fade to black
3/9/98
I looked up today
and did not see the sun
no warming rays
all was dark
the only shadows
were those in my heart
those in my soul
they follow me everywhere
constant reminders
of memories, past lives
I do not wish to recall
I cannot set them free
they are a part of me
faceless people speak to me
assuring me that they are lessons
which needed to be learned
I put on my false smile
and nod agreement
inside, though, I wonder
exactly what lessons I have learned
and who was doing the teaching
I find myself no wiser
for I repeat the same mistakes endlessly
the rain continues to fall
in almost synchronous relation
to the tears streaming down my face
the sun will shine again
of this I am sure
but what of me?
will the storm end?
I stare out at the rain
a storm which cannot compare
to the battle presently being fought
within me
my logical mind is very persuasive
and the answers it offers make perfect sense
but my heart is a highly skilled opponent
its defense to the logical assault makes no sense at all
but I respond to the emotional onslaught every time
which is right?
or perhaps more importantly,
which will end the storm within me and bring back the sun?
I do not know, but even the worst storms must end
that I do know.....
my sun will shine again one day
but until then...
there is no light,
there is no warmth,
fade to black
Rob Pierce
