Absence of Fear
By: Jewel
*Inside my skin
There is this space
It twists and turns
It bleeds and aches*
After Mia�s dramatic confession, tensions were running high with everyone. The boys had come back into the garage from the upstairs loft after they were sure the yelling had stopped. They worked in absolute silence. The only sounds I could hear were Mia�s helpless cries coming from within the office. I wanted to apologize for calling her stupid, but I knew she�d never accept my apology, so I was forced unwillingly to listen to her strangled sobs coming from behind the closed door.
She couldn�t keep the kid. I�d decided that the moment the words fell from her lips. It just wasn�t possible. Not only was there no way I was letting her drop out to care for it, but it�s the cop�s kid, and I really don�t want to get involved in the scandal that would eventually ensue if Mia had his child. When she calmed down I�d simply inform her of my decision, and give her the only option she had.
*Inside my heart
There�s an empty room
It�s waiting for lightning
It�s waiting for you*
The other thing on my mind was Letty. When she had walked into the shop in that outfit, I�d had to resist the urge to grab her, throw her over my shoulder, and take her back to our room. Then when she said she had a date, I had to resist from finding the guy and bashing his face in. I mean, come on, a date? What the hell was my girl doing going around with one of Hector�s friends? I was distraught over the situation, but I still had an urge to rip those clothes clean off her body, and make her take me back.
There was nothing I could do right now though, so I tried very hard to concentrate on work. Make no mistake; I had no intension of letting her leave with any guy that wasn�t me. She may not want to be with me right now, but I sure as hell wasn�t going to let her be with anyone else. Letty was my girl, period, and there was no way I was letting her go that easily.
An hour later the crying had subsided, and everyone was a bit more relaxed. Letty had come out once, but she hadn�t said anything to anyone, just went into the upstairs loft and came out with a box of tissues, presumably for Mia. She glared at me as she walked from the stairs to the office, but didn�t say anything. I was seriously beginning to wonder whether she�d ever come back to me. I was completely lost in thought, when a yellow pick-up pulled into the garage and a Hispanic guy jumped from out of the front seat.
�Hey man, I�m here to pick up Letty.� He said to me.
�Sorry she�s not here.� I lied.
�Shut-up Dom� She said to me and then turned to him. �Sorry, today�s not good. My friend is kinda going through something, and I can�t leave her.�
�That�s cool, how�s tomorrow?�
�Forget about it.� I snapped at him. �She�s not going anywhere with you. You see, she�s mine, property of me; no one puts their hands on that body but me. Now get the fuck out of here.�
Needless to say the guy took off pretty quick. I can be quite intimidating when I want to. I was damn proud to have run him off so fast. Unfortunately, Letty didn�t seem to feel the same.
�What the fuck was that Dom?!?�
�Letty, calm down, I did you a favor.�
�A favor?!? You call that a favor? You ran my date out of the garage! That�s anything but a favor! Just stay out of my life Dom.�
�Stay out of your life?� I couldn�t believe that those words had come out of her mouth. �How can I stay out of your life? I love you.�
�You don�t know what love is! Dom, when you love someone, you respect them. You treat them good, and you take care of them. You don�t sleep with someone else, you don�t forget I have feelings, you don�t�. you just don�t� She couldn�t even finish she was so exasperated.
�I�m sorry.� Were the only words I could muster.
�I know sweetie,� She reached her hand up, and stroked the side of my face. All of a sudden she froze, almost like she had turned to stone. She quickly pulled her hand from my face and her eyes went from warm and sympathetic, to hard and cold as ice. �I know you�re sorry, but I can�t trust you, and what�s a relationship without trust?� She looked sadly at me and retreated back to the office, locking the door behind her. I didn�t see her again until closing, and even then I couldn�t get her eyes to even glance in my direction. I almost lost all hope that night, but in the weeks that followed, I could see a light flickering at the tunnel, a really, really, long tunnel.
*I am wanting
I am needing you here
I need you near
Inside the Absence of Fear.*
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