| - *So I've been looking at some new bands. I really like Taking Back Sunday and April Sixth. Awesome. Only 26 more days till i get my liscense!! I'm gonna get a job at Lane Bryant next to Target! YAY. MONEY. I cna't wait till summer , I'll be able to drive, and I get to go to Ohio and see Craig. YAY. FUN maybe cedar point. I'm so poor. I really want to go see Rent but my mom is poor. DAMN"T. SO i'm pretty sure no one reads this, or even comes to my website. I giess that's ok. It makes em feel better and takes up my boredom. I've had some psycho dreams lately, i guess I'm stressed, and crazy. -Ok so finally I've figured out that my website in itself is my journal, and I don't need some shit myjournal or whatever cuz I basically already have one. My friends are all really weird right now, It's like hey're friends when it is convenient. I don't feel like I really have any friends anymore. Not any real ones anyways. I'm kinda on my own right now. Ausin has ditched me and Courtney has basically done the same because Austin is her best friend. She may not mean to but she hasn't realized yet that is what has happened. Chase is too busy worrying about Katie, and Katie is too busy worrying about school work. Kat is around sometimes but mostly she has plans with Ben and his friends. I feel like I'm in the middle of everything and part of nothing, if that makes any kind of sense. I guess we all have our problems. Theatre people aren't real friends. Most of the freshman don't like me and I really don't like any of them, none of the older people really like me anymore either. I just don't fit in well anywhere rght now. It's odd though because at school I know so many people and I talk to so many people, but none of them are friends. None of them, I'm starting to feel like me Chase and Katie are only hanging out because we have nothing better to do, and when one of us does find something better to do we ditch the others. Mainly I get screwed though. I can't wait till i can drive though, only about a month now. I need to get a job so that I can pay for insurance otherwise I'll be screwed and not able to drive, and jesus do I want to be able too. One good thing that happened this weekend is that I got to go out 2 times, which is more then normal, but since this is a 3 day weekend i was hoping to do something tonight-sunday- but I guess everyone already had plans cuz no one is online. We had an awesome gay waiter at Denny's on friday. Why am I such a fag hag? They're the only people who get me i guess.... :( No one came to my thingy last night except Ryan and Michael, I'm kinda mad/upset. Have you ever just wanted to cry?... We Got a Puppy!!! Meet Morgan!!!!!!!!! Carmen and Dave! What an awesome show, I still feel like everything i said below here. I guess Austin and I aren't friends anymore. Oh well, i guess it wasn't menat to be since he doesn't care. I don't like anyone anymore. Nope. All done. It's pointless I've learned. I'm feeling hella weird. Drifting from friends. I don't know why. So. liking people sucks. Yet it doesn't. Who was the other person i mentioned below?? I can't remember, omg i forget. Anywho. How come I think differently then other people? How come I'm so hard for people to like, and i mean like a friend. What makes it so hard. I try to be so nice., maybe it doesn't pay off. How come people feel they can't be friends with me in an open environment like school , yet they'll talk to me in class. Some of them walk past me and don't even make eye contact, it's like on purpose. They can't let anyone know they're friends with me. Why???? Am I that embarassing??? -Veritas - Aequitas - SO Wow i went from not liking anyone to likeing two people!! I doubt they like me back.. but oh well.. i'm still having fun. AUSTIN LITZLER IS A SEX MACHINE!!!! - Sometimes I wonder, do other people really know the impact the things they say or do have on you? Christmas was cool. Got good stuff. I miss people though. LIke the social interaction of people.Shit I'm 17 now too. Crazy. I want to go to Ohio and see my family and Craig. New section gonna be up. Called Epiphany-about stuff I randomly think about. - "I've become so numb I can't feel you there, become so tired so much more aware I'm becoming this all I want to do, Is be more like me and be less like you." I love this song, numb by Linkin Park, reminds me of how I feel right now, not just to my parents but to everyone. -Yay Halloween.,. This was me. Crazy crackhead party i went to... hmm ask me about it sometime. Quazi-modo. HAHAH Jon. - So i haven't updated in a while, Or maybe I did and it didn't save, I don't know. Anyways... I went to homecoming! It was fun! Different, but fun none the less.<< is that supposed to be one word?? Well here are some homecoming pics of me, since everyone always wants pics.... - Yay to the fabulous 40's and 50's. It took forever for me to do my hair. Those rhingy's they call "rolls" are a bitch to put in! AHHHHHH I'm a GIMP! I stood up from the table in the commons and like, dislocated my knee. It really hurt, and it was so embarassing. I guess my leg was bent funny or something. All I know is that crutches suck!!! OMG, they hurt my arms so much. I feel like I've been doing pull-ups all day or something. It was like a workout all day long, and now my left leg (the good one) is all hurting and strained! I can't raise my arms up very high either. It's crazy. I can barely work the mouse. My arms are all tired, like they have given up on doing what I say. YAY the weekend is here. Thank god, I'm so freakin tired. Well I best be gettin to bed. I'm supposed to have friends over tomorrow for vampire marathon movie night! YAY! Friends? Wow, I didn't think I had any. Lol uh oh Austin- " no one likes me syndrome." P.S. Vampires. Sexy. - Vampires kick ass - People in texas are fake dumb ass bitchy whores. |
| I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface I don't know what you're expecting of me Put under the pressure, of walking in your shoes (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) [Chorus:] I've become so numb I can't feel you there Become so tired, so much more aware I'm becoming this, all I want to do Is be more like me and be less like you Can't you see that you're smothering me? Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control 'Cause everything that you thought I would be Has fallen apart, right in front of you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) Every step that I take is another mistake to you (Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow) An' every second I waste is more than I can take [Chorus: Repeat] And I know I may end up failing too But I know You were just like me With someone disappointed in you [Chorus: Repeat] I've Become so numb I can't feel you there I'm tired of being what you want me to be |
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| Rent is the awesomest show on earth. If you can't handle it then your retarded, because it's in your face life. That's what the world is like. Not everyone lives in a mansion, gets a brand new sports car for their 16th birthday, has college payed for by mommy and daddy and going to work doesn't consist of riding the yacht around the islands!! god damn't! Anyways it's an awesome show that punk people would probably like, I also reccomend the movie Punk SLC for another awesome slice of punk life, that teaches important values! lol well you got to wait to the end of the movie for that, but ya get my drift! Sex, drugs, alcohol and violence for everyone! |
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| Sucker love is heaven sent You pucker up, our passion's spent My hearts a tart, your body's rent My body's broken, yours is spent Carve your name into my arm Instead of stressed, I lie here charmed 'Cause there's nothing else to do Every me and every you Sucker love, a box I choose No other box I choose to use Another love I would abuse No circumstances could excuse In the shape of things to come. Too much poison come undone 'Cause there's nothing else to do Every me and every you Every me and every you Every me, me Sucker love is known to swing Prone to cling and waste these things Pucker up for heavens sake There's never been so much at stake I serve my head up on a plate It's only comfort, calling late 'Cause there's nothing else to do Every me and every you Every me and every you Every me, me Every me and every you, Every me, me Like the naked leads the blind I know I'm selfish, I'm unkind Sucker love I always find Someone to bruise and leave behind All alone in space and time There's nothing here but what here's mine Something borrowed, something blue Every me and every you Every me and every you Every me, me |
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