It's been pretty calm these days.Still staying with Eileen and it's quite a walk to college. Eileen, Joan and I have been playing scrabble everynight and having tea afterwards. Must admit, i quite like that. Nothing much to do in college since their exams are coming up and they're rushing with their revisions. So i've been sitting around a lot and busy planning my trip to Glasgow and Wakefield. I really hope everything works out well and that Jose can come along since Mei Shiang can't. It will be good for me but i'm slightly worried that Carol won't be comfortable with the whole situation. Well, i thought i'd give Holly some space since it's her big exams.
Went to Newlyn Meadery for dinner just now with Carol and her gang, Jess and her lot and Joan. It was a lot to eat! I still can't stand how they waste all that food!! I pray that they'll realise that some people elsewhere are starving. Well, they probably will never. I hate to waste stuff especially food.
Anyway, looking forward to Glasgow.
Went up to Newquay with Carol, Holly, Jenny and Joan last Friday until Monday. It was quite alright except for the fact that Carol keeps getting on her nerves! I especially loved the beach and view. Went to the church there and it was cool. I really hope i can go to the CU meeting up in Falmouth. It would be good to meet and make new friends. It's getting quite lonely here. It's not that i'm not trying but it is so so very hard to make friends here. I came on this program to make new friends but it seems like it's the last thing i'm doing. I want to do normal teenage stuff! That's why i so wanna go to Glasgow and Wakefield. To get out of this place! I don't know how i'll stand another 7 months like this! I can't explain how i'm feeling. Happy, but sad at the same time.. Mixed feeling really. This is sure some experience i'm having!
Anyway, hope things will look up soon. Help!
Jesus, teach and help me to live entirely for you. I want to dedicate my whole life now into serving you and doing your will. I don't know what is your plan for me right now. I can't live like this for i have no spiritual backing. However, coming here has given me loads of patience, but Lord, how long will this last? What is my purpose of coming here?
Jesus, use me Lord, use my life as your tool. Help me to tell others about your wonderful salvation. Use me to tell others about you. O how marvelous you are Lord. How wonderful is your gracious love.
I pray for my family and myself Lord, that we shall put you our priority and first in everything. I also pray for Ai Wei. Use her life too Lord and for Shin Yen, help her in her daily struggles. Lastly, i pray for Vanessa. Jesus HELP her. Also comfort Eileen and let her know you are always there for her. In Jesus name i pray. Amen.
I met up with Alistair yesterday afternoon at the college. We talked for about an hour and a half, which was great. I do hope i can do the Lord's will before i leave the country.
Don't think i've accomplished anything today. Didn't do much at all. Can't wait to go to Scotland tomorrow! I hope everything goes well. I pray that it does.
In Wakefield now. It was fun in Scotland.
18.05.02 Arrived in Glasgow Central Station and was picked up by Syeekin.
19.05.02 Kilmarnock, Galston, Loudoun Castle. Rained heavily!
20.05.02 IMAX theatre, City Art Gallery Museum.
21.05.02 Went to watch "About a boy", Newton Mearns.
22.05.02 Edinburgh! I love that place!
23.05.02 Wakefield and went bell ringing at local church.
24.05.02 Ackton Pastures Primary School to tell children about Malaysia.
25.05.02 Wakefield City, Bretton Sculpture Park.
26.05.02 Leeds and Harrogate to meet Katja.
27.05.02 Back to Penzance :o(
So i did manage to get up to Falmouth on Wednesday evening. I did get lost for about an hour, but it was fun! There weren't as many people as i thought there were going to be. Of course, Alistair and Emma were there. Met some lovely people there. We had a little bit of praise and worship, then we had dinner. After that, we had a seminar - "Godliness in the student culture". Sadly i couldn't stay for the big celebration at the end because i had to catch the last train back to Penzance. Ian(Cross, not Waghorn) took me to a nearer train station, so i didn't get lost and got back on time.
Truthfully, i'm not really happy with the host family situation right now. Somehow, i think it would be better for me to stay with another family. I don't mind going to Perth(Australia) to continue with my studies and get away from all this, but i also really want to stay here and finish my exchange year until December! Ahh...dilemma. It really hit me this morning that i'm not happy living with my current host family eventhough they are lovely and all. I don't know why. I guess i feel really unsettled here in these kind of circumstances. Sigh, i don't know what to do. I really hope AFS UK can find me a new family in the next two weeks cos i don't want to be alone for the holidays. It's sad, but what am i going to do if they can't??!