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Personality: This one is the hardest to describe. But I�ll try my best. First of all, I think shy is boring. I know some people find it cute, but I don�t want to have to dig you out to find anything interesting. Self confidence IS sex appeal to me. If you don�t like yourself, why should I? Outgoing is a plus too because I�m often the center of the room�s attention. I shouldn�t have to drag you out there with me because you would rather cower in the corner. Communication is also ABSOLUTELY IMPERATIVE. If you�re not good at communication, or �don�t know how to put it into words,� forget it! I was an English major. My specialty is putting it into words and I don�t want to bother with someone who won�t at least try! You need to be able to express your feelings when asked and be willing to volunteer information! Mystery is appealing in the movies, not in real life. I want truth. To be in a relationship takes a little risk. If you�re not willing to get a little vulnerable, I�m really not willing either. It�s got to be a give and take. 50/50 And in addition to all of this, you need to be passionate. Passionate about life, and passionate about the person you are with. Someone who laughs a lot, smiles a lot, but knows when to cry too. I also tend to lean towards laid back guyz. Why? Well, because I�m NOT laid back. I have a lot of opinions, and I like to pick what happens next. It just tends to be easier if you don�t care where we eat, �cause I might. That SOUNDS like I�m a total control freak, so let me explain. This doesn�t mean you�re allowed to be devoid of opinion. I DO want somebody that will always speak up for themselves when it DOES matter. But if it honestly doesn�t matter to you one way or the other, it�s just sometimes easier. Anyway, this says the rest better than I can: http://www.danah.org/Ani/NotAPrettyGirl/AskingTooMuch.html
Sex views: I love having sex. But for me, it's just not worth it unless it's emotional. I think it's more beautiful that way. This doesn't mean I have to be in love. But I definitely need to have a connection with that person and see things GOING SOMEWHERE. Sometimes that takes a few hours, sometimes it takes a few months. I'll know what I'm ready, and trust me...I'll definitely let you know as well.
Religion: I hate god. I hate religion. Sometimes I even hate faith. I was raised fundamental Baptist and I regret it because I missed out on half my life. All I ever felt was guilt for wanting to do normal things. If you have a close relationship with god, you probably won�t be able to have one with me.
Relationship Goals: I definitely want to have a relationships again. I don�t know if that�s going to mean marriage. I don�t know if that�s even going to mean a relationship that lasts a week *laugh* but I definitely want something emotional. I'm also generally more comfortable with physically open relationships (with careful boundaries of course), but I�m NOT polyamorous. I personally only like being emotionally exclusive with one person at a time. Physical playing with other people outside of the relationship though is totally up for discussion.
You�re probably wondering why I did all this crap. Well, I know what I want. And even with all of this laid out, finding somebody is still going to be hard. Some people think it�s fun to date, try people on for size so to speak, etc. I only think it�s fun if you already know you have several interests, goals, and life views as a base�so if you think this could definitely be cool and aren�t already completed freaked out by me, then gimme another click�*wink*