| I'm Not Sleeping From "Recovering The Satellites" She comes to me at night When I'm sleeping She comes to me When I'm alone She comes to me She holds my head when I'm crying She comes to me She shuts my eyes and she brings me home But I'm not sleeping anymore, anymore But I'm not sleeping anymore, anymore She tells me when you look at me She tells me when you're lying She tells me when you talk about me She lays me on the floor She tells me when you're whipsering She lies beside me naked She tells me when you laugh at me She locks all the doors But I'm not sleeping anymore, anymore But I'm not sleeping anymore, anymore 1-2-3-4-5-6-7 A.M. All alone again But I've been through All this shit before Spend my night In self defense Cryin' bout my innocense But baby I ain't all that innocent anymore I see her in the TV I see her in the movies I see her in these animals That dance inside my head I'll follow you down baby Down into this valley I'll follow you down baby But I won't come up again But I'm not sleeping anymore But I'm not sleeping anymore I'm not sleeping I'm not sleeping anymore I said, "Rain, rain go away Come again some other day 'Cause I've got all this shit to say And I've come back to find my way." My sister's mother's favorite son Lost among the chosen one But I've got news for everyone 'Cause I'm gone out that door. |
| This is yet another darker, angry songs. AD says he gets a little self-conscious about sounding like a whiner in his songs because it's sometimes hard to sympathise with someone famous. But he hits on a somewhat personal note here, I think. The references to seeing her on the TV or movies is probably a reference to Courtney Cox-Arquette, who he once dated. This song shows a tortured soul. Someone who has been betrayed or at least left standing somewhere waiting for something that's not coming. The singer can't sleep. He's a little paranoid about who knows what about their time together. But he's got something to divert his attention. "I'm not sleeping..." makes me think of an awakening. Whether it's the fact that he's seeing this girl for the person she always was, or he's waking up to the fact that life goes on, he's coming to terms with something. It's the notion of unresolved feelings that hits home with me. The idea that I've been wronged, but who'll listen? I've been on the giving end as much as I've been on the receiving end. And I've tried to go back too many times. Believing I made a mistake and trying to get what I had back. And now I'm coming to the realization that my only course to get out of town and attempt to start over. Because these same old circles aren't helping anymore. In fact, they never have. |