to see the new hair click on the "just say no to roaches" at the right. i dont have it styled and im not lookin too hot, but you can see the awesome colors of my hair and thats all that matters. once again, thanks to brandi manson.
way too tired to post much. it took me forever to design this background. i wonder if anyody even gets it. oh well, if ya dont now, ya will one day.
so the past few day i have been re-evaluating everything. kinda takin stock and realizing what i do and dont need in my life. it is really funny how when something is there all the time it seems like a necessity. but in all reality i can live with out it. most of the time i am better off without it. so, i dont let familiarity and the fact that i am used to something keep me from getting rid of it. or at least putting it in storage or taking a break from it or whatever.
it seems that one of my downfalls recently has been my addiction to other people. i guess it all started with some guy i was spending a lot of time with. that is when my priorities began to slip. even though i told myself i was a good influence on him, it still goes both ways. and i found myself neglecting my school work, house work and basically slacking on what ever i could. once he was gone, i just substituted him with everybody else. so i was always going somewhere, doing something with someone. and basically getting nothing accomplished.
isnt it funny how when you spend so much time with a person they become part of you? the lines seem to blur and you lose sight of your own prioritues because you have compromised them to include what is important to the other person. (and im not talking about that boy specifically, just people in general.) i find it is really easy to do. i mean, this being the democratic U.S. of A. we are used to majority rules. but when it is just two people, any two people who are close, the dominate personality usually wins out. i think this is why i dont have alot of "close" friends. my personality is so strong, i have a hard time keeping my opinions to myself. plus, i always want things my way. when i do go along with the crowd and keep my mouth shut, i end up having a horrible time. so, it's usually my way or the highway... hahaha. and really it takes a lot to stimulate me.
but i guess the point of my ramblings is that i have purposefully been spending time alone (with elora of course!) and its not so bad. i have time to focus on stuff that is important to me. not just that, but i have that mental break with the population. time to get in touch with myself and my spirit feels free.
i really miss my leanna though. gawd, its been too long since we vegged out together. the great thing about having a friend like that is you can spend time apart and still be the same when we are together. I MISS YOU LE!!!!! i gotta trek my ass over to the cheese state one of these days.
so why is it that when my car breaks down it can never be within 50 miles of my mechanic?? radiator, muffler and now its my alternator... i figure since these things always happen in threes i should be good to go for awhile.
i am procrastinating hard-core on my school work. guh. i suppose i will get to that in a minute here.
the weekend turned out to be dull. i skipped the after-party on friday, because brandy was pretty freakin wasted. and it took us forever to get out of marion, because that town is nothing but one way streets. OMG, ask me about the lady who tried to give us directions. we went in circles and for a minute i thought we were stuck in the seventh circle of hell. ended up back safely and goofed off with sky and dustin until 6 in the mornin. slept the rest of the weekend. this weekend outta be crap since i am now broke. i really want to go to the machinehead show next weekend, but i doubt there are tix available. who knows??
