| JUNE.2002 WHAT'S UP archives contain the random thoughts, feelings and life-event entries of Jimmy Dinh and may be affiliated with bias and prejudice. All opinions are subject to disagreement among readers and ignorance of the writer. Read at your own discretion. Enjoy! TUESDAY, JUNE 25, 2002 -- A NEW LAYOUT! I am working busily to have this whole site changed! omg...the layout, i envision, will be so neat, everyone! I just learned how to save in GIF files (yeah, pretty late) and so this is gonna be so dope! Just everyone wait! Well...lets see... I got a ticket yesterday for a parking violation on Manhattan Blvd. Actually, there was a line of cars, dozens maybe, and they ALL had a ticket. The parking signs, really, they should be bigger. archives SATURDAY, JUNE 22, 2002 -- GRANDIOSE UPDATES! I'm proud to announce, there has been major uploading of new content this past week! And thanks to Henry, I've decided to write out the whole day and date on my entries. You could find a link to Henry's site by going to the INTERDEPENDENCE page - which reminds me, i need to change that dumb name. 06.11.02 CAUGHT! I must've been delusional thinking I could draw like some experienced expert on my frist attempt at drawing from the nude. There was a male model today in life drawing named Xavier but he was a professional; he was very still =o). Thin man, with his six pack and bisceps showing with all his manly parts dangling. HAHA. Ok now, go look at some art links. archives 06.10.02 "HI MY NAME IS JIMMY AND I WAS BORN AT A VERY YOUNG AGE..." It's about time I came back here, huh? It's been the longest time I've been away from my only refuge. Lately, the sun's been making me this impatient other me and I'm just so angry at the burning sun looking at me and picking on my skin and burning it like it wants beef jerky. I need to calm down... I hate the summer sun. I really do! It was nice the other day(Friday?) when it was cloudy and breezy and I felt like going out when I didn't. Found my new favorite movie in the whole wide world: Lawn Dogs. I'm planning to do my INTERESTS page. Welp, it's Monday today. It's also June and summer's begun, but I've taken summer classes. Started Life Drawing today and Speech was last week. My first speech was a hit: people laughed and the teacher announced that it was an A speech. Now who could deny the greatness of that? Ha... Lets see...I saw Insomnia, a movie, on May 30th, a Thursday, with friend Freddie and went to Magic Mountain the following Sunday with kookie Betty. Pictures are coming. And I've got a NEW toy guys!!! Friday May 31st was the day I bought myself a Wacom Graphic Tablet for 100 dollars!!! This thing I have been searching for a long while now. Pretty soon, you'll see some of my art digitized! YAY! archives Copyright (c) Jimmy Dinh 2002 MAY.2002 WHAT'S UP archives are my on-line logs for life-changing events, thoughts and sometime just plain random-ness.These entries may not reflect those opinions of the viewer, so it is advised that you read with an open head and over-analysis in some portions may help 05.23.02ii *# % @ $ ! I'm such a failure. Now it's time to kick myself all the way to fall semester. 05.23.02 N I H A O ! Yesterday's fortune cookie: Your determination will bring you much success. Sounds like today I must get Phillip's number ^ _ ^ And oh, on Tuesday night, It [Was] Done. 05.20.02 WHAT IS WEIRDER THAN LIFE? I was just snacking yesterday, a boring Sunday with nothing to do, walking around and thinking and coming to a self-realization. I was asking myself how the heck am I thinking, how am i operating, and how the hellers did the whole universe got started. Weird, I thought, and very curious!!! But then I thought about what NOTHING, no life, no anything, would be like instead, and it's hard to imagine such a concept, because 'nothing' is impoosible since there's gotto be something to name it nothing, and nothing can't be just a black, sucking-vacuum, because then that's something. It can't have a color, a name, nothing! And now I'm wondering if it's possible to get something from 'nothing', because that's obviously where we came from. archives 05.16.02 LIES ARE DIRTY, AND SO IS THE TRUTH I know how lies work. They're there to cover up stuff and they build up into a mess when it gets out of hand. They cause confusion and pain and all that bad stuff, but sometimes it helps to lie, to cover up something hurtful. Afterall, sometimes we lie to avoid the consequences of confrontation, but you know what? The truth will always surface and cause a bigger mess. Wait, I contradicted myself, huh? Well, I guess Im saying that lies are good and bad, and so is the truth, and thats because I feel just as filthy sometimes when coming clean. huh... Well, i've been just anticipating school to be over soon. Im going to a big event for cool people this weekend with my sister, so its gonna be such a blast!!! I'm also supposed to be looking over the summer programs for classes, since they do offer busy-ness. Busy-ness and