Saiyuki
does not belong to the author of this fic.
Through
the Looking Glass by Mitsima
Part 2 - Strange Times
“The
other shape, If shape it might be called that shape had none
Distinguishable, in member, joint, or limb;
Or substance might be called that shadow seemed,
For each seemed either; black he stood as night;
Fierce as ten furies; terrible as hell;
And shook a deadly dart. What seemed his head
The likeness of a kingly crown had on.”
-
Milton on Death
Tenpou sharply shut the book, pointedly ignoring the
ache of doubt that had so planted itself in his chest. And for a while,
the field marshal of the western army just sat there, staring blankly
at the chaotically colliding dust motes illuminated by his dim desk
lamp. His vision blurred, but he squeezed his eyes shut, shook his
head and all returned to normal, if only for a while.
More silence and more dust motes. He blew smoke at
them. The cigarette was on its final centimeter.
Like all heavenly nights, tonight was quiet. Unbearably
so. Still. Peaceful; with a gentle wind blowing at his nape and a
glass of sweet wine by his side. Should have been blissful.
After a moment of thought, Tenpou reached into his
desk drawer and pulled out two old reports from the Western Army.
The first one read like this: “Report to Tenpou
Gensui, Field Marshal of Heaven’s Western Armies: (the handwriting
was Kenren’s) The twenty first regiment of the third division,
comprised of thirty soldiers was sent to Earth on a surveillance round
so to investigate possible threats of dormant ice youkai. None of
the thirty ever reported back. It is thought that they were caught
in an ambush of sorts. Permission to organize a rescue mission.”
Tenpou’s response: Denied.
Cold. Yes, he knew that, and had to deal with Kenren’s
silent treatment for a good week. He truly did care for his men, but
something nudged Tenpou’s intuition and bid him stay quiet.
Think before you leap. Then again, don’t leap at all because
there’s a pit of spikes on the other side...And so he waited
as his own relay report filtered its way through the bureaucracy,
passing from hand to corrupted hand.
This is the same report as Konzen had received it
several days and departments later:
“Report to Konzen Douji: The twenty first regiment
of the third division, comprised of thirty soldiers was sent to Earth
on a surveillance round so to investigate possible threats of mobilizing
water youkai. None of the thirty ever reported back. It is most certain
that the division had strayed away from heaven and the army’s
leaders have decided to view the situation as abandonment. No drastic
action need be taken. Forbidden re-entrance to heaven is sufficient.”
(He could not decipher the writer of the altered report)
Hm. Like a game of telephone, politics is, and shall
be...now and forever.... I say potato you say asparagus...and dammit
why was his eyesight going blurry again? Eyes were necessary for research,
albeit this ‘research’ was tedious handwriting analysis
since he couldn’t trust anybody’s word on who the mysterious
author was. But surely, one with a lot of influence to be able to
push this trash all the way up to Konzen who, by the way, gave the
correspondence back to Tenpou. The message was never delivered to
Tentei.
He felt like a petty detective instead of a high military
man. One disappearance. No witnesses. Two contradicting reports. Needless
to say, Kenren’s version was the more reliable.
Strange times.
Tenpou squinted harder at the lettering, comparing
one note with another, then with another and yet another, until...
“Dammit Tenpou!” Lately, ‘dammit’
seemed to be his first name.
“Yes Taishou?”
Kenren stood with his arms crossed at the study’s
entrance, puffing angrily at a newly lit cigarette. “I thought
told you to stay put.”
“I’m staying put.” replied Tenpou,
matter-of-factly.
“I meant in bed.”
The marshal smiled as sweetly as he could manage at
that point. “I thought you didn’t like frigid partners,
Taishou.” But this time Kenren wasn’t amused.
“I don’t. I just don’t want to take
you while you’re injured. So until you’re better...”
“I’m not injured. Meandering in dank,
dark castles is just a cold waiting to happen.”
“Sick? Gods shouldn’t get sick.”
“Kenren,” Tenpou interrupted softly, his
smile slowly dying. “We’re immortal, not invincible.”
That statement seemed to take all the air out of the
Taishou’s lungs and he slouched against the door, uncertain
on how to respond. So he just resorted to smoking. The marshal chuckled
softly and put the papers back in his drawer, taking care to lock
it.
“What the hell are you laughing at? I’m
just pissed that you ain’t thinking about what happened. The
most dangerous man in heaven, and you’re knocked unconscious
for two days by a fucking piece of furniture!”
“Don’t try to degrade me. That was quality
furniture, Taishou, and you shouldn’t have destroyed...”
He stopped. The humming in the back of his mind was back again. //It
doesn’t mean that you didn’t lover her enough...// But
Kenren never said... “What in the world are talking about Kenren?
Didn’t love who enough?” His eyesight grew hazy and he
stumbled, only to be caught by a pair of strong arms.
“Hey, hey. Easy now. You just woke up.”
Kenren soothed, bringing Tenpou back onto his feet and leading him
to the bedroom. “What happened in there anyway? Must have been
some freaky stuff that messed with your ears because now you’re
hearing things.”
