Saturday, October 30, 2oo4
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Posted by Jenni at 11:20 pm |
Welcome Diana to Angelic Insanity's exchanging network! Please visit her beautiful website!! If you're interested in exchanging affiliates with me, please proceed here and read more about it. On a side note, Happy Early Halloween to all! Be safe and have lots of fun!! I'll probably be back like tomorrow, and HOPEFULLY a new layout soon if school isn't overloading me *sigh*
Posted by Jenni at 1:15 pm |
Friday, October 29, 2oo4
I am getting lazy, and partly because this week I am feeling really down and sad. I have no mood, and I just realized alot more to my life than I used to. It's all within that protected post so if you want to read it, grant my permission. I wrote these two poems while I am so down, so it sounds like crap but oh well.
**Not meant to be
It was once so deep and touching
The moment that I found you I couldn't hide my feelings
You buried me within your embrace
I felt nothing but your warmness as I lean against your face
My life seems complete
With you here, there's no other thing I'll ever need
But whenever your attitude seems strange and weird
I start to doubt us, and all I can feel is insecure
Without knowing it we grew further and further apart
My life seems empty, my soul is incomplete & I shed many tears within my heart
I don't know how to move forward without you by my side
You were my one and only, you were my guide
Now you're gone forever
And I realized we're never meant to be together
I've always look back and wonder
Wonder about the question that I always seem to be pondering over
How much was your love for me?
If it was strong enough, I would've been able to see
Maybe you don't love me the way I love you
Maybe our love wasn't meant to be true
As I sit here I start to think of the past we once shared
But reality told me that you no longer care
I am lost in the dark, without any lights to guide my life
The day you left me my heart felt shattered, stabbed by a million knives
I am dreaming of you in my fantasy
Although in reality, we're never meant to be
**Broken
You passed by my side quickly, like a gush of wind
My spirits you captured, my soul you locked within
I stare at the broken pieces of my heart
Wondering why did I even let this relationship start
All it brings to me is painful heartaches
Everytime I think of the scene you walk away from me I start to shake
I know that everything is over
Nothing is worth my time to reminisce and treasure
But I cannot deny the fact that I love you
Although you left me I still imagined us two
Flying kites, building sand castles, and you grabbing onto my waist touching my sash
No matter how happy we were it's gone within a nimble flash
Why does it have to be you that I'm in love with
If only I met someone else I don't need to live a life of darkness
Yet in reality I am in love with you
There's no way to forget you, no matter what I do
I've tried all I can and know it
Anyway I try to revive our love we'll still be separate
In the end the only thing you left me are broken pieces of memories
Memories of you and me, memories of our once so ever touching love story
Posted by Jenni at 11:47 pm |
Tuesday, October 26, 2oo4
I guess I totally forgot about the entry I wrote late late at night on Saturday, because it's a protected entry. I forgot to add a link to it here. BlEh... so scroll back to Saturday for it.
Posted by Jenni at 8:40 pm |
Saturday, October 23, 2oo4
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Posted by Jenni at --- pm |
Well as you can see I am back!! ^^ This is going to be like a short blog, and I'll try to not be lazy. I made another new 'free layout' for you guys, but I am too lazy to code it and things so I'll do that later and if I finish by today, I'll post it up or tomorrow I will. I've been neglecting this site for so long *sigh* but then... can't blame me because of all the school work I have you know? =) (that is going to be my one and only excuse from now on, haha!) ^_~ I am a good girl, you know it. Well this site is primary a blog site, so you can't blame me for talking too much!! Yesterday- bonfire. As a result of the bonfire, some major things crashed into me so read all about it here. I updated an entry on the xanga page because I was too lazy to update it here. Well nothing much new today, I just woke up ^^ and yes... I updated for 1 reason:
HaPpY BirThDaY to MoMMiE!! I <3 yOu!!
Best Wishes to: Dayna
Posted by Jenni at 12:22 pm |
Wednesday, October 20, 2oo4
As I start to write my entry, the sun came out. It's like pouring outside the past 2 days when I go to school, and I got all wet yesterday because I didn't have my umbrella. Today was better, no rain at least. Well I was in like 5 layers with a scarf and a big windbreaker and things, it's hella gay when it turns cold. I sleep with like 5 blankets and 3 layers, with socks and things. Pretty soon I'd need mittens too! I am not even exaggerating, I can have freezing hands when it turns cold and everyone else can keep warm. Enough about the weather report here in California... it's not that fun anyway.