sometimes fun. Yeah, I'm going to need something to do in the summer so I'd appreciate it, haha. archives 05.10.02 I don't know what happened, but my home page, this page, went completely blank! It was white and everything here was erased! Well, not all was wasted, because luckily, I had the original page opened, so all I needed to do to re-do this page was copy and paste. So what do you think about the new green color? I thought I'd change it since green was my favorite color. Hm...as for updates...not much was added...um, go check out my Resident Evil art if you havent yet! And while you're at that, sign my guestbook! It's looks pathetic. I also mailed off my RE last Wednesday, the 8th of May. 05.07.02 DEAR JOURNAL I was unable to watch Spiderman the movie on Friday because of all the fan boys who went and got their tickets a day early. No, actually, many of the afternoon showings were sold out but I couls wait. Still haven't gone to see it. Went to see "Love's Labour's Lost" on Friday that night for English class, thought it was boring, fell asleep because I was tired, tired because the play was boring, and probably boring because I wasn't paying too much attention because I was tired. The parts I did stay awake for, though, were pretty funny. Archives 05.03.02 SWINGING INTO ACTION! Today is the big day for all the Spidey fans out there! I myself never read any of the Spiderman comics because I guess no one introduced me to the comic-craze until my mid-teen years, and even then I was attracted to other comics, mostly by the art and such. But I think my favorite comic hero has to be Batman, because he's the only guy that seems to actually use his brains and doesn't rely too much on super powers. But then, Smallville has made me look at Superman a little differently. So I'm going out later this afternoon with my friend David to catch the flick since it's such a hotly anticipated movie. Do I go for movies that get publicized like crazy? No, cuz movies that are heavely get promoted tend to use big bucks and lose site of the fundamantal joy of just watching a movie. I'm going to see Tobey Maguire here! I've never heard of him til this movie, but I heard he's gone through some transformation! He's got that innocent, weak boy look, but oh, deception had the better of me. Some preview thing I saw showed his sexy abs! Yummy... And Kirsten Dunst, the movie that made me remember her name was INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE with Brad Pit and Tom Cruz, she's in the movie as the red head, nice. I liked her performance in that. So yea, after that David and I've got only enough time to eat dinner, then it's time for a Shakespeare play: "Love's Labour's Lost." Don't know what the story is about yet, so I should go search for a synopsis of it. Just hope it's entertaining, cuz the only reason I'm out to watch the play is to get the credit of writing about it for English class. Crickets... annoying little critters when you've got them inside your room, CRICK CRICK the hell out of you at night when your trying to sleep, but oh so soothing when they're outside behind walls...funny how same things are different under different circumstances. My older brother last night hunted for one inside our house and succeeded in killing the bastard. 2nd one in consecutive nights. The night before, he killed one in my room, good riddance! Archives 05.02.02 IT'S MAY!!! I have some past events I wanna record before I forget them. On Saturday night, April 27, I went bowling with some strangers. The only one I knew there was a high school friend named Salvedor, who was also the one who invited me. He had all these friends of his come along, and it's strange that he apologized for such, what he thought, a rotten time...or at least displeasurable. I didn't mind too much. He's got some very interesting friends, I'm telling you. First we picked up his one friend Shajin who just moved from England a year ago. He was intriguing, with our talk about culture and all that, and how he's raised drinking and whatnots. Then we went over to Laura's place, a place where many of Sal's friends get, and I am quoting, "f**k*d" up. Yep, interesting, yet again. Of course I couldn't drink because I was the designated driver, mind you! But no, I wouldn't any way. So there in Laura's place was Liz, a dancer / actress / working girl! She's got connections to some high profile people, or so it seems, and she's already done commercials, appeared on music videos, ect ect! Nice girl, but she ended up throwing up outside my car while she stuck her head out of the window, me driving to Gable's House of bowling. How could no one else in the car not have noticed??? It was rather funny seeing the path the vomit made streaming across the side of my car... Eh well... So now we're at the bowling place, an hour late. I was supposed to arrive at Sal's place at 7:30PM, but I could'nt find his place until about 8:00 and then we were waiting for some people at Laura's and poor Lucy who was at the bowling