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I feel so confused right now... I feel almost spaced out too and I've got this 6th sense inside me thats warning me about something happening, or so it feels. I don't know if its because of the weather changing from snow and cold to sun and warmth and then heavy rain, like the weather stations are reporting or what... I feel like I always get these kind of feelings when they involve a girl or something. I felt this way when Katrina dumped me, and I felt this way when Jessica wanted back in my life. I wish everything could just go away sometimes. I also wish I had more free time and some inspiration, I really want to start working on my Beyond the Cross chapters, but I can't think of what I want to do in them. I changed around my characters some, changed their appearances, changed their ages and their names, but I still have no idea what the plot of the story is going to be!

I looked into studies with the consideration of what I want, taking these survey test things on http://jobfutures.ca and http://www.careercruising.com and they both lead back to the only place in the Maritimes that looked interesting and in my league... Shelburne Campus, Shelburne studying editing or film stuff. My head feels so clouded... even when I hear nothing, its hard to think, I just want to sleep... 2 1/2 hours before work, and the whole night ends just as it starts. I have 12 days before my birthday, and I still have no major plans on what exactly I'm going to do. Maybe I'll just lay at home and get plastered with my friends and maybe I'll forget everything, I dunno... wish the answers were more clear for me, I don't like playing it by ear.

Brian called me up from work on his cordless phone to tell me that I worked a half and hour earlier than I thought I did, so luckily I made it in to work without being late! Work went by really fast, surprisingly. I helped sell three 27" flat screen television sets at Superstore for $365.89, decent price! The three of them sold in about 40 minutes or something like that. After work at 8 o'clock, luckily, I just sat in the car for a little while, just to listen to the sound of the rain beating down on the glass of the car... its so peaceful and calming, I love it. My night isn't completely over, but just enough of it has gone by for it to seem like theres nothing left I can do... I feel like writing, but I have no inspiration for anything. I tried writing a bit of some songs, but only got two verses for two songs, or one verse per song, so theres nothing there to go by.

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