Today was the freshmen and sophomores homecoming skit performances rally in the large gym (supposedly in the quad but wet so they moved it into the gym.) during lunch. I swear, it's so gayy cuz it's so damn crowded in there. Me and tracy dropped off our calculus stuff in class then walked to the skits together; FRESHMEN were HELLA GOOD! I swear, they are so into it, and the guys dance is so damn tight!! They have more guys in homecoming than we ever did for the past 2 years. What makes them so good ain't because of the Romeo and Juliet skit they chose, it was because everyone was so into it. I liked it, I couldn't help but clap and praise them. On the other hand, the sophomores disappointed me so much. I mean, over the past years sophomores do the 2nd or best cuz not much work like junior year, and not like freshies who dunno anything. Last year, when I WAS a sophomore, our dance was so good I LOVED IT... we beat the juniors and things. Not to be mean, I don't think the sophomores can beat us this year, although we suck like mentioned earlier because we didn't even finish all the dances, and also we have so little people. (I am not in homecoming, btw... just connections with the people got me alot of info on it) I think the freshmen will beat the sophomores, I am sorry I didn't even understand their skit and it's so weird. They do, however, have alot of people in it. The costumes were ok, I was planning to take my genetic fly cross lab with the bomb of flies in there from my AP Biology teacher, and suggest throwing it at the sophomores for jollys during the bonfire and embarass them. Yes, I am a mean and unreasonable girl. Well, that was a little fun there wasn't it? So today I got my calculus pop quiz I took yesterday back, and I got a 5/5, so happy but it raised my grade by .1%... so much *sigh* and the problems were hard, test like problems!! We have a partner test this week, meaning you do it with a partner and I HOPE that I get a good partner, because seriously I won't do so well with a not-so-good one, and failing another test. *keeps fingers cross*
Well you'll see me back tomorrow and probably friday to blog about juniors + seniors' homecoming skits tomorrow, and also update about the bonfire, aKa nonfire for some of my friends ^^ GOOD LUCK to meeh on the AP Bio exam, and off I go to studying!! Tag me a comment if you're nice enough!! ^_~
Best Wishes to: Nicki, Tina, Ayame
Posted by Jenni at 1:22 am |
Tuesday, October 19, 2oo4
This entry is written in response and dedicated to: Ms. Nicki
Haha so how is that nicki jie? I am not lazy, I am just overly loaded with homework from school!! I have another AP BIO midterm on Thursday, and also History quiz this friday, wrote 1 essay in class today, and also a math test on friday. My school hell life continues to live on, and it's getting worse day by day, as time passes by. My life is crazy, and I hella bombed the Calculus Test on Friday, it wasn't even funny. I thought I was doing good because I am like slowly making my way towards the 90% mark, I had a damn 88.6% and I was happy! It took like 2 weeks to raise my grade from a 87% to a 88.6%, and the damn test just smashed all my effort. I LOST 17 POINTS from STUPID MISTAKE, I GOT HOW to do the problems! I REALLY DON'T UNDERSTAND 2 OF THEM!! -_- Damnit, and the test was only 75 points, and it was horrible, not counting other things I missed as in, I missed it. Well let's say Jenni feels SO PROUD she's one of the 12 people that passed with over a 60% *roll eyes* I am gonna cry of joy cuz I got a 60%! *smiles sarcastically* oh well, enough of school life.
Silver Creek's homecoming is this week! The homecoming skits are gonna be tomorrow in the quad at lunch for freshies and sophies, and then Thursday for juniors + seniors! Homecoming for the junior class is pretty sad because we're so low in spirit, and partly because a majority of the juniors are AP nerds who don't got time for homecoming. Oh well, we WILL NOT be cursed and let the little under classmen take over us!! I hope it doesn't rain so I can go to the bonfire this friday- believe it or not this is like the first fun thing I will do ever since August when school took over. I don't see a point in calling it bonfire though, because they don't do fireworks this year. We got in trouble or something for it the past so and so years, so the district cut it off. The tickets are EXPENSIVE TOO! The damn school is so freakin cheap man, so I am not gonna buy my ticket ahead and wait until the day to see if I am really going. I surely DON'T WANT to be stuck in the gym and get no refund for a $4 ticket and watch crap. =_= Well back to my calculus and english hwk, and I hope that this short, rushed blog satisfied my nicki jie by alot! ^^ I will update SOON, probably this weekend, cuz I wrote some more tutorials, and reply to all the emails I didn't over the week for people that contacted me through the form! I AM SO SORRY! For now, tag me a comment. Tata lah! =]
Best Wishes to: Nicki, Tina, Ayame
Posted by Jenni at 10:09 am |
Thursday, October 14, 2oo4
"One moment of falling in love can result in one eternity of pain; One thought of you brings me one life of sorrow memories; One love never meant to be means one endless spirit of pain, of loneliness..."