place waiting for all of us to come! So yea, we arrived at about 9:00 and waited yet again for some whatever reason, and ok, lemme say I had some fun although I came in third place (hey, this is my third time out for bowling!) and yeah, fun nonetheless. Well, I picked up my reserved copy of Resident Evil yesterday and it's beautiful. I reserved it about a week ago at FuncoLand because they were giving out free RE T-shirts. Pretty nice way of securing a customer! So I am off to class now. Later everybody! Archives Copyright(c) Jimmy Dinh 2002 APRIL.2002 WHAT'S UP archives contain the random thoughts, feelings and life-event entries of Jimmy Dinh and may be affiliated with bias and prejudice. All opinions are subject to disagreement among readers and ignorance of the writer. Read at your own discretion. Enjoy! 04.30.02 THEORY OF NATURAL DISPLACEMENT Are pretzels a good source of energy to get you through the morning? I hope so. Is there such a law that states the natural displacement of objects and everything else? I'm pretty sure there is. I've heard it somewhere before. Anyway, I'm a great believe of that theory, and to illustrate that, lemme talk about my bedroom. Every weekend, it is the time to be nagging at me to clean my room. It's hardly fair to make me clean my room because EVERYONE comes in there and makes a mess! My little brother, sister, kids... it's really a waste of time for me, cleaning my room, because it always goes back to the way it is a week later! I am so serious! And i don't mind when it goes back to being untidy because when it is untidy, that's when I could find a pair of scissors if I need one, and anything else for that metter! On the other hand, when it's all neat an tidy (or in other words, when everything is just put away from the eyes), I can never find a darn diddy thing when I need it! Everything eventually goes back to the way it is, I think... Unless there's some strong will, they should be left where-ever they may be on the ground. 04.26.02 I've been slowing down on my What's Up entries, to me at least it seems. I've been using my free time on working on my Resident Evil picture, and it's really so relaxing and i just lose myself. Well, I made a list of things i want to do, and it's a list that's going to grow and grow. What I listed under what I need to rent has someone I've started to keep tabs on =] and what I put under movies to watch are movies my family owns, but I havent gotten around to watching them yet! It's funny, isn't it? I pay for movies and watch them, but when the movie is there for all the watching free-ness, i don't take advantage of it! I guess it's something I think will stick around forever and I won't realize how fortunate I am to have them right now! So should I watch them? Pearl Harbor and Star Wars? I've been meaning to watch them, but procrastination always has the control over me. Well, that is all for today. Lame update. Archives 04.23.02 Where's My Motivation? I added new sections to my site so that anything that promotes myself will be there, so you wouldn't have to hear about my shameless ego boosters under this section anymore. Something I also added is a section for projects I'm working on and hopefully it would encourage me to work on a lot of projects just so that the section would grow. I must say, my latest project is a Resident Evil fan art and I don't seem to have any other motivation unless I get to be on glossy pages or if it's worth grade. Well, no more, because I plan on doing art for myself...soon. As soon as I finish this one. I've got to go study. More promotions and stuff coming after I finish some work. Bye! Archives 04.19.02 EUREKA! I was trying to do add guestgear's guestbook and I found a neat little trick instead! You see, I've always had to work around a small framed window when creating a page on my site (resolution 800x600). Well, If I went under FORMAT, GEOCITIES.COM's website building tool apparently has an option to set the window at any resolution! I thought that was so neat, and so slap-on-the head obvious! So now I am in the middle of chaning all my pages so they don't look all unbalance when viewing my site at a monitor setting of 800x600. So what are the steps for those who want to know: click on FORMAT atop the menu, click on PAGE PROPERTIES, and enter any resolution number you want for the width and height!!! neat and I need food! Archives 04.18.02 The Drive Theory And Coming Out: Art rules! I am now in a state of high drive reduction, and what positive reinforcement I feel! I'm coming to my homeostasis level of drive now, and I wouldn't mind if I were at a low point of it either; heck no, not a bit. I crammed on a reseach paper last night and this morning and may I say, I think I did a hells of a good job! I impressed my classmates with a little of what I shared in class today and they were all like "whoa, wow, gasp!" Yep yep, the glory baby! I am free! Free from working and stressing over that paper! I thought this day'd NEVER come! whew... like