Tenpou shrugged and sat on the soft mattress, shedding
the lab coat and fiddling uselessly with the buttons of his shirt.
His hands were shaking and for a while, he thought that his eyes were
playing tricks on him as well. Was that his lifeline shrinking? Couldn’t
be...
“You weren’t too far from the truth.”
he admitted, then looked grudgingly at his own hands. They just couldn’t
keep still, as if the ground were shaking or something. “Taishou,
could you do me a fav-”
But he was cut off with a kiss as Kenren gently pushed
him flat on the bed and started undoing his shirt buttons, giving
one butterfly kiss after another as pale flesh was exposed little
by little.
“Did you just admit I was right, Tenpou?”
Kenren said with clear smugness as he brushed his lips ever so lightly
against the side of Tenpou’s neck, grinning as the other man
tried to suppress what might have been a moan if he weren’t
so prideful. Sensitive spots were nice to know.
“Part of your compensation, Taishou. I’m
sure you want the rest?” he answered lightly, snaking his arm
around Kenren’s neck.
Another kiss and Kenren reached to undo Tenpou’s
belt. “Well, since you’re offering...”
So this wasn’t exactly the //best// way to solve
the problem, but it was the quickest and most agreeable way for both
of them. Tenpou would never tell him anything, he knew that. A man
of a thousand hidden secrets and a thousand secret responsibilities
who wouldn’t care to share any of them. What a burden, and Kenren
saw it as his //own// responsibility to take over the only thing he
could take over. It was sex, but so what? It was nice to see Tenpou
//only// thinking of him, //only// needing him, //only// calling for
him...and see in his eyes the cloud of pure desire instead of deep
calculation. There wasn’t any other way to be completely in
Tenpou’s mind. But it wasn’t as if he loved him or anything
like that. Kenren wasn’t stupid. He knew his...their...limits.
***
They were sharing a room again and as Hakkai slid
blissfully under the soft bed sheets, he stretched contentedly and
looked over to Sanzo who was cursing by the window.
“Sanzo, it’s only snow. Be thankful it
isn’t rain.” he tried to be comforting, but it was hard
when you were already half asleep.
“Let the damn rain come. At least it doesn’t
stick.” the priest replied bitterly.
“Ah.”
And so the silence reigned between them, not that
either minded. Waiting for the sleep to come, Hakkai stared at the
dark ceiling. They sat in the dark, the two of them, pierced only
by the whitish glow of a street lamp reflecting off a two foot bed
of snow. The harsh winds ratted the window pane.
“Sanzo.”
“I thought you were asleep.” he was more
subdued this time, his irritation minutely soothed by a cigarette
whose pale smoke seemed ghostlike from Sanzo’s position near
the window.
“Well...um...I’m not.”
“I can //see// that. What do you want? That
flame headed idiot of yours is skirt-chasing downstairs. I ain’t
getting him and I ain’t switching rooms either. If I hear that
bakasaru’s voice one more time tonight...”
Suddenly, a gentle laugh wafted through the room.
“No, no. I wasn’t going to ask something so futile. I
was going to say: was I fair?”
“Clarify.”
“Sanzo...”
“Fine.”
Sanzo already did know what he was talking about.
The way Hakkai had defeated Shien...his gentle voice whipping out
taunt after cutting taunt...until the god’s concentration was
broken. The healer was never one for psychological warfare...exploiting
on the weakness of the enemy’s mind because he knew his own
mind was still in shambles.
Dishonorable, to say the least. But not in the least
something Sanzo wouldn’t do.
“Take out anybody in our way, Hakkai. Shien’s
no different from the rest.”
But somehow he was. They all were. Homura, Shien,
and Zenon.
“But what they wanted wasn’t necessarily
bad, was it? A better heaven...”
“What the hell was wrong with the first one?”
Sanzo spat out.
“That is something I would like to know...”
“Well you don’t know and I don’t
know, so stop pushing it.” //Will you be his sun, Konzen?//
“Shit.”
Their adventures with Homura were a touchy subject
for the blonde priest. Enemies who were enemies, but not truly really.
Otherwise, why would Goku have mourned Homura’s death? Why was
Sanzo content in letting Homura have the death he wanted? Their demeanor...their
passion for this new heaven...and they made it feel so justified.
And it made it seem to Sanzo’s party that something
was truly wrong with the gods. Not just the ones forsaken by heaven.
Which meant things were wrong with everything. Sanzo worked for the
gods. This entire journey was ordered by the gods. All for what? To
save the world? Yes. Fine. Who else? Heaven? Perhaps. And gods who
couldn’t give a damn what happened down here as long as Gyuumao
wasn’t alive to threaten that world up there.
“Maybe...” Sanzo started, startling Hakkai
who expected the blonde not to go any further with the subject. “It
was just too boring.”
He smiled. “Hai. Good reasoning. Definitely
your reasoning.”
“Hakkai.”
“Yes, Sanzo?” Hakkai replied...or thought
he replied.
“Go to sleep. You’ll stop imagining things.”
“Imagining things?”
“You just called me Konzen.”
- TBC -
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