Lately for me has been the most hectic part of my life I would say. School is so close to becoming the beginning of the second semester, I can taste it.. unless its just the egg nog I've been drinking, along with some other substances. Lately has been very stressful too... not only do I have to put up with the bullshit at work, but I have to put up with all my teachers for sudden tests before Christmas break on the 20th of December. The drawback...? being that December 20th is just weeks away from us coming back to school, starting to write exams and making it the beginning of the second semester, starting the change of events over again.

I got two letters in the mail a couple days ago. Both of which increased my stress level a little bit, one moreso than the other luckily. One from a friend of mine living in Ontario who it seems like I've known FOREVER, which she most likely agrees with, since she said it before me. The other bein from St. Thomas University, giving me information on which I asked info on. Mainly being: Bachelor of Arts courses, Bachelor of Applied Arts on Journalism and Scholarship information, as well as an application sheet for the University in itself. It's scary to know that in just under a month, most students will possibly be sending out applications, applying for a University of their choice... we're almost out of here... the grads of 2003 are almost out of that school forever... It's a long way to look back really, even now... being if you're in grade 9, or 10... Grade 11, thats still 12 years in school! thats roughly 3/4 of your entire life in school!

These past 2 days have been a real drag for me as well. Not only do I have to put up with tests constantly being poured on me, but I have my friend who seems to be following the same footsteps as me, which is definately not a good thing, considering how fucked over my feelings toward people are. Jeremy was talking to me one day, telling me how he felt toward someone... he's never had a girlfriend before, but yet, the way he's telling me things, is about the same way I felt after my first break-up, back in 2000. Back in 'little school' as Jeremy calls it, everything used to be so much easier. Life was basically, "she looks hot!" and "I'd love to go with her" to "I think she knows I like her..." and "why do I feel this way?". Everything like that just makes life harder... why is that? I wish I could help everyone sometimes too. Everyone has their off-days, and fuck-off days, but doesn't it make you feel so much better when someone knows how to cope and can help you understand whats going on...? So now it's down to stress... everything is caused by it, everybody has it, and NOBODY likes it. Life sucks... but I'm just glad this is my site! I can write all the meaningless bullshit I want and get away with it hahaha! Unfortunately, this is my journal... all of this is true, none of this is bullshit, and all of it usually sucks.