I just wrote that, I was in the mood of writing new quotes. It's very crappy, but then I thought about it and it's actually very deep; If you understand that, then you'll understand how I feel...
Posted by Jenni at 2:49 am |
Wednesday, October 13, 2oo4
With a 5 point curve in AP Bio on the essay portion of the exam, I got a 31/30 which I must say, is a score I am so proud of. I don't think I can ever do that again. It's just amazing, that'll really help my grade in the class so I am ok right now. I am happy to know I got a 91.4%, so I am at an A- without the essay portion of my grade in there yet. On the other hand, I am continuing to suffer big problems on AP Calculus. I seriously do NOT get how to do the chain rules, it's like so easy and then I forget it right afterwards. I like it when you do it normally, but with trignometry functions in it I am totally lost. It's like... wow- the concept is the same why am I lost? The test is this friday, so that tells you something. I have a packed Friday this week with Calculus Test, History Quiz, AP Bio Quiz, Japanese Quiz and also English Root Auction. This, I must admit, to be very sad. Oh well, I guess I am over the whinning period of my grades, I mean hello it's been 7 weeks what can I do. PSAT is this saturday, and I didn't even study for it- I am so dead. Do I ever plan to study? *smiles innocently* nope, but might as well since I paid for it. So yah, in about 10 minutes I am going to go to the night study session for the Japanese Language Proficiency Test, as I mentioned somewhere before it's a test issued by the Japan Government so it's gold, if I pass I'd be standing out from all those AP students =) Well, I am trying to do as much of the hwk as I can right now, because tomorrow will be a major studying day. I got my term project for AP US History already, and it's worth 120 points, so that can help my grade a whole lot. If I turn it in before Thanksgiving, then I get like 10 bonus points, so I'll try my best to do so! Wish me luck, no updates today by the way. I told you, once school starts it's amazing and I don't even blog so and so often anymore. *sigh* I have a very busy life, excuse me. Oh yea on a side note, the Genetic Cross lab about mating the flies and things, well ^^ we have F2 flies now. It's pretty cool, watching the pupas hatch, turn to adult, then mate them with a female/male, watch them make F1 pupas, watch those hatch, then mate them, and watch them make F2 pupas. It's getting boring though, but a cool experience. We have totally weird flies, and our food is often moldy. I believe we're stopping at F3s, and man I swear that's enough. The F3s are like my grand-grand-grand childrens, LOL! Remember my son fly? ^^ I LET HIM FLY AWAY... and today when I was sitting outside waiting for class to open, a fly kept flying around my head, I wonder if that's my son =P
Posted by Jenni at 4:36 am |
Sunday, October 1o, 2oo4
Check out Photobox (Click on it) for new pictures. I went to a wedding today so came home, and just snapped a few shots for fun. They are pretty bad though. As you can see from them, I am so tired and exhausted, 90% due to the school torture I am going through. My mom gives me the comments that I am becoming like a white ghost, I don't need any costumes for halloween because I look so tired and anorexic. My face is so pale and I am having a bad sleeping deprivation, eating disorder, and simply just lack of vitamins + proteins. I am going to die soon. While a majority of the juniors out there in easy classes say that junior year is not hard and thinks I am over exaggerating it, oh well then whatever. I don't give a damn, and for those who said it was hard I USED to not believe it, now I feel sorry because it is very hard. My eyes are shutting down on me, I cannot concentrate anymore looking at my computer screen. I feel like they are going to pop out, and then I'll collaspe on the floor. I swear, I had 11 hours of sleep last night and still I didn't get enough, despite the fact I went to bed at almost 1 reading for AP Biology. Did you know that, sleeping for like 6 or less hours everyday, then suddenly getting 11 hours of sleep can KILL you. I am so tired I can't even get out of bed, and I wished I can just lay in there forever. I still did not accomplish everything I need to finish for AP Biology, and still need to study for the quiz tomorrow. I just got my exam back, and we're getting a quiz tomorrow. This is fucking gay. (Sorry for the bad word usuage, I really need to get it out somewhere). My grades are like horrible right now, as mentioned earlier. I didn't think I'd have so many Bs until I actually calculated them out. I went from like a straight As student the first 4 weeks of school, then 3 weeks later (up until now) it all went downhill. It's been a very hectic 7 weeks, with piano lessons, exams, tests, quizzes, essays, and other extra stuff. I didn't even do jack crap for community service hours yet and I am rapidly abusing the cash I spend on the PSAT, because I didn't even do any studying at ALL. March will roll around the corner very soon, and then SATs will be here, Piano CM exam will be here, AP exams will be here, DMV test, Badminton season, everything will start and take over me. I cannot imagine how much more I am going to go through. I simply want to give up but knowing all the effort I put in, and that I chose the classes myself, I will not. I am going to ace it for you, just WATCH me.
