for "educational" purposes, I needn't worry, right? Slurp me, not me slurp- it's a statement, not a command. And that's for yesterday. Costco on Saturday by myself with no one but an item that connects me to family and friends. Friday was a fun night with the family out. My dad learned that its rude to not finish the food that he gets, and my mom's opinion that eat-outs are a waste of money has been reinforced. And that's it for this day's update of absolutely insignificanciness-eritifully-domtiousasy. FRIDAY, JULY 4, 2003 -- HAPPY ID! That's Independence Day. Sigh... the more i know about you, the more I love! Up and down up and down, psychology study as life's key to human pattern, and e.s.p./mind-reading! How adorable, strong and fascinating you are! Man...my man. my my my. Guess what? I heart U! Thank you Ren of APAIT for giving out tickets to the LA Philharmonic "Moonlight on the Sea" concert at the Hollywood Bowl, performing this month on the 24th! A value of approx. 40 bucks each! What an awesome special event! This past Wednesday I was at Griffith Park with Stan, My sis and the people of APAIT. I've forgotten how fun badminton was. Ah, seven year Golf, how tiny life is. Welp, today in honor of the Declaration of Independence, and also in combination to my sister's up-coming birthday next week, my whole complete immediate family, the six of us, will go on a family outting, a rare event where all of us are freed from work and away from friends to enjoy and appreciate this once-in-a-blue-moon occurance. The last time I can remember when it was just the all of us was ... too many years ago. I hope y'all enjoy this July 4th! WEDNESDAY, JULY 2, 2003 -- HEY YOU, WALKING BILLBOARD! Why are you going about advertising for companies and not getting anything in return from them? Are you a dope? Stop that, it's stupid! Brand names on a simple t-shirt sold for what should be free if its got their company logo! Walking around as though you were hired by them flashing to others what brand name you're slaving for next! Ah, correction for yesterday's entry: I learned that Legally Blond II opens tonight, and that last night I was invited to a pre-screening. So how was it? I wouldn't know because Carlos and I never made it through the door! A line had already formed 3 hours prior to the screening, and since I did not know it was on a first come first serve basis, we had planned to eat dinner first. Carlos, you had the ticket, you should have known! Adjacent Angle! Although they had only one space reserved for people on a wheelchair (that being Carlos), he, being the super duper considerate and polite and good thoughtful friend, decided it wouldn't be much a movie without me joining him, so he stayed out...aww Thanks Carlos for demonstrating the super duper considerate and polite good thoughtful friend that you are =). In other news, jimmy has opened up, yeowch! Hopefully, it wouldn't be such a pain anymore soon, so I can get back at what I enjoy doing. Jimmy is now much better looking in my opinion, being opened. And this is it for the week since school will be closed tomorrow and Friday in preparation for Independece Day, whoo hoo! TUESDAY. JULY 1, 2003 -- AND YET ANOTHER MONTH ROLLS ALONG Ado for my performance in doing below expectations on my quiz! Send me a steed to ride away from this place i place my foot on! Where does the days go when i dance (metaphorically) with a beat unlike all else but just blends in together like noise that die in the air beyond this atmoshpere? "We are all bound by our expereiences" says ADAM of METROID FUSION. People want to feel like they're something when yes, we blend in a crowd of people and attention becomes a high demand and so what do some of us do? Create blogs and hope that it stands out like jelly donut but in all honesty its just a Krispy Kreme that you can get at any other location with less sugar coated (and at a greater price)! Just observe my train of thought, and i hope you dont see the wisom in them, seriously! Do not read into my thoughts, it's dumb like Leonardo's David. All it is, is a lustful artist with a desire for creating his own beauty and having the right to define it anyway he likes, since d'uh its his creation and only he has the ability to see what its meant to be. He has no right, although, to see what its meant to be, since "rights" are not given or obtain, but some ideal someone doodoo-ed for a divine purpose and you can tell I took a semester of philiosopy of law and ethics. In whatever the purpose, ive tweeked yesterday's journal entry of mine's so that this bog wouldn't be so lenghthy. All i did was added stupid people to the list of what I'd like to go "see-ya" in this short life. Play SCRABBLE everybody! You'd get into a feist when you find out that "ti" and "la" and "ha" and "hah" and "haha" are all real words. Also "aa" and "re" and "fa" and "stupid" are "as" well. Lunch i need lunch. Oh! Ill be watching Legally Blond II tonight with goodol' Carlos, and the first movie was blond-irrific, or Reese-tastic, ah whatever, pick your choosing. It was great. |