OK there was something that happened to on Sunday April the 14th and I thought it wouldn't come so soon. My parents are so caring and they completely and sincerely want to know all there is to it, and although they really don't accept the concept, or rather they are still new to it, they do know that hey, the sausage they've got still tastes the same. Like who cares if it's different meat or whatever sausages are made of, as long as it still tastes the same. I guess I underestimated their unconditional love = ] So am I crazy? You'd better believe it! Last night, I had nothing on my research paper, and the crazy @$$ Jimmy that I am still went out to North High's Celebration of the Arts event! Tell me how brain damaged I am! It was great though! Started off with North's band, then the #10 Tin Can Band, then we headed off to the black box theatre for choir's spotlight followed with Dance, then it's off to the music room for Drama's attention, and then my favorite part, the Library, where drawings and masks and ceramic pieces were abundant! And of course there were refreshments and cake, delish~! Saw my past teachers Ms Shute and Mrs Barnard. Great, wonderful teahcers - love them. And some old friends, including Hyper Hui, aka "chewy (derived from her name Chu, Hui)." I am telling you, in the singing segment of the show, she was just cracking up as though it were some comedy show with Jim Carrey! Of course I think my sister kinda loosened the silence when she kinda bursted out with what was supposed to be a laugh-held-in. Well, lets say they kinda passed their goofiness on to me, contagious, but i tried to resist. Really, I did, but it only mad matters worst. Oh, and one more little story about Hui: she is such a romantic; she found some cliche teenage love story from the drama segment to be absolutely poignant. She was like "awww" and "oooOOH!" I'm sorry for talking about you Hui, you're too funny to not share with others! I'm planning on having more pictures up tomorrow, so stay tuned! Arhives 04.16.02 Updates! Further updates under the DREAM SPACE link. You'll find some digital art stuff I did last semester, 2001, with Adobe Illustrator 9.0. I am starting to see my capacity for files on GEOCITIES.COM dwindling! You see, they allow 15MB of space and I'm down to like 11 already. Like ugh/agh aw and arg and hmph! Which reminds me: No Mav, I dont have a problem with typing =] Yesterday, Monday the 15th, was my cousin Cathy's birthday, so Happy Birthday Cathy! I was at her place Friday night and the following day, and boy, I sure got fed well and lack of sleep. It was fun though, seeing my little cousins Alex and Brian, and Tony and Lisa. I can't seem to judge my portion on food at HomeTown Buffet. That place is evil I say!!! EVEL! yea, evil with an 'E'! I'm waiting to see the goofy pictures my cousins took. It's gonna be embarassing. Well, I guess I should go do something productive now~. Archives 04.12.02 Added even more sculpture art to my DREAM SPACE page. Some girl I did and some naked guy I tried to test my skill with. I am seriously hungry right now. I need lunch before I start chewing on this pen i'm hold and getting ink spill all over me. Everyone, have a great weekend, ok? I predict that there will be no updates until next Friday, but I'm no psychic, so don't listen to me. Before I forget: Saturday April 6th, visited TNF with Kim and catched up on lives of friends I haven't seen for maybe over half a year!!! And the Sunday after that I went to Santa Monica's pier and that side-walk mall place to get that book by R.O.B. Alrighty!!! Arhives 04.10.02 Did This And That, Felt This And That I feel like I'm just floating around. I don't know what to do sometimes and I just wonder around in my mind and find myself lost from my surrounding, or reality. I blame the whole daylight saving mechanism, pushing one hour ahead and causing me to lose some of my sleep. And now I'm not completely focusing and I feel like I'm floatind around in my head and knowing not what to do. Maybe I should start having an organized planner to schedule my activites and actually see where my day is going. This might do good to my productivity. Oh, I added BARRAGE to my links page, so check that out! My brain feels so hot. I feel like a lot of steam is venting through the pores on my head. well well well, farewell! archives 04.09.02 My Guide to Healing a Thumb Wound On Sunday afternoon, I was getting ready for the workshop with guest speaker, Robert Olen Butler! I needed a shave, and I was already behind my schedule, so I quickly grabbed a shaver to start shaving. A cap was covering the blade so I guess without thinking, I pulled the stubborn cap off but it left my thumb sliding up towards the blade and ouch! My thumb was quickly bleeding since I had cut off a piece of skin and I was panicking and sucking my own blood (sweet and salty) and letting the running water clean my finger and looking for a band-aid. I was surprised I didn't feel like blacking-out! So I wrapped my thunb