Orc didn't happen. Ben was expecting Andy to run, but when he turned up never asked if Andy was ready. Which led to Andy waiting downstairs for Ben to ask him to run, but everyone else just sitting in Woody's talking. Finally, Andy declared it was too late to run, so it never happened. The previous bitching wouldn't have helped I suppose. Andy confessed he just doesn't want to 'waste' good stories and adventures on a game that the primary ref doesn't seem to do any work on. Rich was pissed, but I think that's mainly because this was his last chance to play his character, and he doesn't get any shit because he's an average character. Ho hum.
Saw Matrix Revolutions. Really enjoyed it, but was a little unsatisfied by the ending. I won't wreck it here, but I left the cinema with the real feeling the end didn't fit the films. It just didn't 'feel right' if you know what I mean. Anyway, I do recommend it. The attack on Zion dock is just wonderful.
Picked up the new Smackdown game on Friday. Been pretty much playing that all the time. It's the best of the series, but if you want more information, check my games area.
Rich and Ben had a birthday on Saturday. Celebrations got as organised as they usually are, so we ended up going to the Borough pub in town. I left early as I wasn't really having fun, and my chest was playing up. The rest went out clubbing to The Beach, but there was some 'problem'. Ben decided he didn't like the place, so left, but his wife, Catherine wanted to stay, and from what I can gather, got drunk, which isn't really the thing to do around us lot (we aren't very sympathetic and tend to be very sarcastic in our banter), so she spent the rest of the evening regretting not going home with Ben, and feeling lost. We try our best, but she really does always seem like an outsider around us, no common topics of conversation. It's a shame really because she's a likeable lass.
Humm. I'm really feeling apathetic at the moment. Don't really feel like doing anything. The daytime course really gets me down, because I do nothing, but it's affecting me on the courses I want to do. The metro trip to South Shields just annoys me all the time. It takes far longer than it should, because I end up waiting about half an hour each way for the trains, plus there are pissed up charvers on the way back, either being loud and squealy, or throwing up in the passenger cars.
I just don't have any enthusiasm. I keep thinking about my future, and every time I come up with a plan to make it better, something outside my control screws it up for me. Mainly the job centre. They just seem intent on stopping me from bettering myself. From what I see, all they want me to do is get a job in a call centre and not be their problem. It's really difficult to change your specialisation. And they really know how to make your feel worthless.
Is this what depression feels like? I've never thought of myself as being capable of it before, I'm far too chipper. I still feel chipper, but sometimes I just don't want to bother getting out of bed. I suppose it's more of a 'Don't want to get up to go somewhere and do nothing' as opposed to 'get up and do something, even if that something is play games'.
Gods, this course is killing my mood. I can't quit it though, or I'll lose my benefit.
I need a job, but can't get the jobs I want without the night course qualification, and I'm being put off my night course by what I'm made to do during the day. Blah
