thunder storms tonight. i cant sleep. a very slow and rainy weekend. no cash and no shows going on. let me tell you about next weekend. the show at ARV is looking to be a great time. i have got a bunch of people going that don't usually go, so it ought to break up the monotony.
why do i get bored so easily?
i think i have ADD.
furthermore, i am bored to death with just about every thing. did i mention that i'm bored?
maybe i need a change of pace. some new faces. i just crave fucking adventure, and it's not easy to come by in my situation. i like to fly by the seat of my pants and do the unexpected, the un-imagined, just to see what may become of it. true, that way has led me to do some pretty stupid stuff, but it's all taught me valuable lessons about life and human nature.
"And I'm Not Sorry. It's Human Nature."
at least i am comfortable with who i am and not trying to be "this" or "that". i like to be bad, but in a good way. i try to make ammends every day to a lot of people that i've wronged. mainly my parents, for the lack of respect that i showed them for so long. i'm not perfect and every day is a continual improvement, or a gradual transformation into who i really am. i am not perfect. i need to lose about 25 pounds and THEN i will be perfect. nah, just kidding. i have goals and i am working towards them. it may not be evident to anyone but me, but i have done a lot in the past year... and i did alot the year before that. so i wasn't voted "most likely to succeed". but as ole blue eyes said
"I did it MY WAYYYYY."
"OOps, I didn't know we couldn't talk about ...."
It's been too long since I've updated, gawd it's been rough. Finals......................
gee, what else... business as usual i guess. been going to shows and such. i am getting a bit bored with some of the people i encounter. if i am not looking like a dirtbag nor am i pierced on my face any place, i am not "scene" enough for them. but i am not trying to be like them or whatever, i just want to listen to music and have a good time. fuck them for trying to shit on my good time. oh yeah, and just because i am a girl and yeah, sometimes i like to dress nice does not mean i want to get laid. so all the guys who try to get some>>BACK OFF, and to all the girls who are hating>>GET REAL.
what else? john wants to take mom and dads RV to country concert. sounds like a fucking blast to me. i will definately be DD, but i dont care. i like to sit back and stay sober sometimes.
