3rd December
So. i'm better. i wa really worried cuz when i went back to school after 2 days off sick- i had mucus coming out of every orifice, ...ok well not EVERY orifice- and i was trying to sing this song to alistair and my voice was f-kked. i couldn't sing in tune. luckily it's getting better. had a meningitis jab. yeah, so it stung, but i'd rather have that than meningitis. then last night robin and me were fighting over coco. he wouldn't let her out of his room- it was all a laugh- and when i picked her up to run out with her he kept bundling her so she couldn't move. then we moved downstairs to the kitchen- ah food - and we were punching each other and he wacks me on my jab area on my arm. it REALLy f-kken hurt. he goes 'oh sorry' and then hits me on my other arm.
so in philosophy today my teacher was screwin cuz his brain wouldn't work. he couldn't remember what the f-kk he was talkin about. we were discussin about the importance and meaning of religious experience, so, if you have a rel. exp. how the hell do you know it's a rel. exp? know what i mean? but then it's argued that you JUST KNOW. interesting stuff. we were also talkin about how annoying it is when a religious person can't give good arguments back in a discussion about god. in the end they're just like 'i just believe' and are really unaccepting and narrow minded about what you're saying. they just won't listen. and that f-kks all of us off. i've met 1 person who had some well formulated arguments about his belief in god. it's not like we expect every believer to have formulated arguments, but it's when they just won't listen to a word you say that it's so f-kken annoying.
i'm listening to Incubus right now. i'm really into them at the momnet. oh yeah, we got the Slipknot home video today. oh it is so cool. they are off their f-kken nuts. you see them playing 'surfacing' live and it's 101% mayhem on stage. they're all running around mothering each other over. i can't wait to see them in 10 days. joey's voice is alot deeper than i thought.. oh man. he's so sexy. why don't i know anyone personally who like wearing expressionless masks, has long straight hair and likesS & M, as well as wearing dresses? hey, if you know anyone.....
dissected more of the rats today. so last friday it was the ailemntary canal; (guts, spleen and shit...no i mean it ...and SHIT) and they were re-frozen..mmm yummy... and we did more work on them today. we looked at the diaphragm, lungs, rib cage, womb(for girls)balls(for boys), kidneys (man, that made me paranoid....see home page for stuff about my phobia). then we had time left so our teacher was like 'just look at what you want' do we're all like' yessss' and i start cutting out it's spinal cord, nicola's finding the hammer to bash it's skull open, and robin (friend, not brother) takes virtually every organ out of it including the backbone. it was so funny cuz i went over to where he was and there was nothing in his rat, it was just the skin. and cuz it's pinned down on the board it 's stretched out and it looked like one of those rugs, but a mini rat one.
my parents are having a dinner party tonight. so i thought 'hey why not take advantage of the fact that my dad won't be paying attention to how long i'm on the internet for'. really, i don't do things like that.
made this jeans skirt by sewing pockets and a front patch/p[ocket on the front of a skirt i got in a charity shop. gonna make another jeans skirt out of torn/ ripped jeans patches.
uh. i'm out for now.
4th December
Today in my Christmas tree advent calender- which is this big material tree with 24 pockets on it which my mum's filled with wrapped up little presents- I got crucifix earrings. I love religious artifacts so much. my wall's covered in pictures of jesus on the cross, the voigin(new yoik new yoik) mary, statues crying blood and shit. but then, i'm not into gos in a religious sense. i don't beleive in the whole concept of religion and i don't beleive in 'god'. the other say i got 5 lindt chocolate eggs which you can only get at easter which my mum had found in a shop the other day, left over from easter. when i opened the present and found them i stuffed them in my gob, and becuz none of the dim lights are working in my room at the moment i was trying to get dressed for school in the dark and i was just throwing the wrapping of the eggs on the floor becuz i couldn't be bothered to move 5 paces to my bin. i didn't taste the first 2 cuz you can't taste fist thing when you get up but i knew somewhere along the line i'd start tasting. ah, chocolate lindt eggs. and then i sewed extra side pieces of jeans material onto my skirt today. bored now. bye.
21st December
yeah, I am a lazy f-kk and each timeI've updated my page I haven't been bothered to update this. Today me and Vicci went christmas shopping in kingston, for our last few presents. Her train broke down and i was standing in the freezing cold for 45 minutes. and i really needed a wee. i got and extra present for Robin, which is a Bert (from Sesame Street) patch which you iron onto fabric, ie. his bag. I got me an Ernie one. Those 2 have really tainted our view of children's tv since we found a picture of Bert giving the unwilling Ernie a blow job. that reminds me- i must put a link to the Bert is Evil site in my links page. it is goddamm shocking some of the pictures on that page.
we saw Machine Head on sunday. they were quite impressive live. One minute Silence supported, and they are quite a political band. the singer was telling us how 6000 children under the age of 5 die everyday. Every second, for about 10 seconds, he was going 'a child died, a child died, a child died' and at the end of telling us all this he goes 'have a merry christmas and new year' and everyone in the crowd's just standing there crying.
I am debating whether to put a photo of me and joey and me and paul (*Slipknot) on my site- i've fuzzied out their faces on the scans, of course. but i don't know. ho hum
i am so bored. and i can't seem to think of anything interesting to say. oh, here are some jokes i heard-
" what's the difference between a sperm and a lawyer?
A sperm has a 1 ijn 10 million chance of becoming human."
"what does an accountant use as contraception?
His personality."
cruel, i know.
Hopefully next week i am going to get soemthing pireced in Camden market. i'm not going to say what, because then i will get worried and freak and not do it. i've told 2 people. The person i'm going to camden with doesn't even know yet. gutted Rob, you are in for 1 f-kken big surprise. If i do it, i'll tell you.
not only have i now managed to bore you senseless, but i have also bored myself. so when and if i ever have anything interesting to write, i'll write it. don't expect anything soon.
25 DECEMBER
Well, we celebrate Christmas on the 24th december, as that is swedish tradition and my mum is swedish. so my dad came dressed up as father christmas, and the dogs were going mental at him, as they didn't know who it was. I loved all my presents. My sister gave me this huge lamp which is ernie from sesame street, it's so cool. and i got a new cd player so i can listen to my cds again. and i got some black baggy trousers and a black top with skeleton bones painted on which glows in the dark. Robin gave me a patch to sew onto my bag which is this fat cartoon woman and underneath it says 'group sex'. yummy. and he gave me these 2 wrist bands with barbie and winnie the pooh on them, i already had a spiederman one. and my older brother, bless the boy, gave me a �20 voucher for HMV. I am so glad, because now I have enough money to buy a melvins cd, which has taken me 3 years to do. I am so ill, whcih is a f-kk. I have a really bad cough, i have a cold, i have fever, i feel like shit. My mum got me this pretty belt clasp, for when i have a belt as a nurse. i am so excited about going to study nursing. my friends, andy and kaj, are going to study medicine at the same place i'll hopefully be studying nursing, and another friend is studying dentistry there, so we've decided we'll be this medical team and open up a practice. i'd be quite interested in going to live in america for a few years when i have finished studying, and work in a hospital. i find the culture there both sick and fascinating.
Oh i got this amazing book which i forgot i'd asked for, which i read a few years ago, before i began to study philosophy, and when i was too young to fully appreciate philosophical matters fully. it's called 'Sati' and it's about this girl who says she's God. It's a very perceptive and sad book. I've just started to re-read it, i can't remember what happens in it very well lwhich is a good thing. I'm out for now.