My Horrible not-so-good looking grades:
AP Biology + AP Bio Lab: was 90%, after the exam it'll go down probably so I probably have like a 88% or something, let's HOPE it stays at 90%.
English 3: This is the only class I love because it's so damn easy. 101% = A+ even with 1 eye shut and no effort in any of the essays I wrote.
AP US History: 88.2%, B+ and I SWEAR those 2 pop quizzes just killed it.
AP Calculus AB: ~88%? B+, I should be happy that I am getting such a score, because 90% of the class is like under a 84% right now, and 50% of them are getting like Fs + C-'s. Still, I want an A... I cannot remember the last time I saw an A from math on my report card. Ever since I had MR. Niazmand, he killed my math record, made me feel useless in math and its my strongest subject, and simply ruined my 4.00.
Japanese 2: ~90%? Let's hope for an A-, 1 less class to worry about =\
Fine fine, you can yell at me and say those are good grades but in case you don't know, asian parents are really blEh. They jump you for the smallest things, and mines are no different. Getting even 1 B+ is considered failing, so to them I am failing like miserably. I better bring them up before the semester ends or else, I'll be gone like that in the blink of the eye. And it might look far, but then the semester comes by like that quick. Oh well, good luck jen... and my eyes are really tired.
Posted by Jenni at 12:21 am |
Friday, October o8, 2oo4
I've decided to not neglect my xanga so you can check for like short blog updates there. It's too much work to be signing into here and things so like random, short complaints I will post there but I am not going to neglect this page. I will update, and I will also blog but it'll be like 2-3 days everytime and things. If you want to catch up with my life (very boring) every single day then you can visit my xanga to see it. Meanwhile, today I have nothing to be talking about. I did so bad in school, you can read my xanga to see my grades *sigh* I'll be back with new updates soon, promise! TAG ME a comment! ^^
Best Wishes to: Polka, Nicki, Dayna, San
Posted by Jenni at 8:10 pm |
Wednesday, October o6, 2oo4
I got a 7/10 on my History quiz I took today, and a 10/10 on the one I took yesterday. *sigh* not bad I guess? Whatever- it's all good. Grades are dropping like mad crazy, and bombed the essay portion of the AP Bio exam for good. Not wanting to talk about hwk today so I'll just keep it short. I added what I promised to add, so do check them all out although it's minor stuff. I PROMISE to have the free layout and the tutorials up next time I update something, I am just too tired to do anything now and the reason why I made this blog is because there's no pressure as to when I need to update and add things- I simply do it when I want ^_^ Leave me some comments, greatly appreciated!
Updates
- History Added
- Add a new review of the website Confession
- Added my online sis Nicki's Blog page to the Exchanged Network/Top Interaction, check it out!
- Reviewing Your Website updated with new rules + also listed ALL the benefits, awards and advertising your site can earn if you let me review it!! Click here to check it out.