with two bandages, tied the blood stream up with a rubberband to stop bleeding, ended up not shaving anymore and headed out to meet the author. So I tried forgetting about the wound, attended a great lecture-words that I will now try to live by-and even got the author to sign my copy of the book I was looking for and a picture of him and me! Together! Yippie! I get home, and I unwrap the soaked bandages from my my thumb. I use the bloody spot on my finger to scare my brother and sister, and had a little fun with it. But once that was over, I covered it back up. My dad saw the wound, and he wanted to help by rubbing some Mercurolear on it, some anesthetic, antiseptic liquid. I was scared! I was already getting nauseated by the thought of the pain and wanted to resist, but I came to agreement and he rubbed some on the wound with cotton swabs and guess what? It wasn't painful, not at all. I covered it back up with a bandaid and the next day, Monday, I'm driving home and i realized that my skin needs some of the sun's touch and air to breathe! I mean I'm no dermatologist, but I figure air and sun is the only way life grows - like any plant. So now I'm looking at the wound right now, and it's as deep as I originally thought it was. The nasty little razors and the stubborn cap was the cause of this, and maybe a little of my unthinking, and though it was a horrible incident at the time, give it some persepctive and it's not so bad. And I realize help doesn't always have to be so bad. Sometimes it's a lot easier than you might expect, so never go without the lending hand of others. And most importantly, how will you know the progress of the healing process if you wrap-up the wound? Let it take some air and sunlight in, and you'll see that it slowly makes its way back to a solid piece of un-tampered skin. Well, enough with my thumb. I'm trying to add some other stuff on my site, and I still have some events on Sunday I want to write about. I also have somepictures I want to add. This update to whats up has exceeded it's limit, goodbye. archives 04.05.02 It's because I'm Asian, HUH? Big great update to my pictures' page! I added pictures from DisneyLand, so go on over there! I'm looking for a copy of A Good Scent From A Strange Mountain: Stories by Robert Olen Butler because Butler's coming to my school as a guest speaker and I want his autograph! I love his short stories! I fell instantly in love with "Fairy Tale" which was a fairy-tale type story about a Vietnamese prostitute who meets an American soldier, they love and live happily-ever-after. Of course, you should read it if you want to know the whole story. I should be busy this weekend what with all the tests next week and my nature of procrastinating. Oh people, sign my guestbook. I've started to promote it shamelessly already. hm.. I was at Betty's house yesterday, had lunch with her at McDonald's(no!) first, and we talked and talked. We talked and I ate all my food and, it being lunch time, there were a lot of people at the resaurant. Pointless details, ha yea, but Betty has a whole collection of great movies! DVD and VHS - I'm turning away from Movies 'n' You for a while! Great way to save money and regain my zero amount of money, but another factor to help me in my true procrastinatory ways. Um, Never Been Kissed with Drew Barrymore (with super, no-name, cuties!!!) and Bowfinger I must watch. archives 04.03.02 Honorable mentions Added links to MAX BOOST today and BAKANA some time ago. Updated the 'abstractions' page sometime yesterday and the day before that. I put up a coupla sculptures I did back in high school in my ceramics class (that class rocks!). I loved that class. It was so easy to lose myself and of time whenever I touched clay. I'd think of ceramics during school, while im sleeping, and while taking a shower, no kidding! Well, I'm off to see a chiropractor now. Don't worry, nothing's wrong with my body, except maybe my extra flabbers, weak posture...but that's beside the point = ] archives 04.02.02 Smokey the bear says: "always wear your seat-belt" Okay, like, what the h*ll, why's it always me who gets into a car accident (read my thoughts about this at the end of the story)? This morning, after dropping my sister off at school, I was driving east on 182nd St and stopped behind a line of cars and it seemed not to move. I made aU-turn and drove west. So there I was driving and paying attention to all the cars around me, and what do I see ahead of me is a car that obediently stops at a stop sign from an intersection where the driver must make a left ot right turn, no straight-ahead driving. So yes, she stopped, I drove on when suddenly the car jumps in front of me, stops in the middle of my lane, and although I presssed the brakes in as far as it can go, I slammed right into the car, the driver's door. That moment of impact was so quick, but I could remember so much in that split second: my arms were erect on the steering wheel to brace myself, my feet was pressed so firmly on the brakes but natural physics would prevent me from stopping at a dime, I could hear the "eeek" from my tires, and when I hit the car, I think blood rushed to my head and I was able to smell it for a brief moment. My car's engine totally shut down, so I was stuck there. The seat-belt had pulled me back, and I felt it's strength later when my chest was aching. I had so many thoughts going through my head; they were just rushing and it made my whole body shake. I think the first thought I had was I must've injured whoever was driving in that car, because I had hit the driver's door! I tried to get out of the car, that was my first impulse, but stupid me! If it hadn't been the stubborn door that wouldn't open all the way any more, I might have gotten run over by another car! Anyway, the door opened only a few inches, so I closed it and looked around my car to get my head together. I looked out the window to see that the driver is at least alive, since she was able to drive over to a place to park. Thank Goodness! So relieved as I was, I thought I should go and gather information. I ran over to to the car (and oh, I was still in my sleeping clothes!!! Purplish boxers and a youth-sized tee!!!) and tried to open the door, but it was stuck. I ran over to the other side and made sure that the 80 year old lady was OK. *whew* Old lady-- okay-- admitted it was her fault--I was lucky to have someone so honest. Then some girl runs across the street to help out, but she claims not to have witnessed a thing. And a lady drives by and asks if she should call for help. Gathering my normal state of mind, I ran back to my car to move it away from traffic. Well, the firemen and an officer arrived to assist and file a report. Im just really glad no one was seriously injured, that's all. The lady and I was able to talk a bit, and I think it's very important, that connection. So my car is moderately wrecked, not like the other time when a 75 y/o lady hit my car twice from the back. This was sometime back in Aug-Sept of 2001. The trunk was like a crumpled sheet of paper. It always turned a head on the streets! It looked hilarious. Too bad I never took a picture of it:( Thoughts: So I have two things I wanna say: first, I am feeling really guilty about grabbing a pencil and paper when I was leaving my car to see the driver. I'm now wondering: what was my priority? To maybe be able to help the driver if she WAS injured as soon as I was able to, or was it to make sure that the damages were going to be paid? And when I opened her door, even though the first question was wheather she was okay or not, was I not more interested in obtaining papers? And the girl who ran over to help (or be nosey), was she the contrast of my humanity? I really am fighting myself about this. But I think the only thing I need to know is: If I ever killed, even manslaughtered, ANYONE, I'd have restless sleeps forever. My other thought was the intent of time. Sometimes I feel that everything is just intricately planned that the events in our lives are unavoidable. Like everything that happens in our lives happen for a reason. I really do believe in making our own paths in life, but some events just seem to fall in place so well together, it makes me wonder about fate. This moring was an exceptionally odd morning when compared to my average days. I usually take my sister to school every morning, but this morning I was a lot more lazy. I was in bed probably about an extra minute, and that minute that I delayed surely would have changed everything. But, when I go further back, I wonder what would have happened if my sister hadn't slept so late, because she sort of kept me up longer than I planned. I mean there were so many little instances that could have taken or given me a second more to either drive away safely or another second for the lady to think. Well... what do you think? 04.01.02 April Fools?! What am I doing? I should be typing my paper as of this moment! But what the heck. I can't concentrate if I've got something to let go of. The only thing that can motivate me now is fear. Do i have enough fear yet? Apparently not. I am broke from spring break. Broke like the guy at McDonalds from friday night who asked me to get him some fries. I didn't have money! I gave him my 63 cents, and I was broke. My last cents. Now there's no $$$ in my wallet. Not a single cent. I've got a postage stamp, but what could that buy? And what else is in there... a band-aid, a couple, actually... I.D.s and receits--Tina's phone number! I've got to call her. I think I have more negative dollars hanging over my shoulders than any amount of dollars I've ever had in my wallet at a time. I was glad spring break was here though... work and stress was already up to my chin. So what does this day hold? It's april fools! These once-popular 'holidays' just aren't what they used to be. Oh, I've added a new link. Check out Lori's site guys, and you might want to get to know her before she becomes famous, too. She's one of the most artsy people I know. She's great. Well, I had a couple of dreams these past nights. They were more like mini-nightmares. Anyway, I'm living one of them right now: I should have my paper finished or else the monster of regret will be hovering over me forever. I hate them. Lates! Copyright (c) Jimmy Dinh 2002 MARCH.2002 WHAT'S UP archives contain the random thoughts, feelings and life-event entries of Jimmy Dinh and may be affiliated with bias and prejudice. All opinions are subject to disagreement among readers and ignorance of the writer. Read at your own discretion. Enjoy! 