Best Wishes to: Susan, Nicki, Dayna
Posted by Jenni at 4:41 pm |
Monday, October o4, 2oo4
I got about a little more than 5 hours of sleep last night, due to my staying up and studying for the AP Biology exam. I swear, I can recite the whole Endoplasmic Reticulum upside down, and it proves to be so much because all the parts I studied were like 3 questions on the midterm. I SWEAR I had all the hypertonic, hypotonic and isotonic crap down then when I got to it I started getting confused which ones will have water flow out and in and things. I hella studied the energies, and there were more diffusion and osmosis than I've ever dreamed of. One word of advice- STUDY THE WHOLE TEXTBOOK. I hella failed. End of conversation there. lOL... so I got my math test back and I had a 85/100 on there, not bad? =\ The class practically failed, if that makes me feel better. *sigh* I SWEAR, I lost 6 points for stupid things. She marked off 2 points cuz the line I drew was not a WAVY line inbetween the Squeezed Theorem, well it's STILL SQUEEZED!! >.< I lost 3 points when I got the right answer, EXPLAINED why it's the answer but because I didn't show enough work to say WHY that was the correct answer -_- OMG, I KNEW the answer by heart. Isn't that what you're trained like? I guess being too familiar with things, can screw you over huh =\ (blame Mr. Niazmand for this!) That is 5 points, and I lost 1 point because I forgot to write it's Continuous and I explained the crap outta myself why the Intermediate Value Theorem works. *sigh* I will remember, that's 6 points, will bring me from a 85 to a 91/100, and make my life ALOT better. So right now I have the following to accomplish: AP Bio study for essay portion of the exam, AP US history study for the quiz, Calculus hwk, Calculus POW (Problem of the Week), English Journals + read 100 pages, English paragraph, English Essay, Japanese homework. What a day of death. I promise to have new things up soon. I need to write the site version history, post up the review for sites I am reviewing, the new free layout I made for you guys, and some other things. I'll go back to studying right now. Haf fun!!
Best Wishes to: Susan, Duyen, Ayame, Angel
Thanks alot for commenting!! You can call it plugs? =] You can well, not call it plugs. I just do it when I feel like it so yah... ^^ I also changed the background song, I must get something new other than midis. The idea of using midis is getting pretty boring to meeh now =)
Posted by Jenni at 8:57 pm |
Friday, October o1, 2oo4
The layout is finally completed and up! I hope you all like it, it's one of like the old memories of my previous layout from my fansite Entertainment Stars Zone. Gosh I miss that site. I am just throwing it together very quickly, so if you come across like broken links or things that doesn't fit this version, be patient with me. I am just going to talk a little bit then go and finish watching War and beauty, the ending IS today! I have like 2 more episodes to go. So yah, the history for this version is not added yet, I barely have time to do anything and I should be proud that with all the school work I got, I still got time to put together a new layout. So AP BIO is moved to Monday, like I already said. Briefly through my day (notice how normally I would have ALOt to complain but I figure I shouldn't because I like published everything up and I wanna get this more organize, if you come across my site earlier like 10 secs. ago or something and see a new layout without this entry, it's cuz I am still working on it!) So root auction, I got a perfect score on it, it's NOT that hard!!! =) ON the AP history essay, I thought I did ok but the last essay last week I did HORRIBLE. Just one word- HORRIBLE. Then Calculus test, I finished, like BARELY. Seeing that I got like 5 minutes left, I went back and rushed #8, the only one I left blank and then I went to accomplish #20. The bell rang, can't check it over. I begged Ms. Guttal to show me the answer key since I already took the test, and all the Calculus classes are over. She showed it to me, thank god I got the first page and the last page ALL RIGHT~! Omg, I cannot believe it! I know I missed 2 problems for sure, stupid mistakes >.< and one of them is #8, I rushed through it so I probably did something stupid and to say I didn't know how to do it. Let's hope, I can get a 90, but I am aiming for a 85 cuz I know everyone is most likely going to bomb it except for smart asses (excluding me). Then finally Japanese, think I aced it with a 90% or better, but I was hoping for a 100% so I can raise my grade to make up for the stupid mistakes that cost my grade to suffer. About it, going to get going now... sorry this is so rushy! I will have everything in handle within the next 48 hours, so yah tag me a comment! =P
By the way, Cute Stories was added to the 'For You' section yesterday. GO READ THE story: Saying 'I Love You' .... IT'S VERY VERY NICE AND VERY VERY SAD!! (Cute on the Cute Stories word to go there, or browse under the For You sections.)
Posted by Jenni at 9:03 pm |