03.29.02ii Contemplating I was looking at my newest pair of glasses (got them on march 12) just yesterday and discovered two huge scratches on my frames. I�m talking about a couple of deep canyons! Ugly, just ugly how it�s there beside the smooth surface. Am I exaggerating? Perhaps, huh? I wanted these frames to last forever and already it�s getting close to becoming apart of my old-frames collection. It was bothering me soo badly. I thought about getting a backup frame, the exact frame, just to make me feel less agitated but they cost 100 smackers! Money just doesn�t grow on trees, although I wish they did, but instead they are like a running faucet, used so flowingly... but in my case, a heavy waterfall! eh, anyway...So why was I making a big deal about these two scratches when I know that within 9 months I�d get new frames? What was the use of trying my all to preserve this thing? Truthfully, I don�t know how to explain it. It pains me that I get attached to my eye glasses like this, because I know it�s nothing, because it�s like the greatest accessory I have, and because I spent so much to get it, and somewhere down the line, I know it�s just gonna end up with my other glasses. Snap out of it, huh? Yeah... On a related note, I felt the same way about my arctic colored Game Boy Advance. I was so protective with it; I would keep it away from everything that might damage it. Well, needless to say, I didn�t play it too often because of the hassle of getting it out of its case and making sure of the condition of the ... well, anyway, when I finally told myself that there�s always more GBA and that Nintendo would never go extinct, I was able to enjoy it so much more than if it were to last an eternity with me playing it seldom. 03.29.02 I�m Zipping My Fly, OK? How do I begin? Should I do it chronologically or in-order of impact? I guess there�ll be less jumping from date to date if I go chrono. March 23: uh oh. I made a careless mistake. Spring cleaning, I believe it�s called, and I had already made plans to go visit my friends at a church organization. My mom, was all over my room picking up, rearranging, throwing away, and dusting everything; all day, and I needed a break. Church time at 7:00pm, yay, so my sibs and I leave early to be free. Unfortunately, when I�d return to home sweet home, I�d become constrained by suspicion and looked at like I were another person. Pale, was I, and weak at heart. There was a lot of tension between us, my mom and me. What a killing feeling it was when my dad came home and I was just standing outside of their room trying to hear their conversation, spoken in a whispered voice, secretive and worried. It was eating me up. I was 95% sure about what they were talking about, and 100% sure when, the next day, my mom talked to my older brother and I came afterwards to inquire about their talk. Confirmed. She had gotten to my brother first, and what a shame because I wanted to be the one to tell him. I was nauseated, didn�t want to do anything that day. My brother, he�s gonna be the strength that�ll help me whenever I need it. Everything will eventually work out. That night, I took Ann and myself to Linda�s belated birthday party. Viet, My, Tony N., Dang, Hung, Tuan and some other faces I wanted to see, were all there. I didn�t stay too long because when I picked up Ann, her mom made me join the dinner table to eat with the family and the guests-Ann�s aunts, uncles and cousins. I was so out of place. March 25: Disneyland, the happiest place on Earth! Sahan, Kenichi, Khalid and I had one of the best times ever! We arrived around 8 but we were already having bloody-fun! These guys are dorks, just like me! HAha, no offense guys, I meant that sincerely. We ate at a private restaurant, Club 33, located in the New Orleans Square area of the park. Bloody-great food, very exquisite and way formal. Unexpected was my friends� total curiosity about me and me being the center of interest, haha. I think I learned more about each guy then the 3 or 4 years that I�ve known them in high school. OH, Disney California Adventure was a bloody-blast! That�s where the best rides are. If you haven�t been, try the ride with the, uh, loop. I can�t find the map with all the ride�s names, but I�ll look it up later. March 26: Sahan and I went to go get our great memories developed. We ate at El Pollo Loco while waiting (thanks Sahan, you�re bloody-cool). Then there was a lot of driving back and forth because Say-han wanted to get a set from my negatives. Bloody-worth-while stalling : ) March 27: Breakfast for lunch at Original House of Pancakes with Ann and Cecilia! I got to actually tell Cecilia a piece of info before Ann got to her, lol. This was also the first time I to tried crepes, and mandarin crepes was what I ordered, along with a baby cup of apple juice. Well, the lunch was basically time for catching up and nostalgia settled in - again. Great people are everywhere, I tell you! EVERYWHERE~!! March 28: I was planning to be totally louging around my secluded room, when who would call is the man I�ve been trying to reach, Maveric! We planned to go watch a play at our old high school entitled �Get Smart.� The play was fun; plot was weird. After the play, we went to Steve�s and that�s when I learned the right way to eat, haha. Besides that significant piece of knowledge, we talked, we laughed, and shared each of our own little stories to one another. It just comes to show that no one�s got a clear road and there�s always a rock that�s tough to jump over. Good luck Mav. 03.22.02 We All live in a yellow submarine I was thinking: maybe I should stop playing around with the layout of my site and messing with the colors; that way, I'd have a lot more content on my site! Ok, what did I add today? I started a compilation of quotes under abtractions but it always seems Im going nowhere with my site. At least my life gets recorded here often enough, eh? It's a little past noon right now. I am hungry! I've got...2 dollars and 25 cents in my pocket. Oh, that's enought to get the 2 for 2.22 big mac deal at Mcdonalds, but'I've already sworn never to return to that place again, unless my bladder get's anxious. Spring Break! OMG.. It has begun! Some shout-outs to my fans: Mav, Ann, Scott, Sahan, Linda, Dee, Quyen, Dung, Clara, I'll see you this crazy weekend! And all you other people I might have skipped over, I'll see you guys too! I'm outtie guys! archives 03.21.02 asymmetrical My face is asymmetrical! I've added some more links to my "traffic's" page, so go check them out. I have Dan's and Joseph's up. Also, Maveric's got some... interesting pictures up from Halloween; you don't wanna miss that! and spring break is coming! yea! 03.18.02 let's finish So what the heck did i ramble on and on yesterday..? Put into nutshell: Go watch Resident Evil, my friday was the bomb, people are so cool, my older brother's still got the kid in him, and Sunday was my nightmare. I didn't intend on not finishing my story, not that anyone cares... but let's finish what happened on Sunday at my interview. So i arrived right on time, 3:00, and the meeting starts with a video. Sounds great, i thought, but when the actually talk began, I slowly realized that this whole organization, the PACT, Positive Alternative Thinking Today, was a big, clever CON! A PLOY! I don't care what you call it, but I felt that the whole thing was corrupt. The ad and their site said I'd mentor kids, play, talk, hang-out, be a role model for these "at-risk" youths whose parents don't speak english and blah blah, being paid a lot of money for this too, but they mentioned squat about having to walk door-to-door to seel some subscription! They said nothing about using these kids to soften the hearts of these people, to use them as some weapon to get money! And No! Helping these kids? What is this program teaching? They're learning how to "be enthusiastic" while talking about their "fun PACT" program. And poor parents of these kids, because they don't even speak english!!! ARG! There's so many things about this PACT i could go on and on about! What have people become? ... yeah...this sux. archives March 29th, 2002. Everything under this page has disappeared forever as a result from my clumsiness! I am so stupid, stupid! NO OOO~!! All that writing, gone, gone forever!!!! But not all is vain. I've learned something invaluable: always have a back up copy. Always. On paper too! Computers have always been something that's hard to trust. So what was here, huh? Well, being the first archives page, it contained my welcome message, posted on 02.22.02. Good thing that date was so easy to remember. It was also the day I opened my site to the public, yay! So let's just get an outline of events: . . . FEBRUARY . 2002 02.22.02 - opened up my site. Smiled like dork due to satisfying beginning.. 02.24.02 - visited paternal cousins whom i haven't seen for ~2 years! Play at Crossroad High, real and funny. 03.08.02 - went to visit Ann at UCIrvine, got scolded from mom, received $ for new frames, talked to Scott. 03.12.02 - picked up hot new frames for my face:) 03.13.02 - watched Time Machine with Scott. Had a great day. 03.14.02 - beautiful day, beautiful weather, happy mood. 03.15.02 - went on the Zipper at fair on Western, went to beach, it was cold, watched Resident Evil with sibs, exhausted. and between all this, there were many updates. Um, that's all I can recall, darn. Copyright (c) Jimmy Dinh 2002 |