Everything has been in such good standards lately. Everything has been falling into place so well, its almost scary, and its just, wow! I can honestly say I don't think I've ever felt so happy in my life. On Saturday the 22nd, my friend Alice and I somehow managed to hook up thanks to my friend. I don't really know whats going on with everything, its just so crazy, but in a good way! I've never seen anyone so happy in so long, and I've never felt so alive before! I found out that she liked me about 2 weeks ago now, back around March breakish, about the 10th, but I couldn't really act on it. Because I knew my friend liked her, and so did she, I ended up just watching what she did and said to figure out if my friend was actually right. In the long run, I ended up asking the friend who liked her if it was okay if I went for her; I needed his consent, but he told me to go for it. So I did.
It wasn't entirely my saying that allowed this to happen though. A lot of it kind of happened before hand; snapped into place; clicked I suppose. It was quite rushed sort to speak. This feeling I get, its so weird... I just watch what she does sometimes, she looks so amazingly happy... seeing that sparkle in her eyes almost makes me want to cry... The people near me, whenever they're in high standards, I can't help but feel at home. Maybe its because I'm a Pisces and I adapt to emotions, or maybe because its just me and I like seeing everyone content? I'm trying to figure out how I feel now. I told her I loved her when she was here once... she told me the same and I know I can't really get her out of my head. When she left yesterday at 11pm, I could still smell that scent in her hair, still feel her touch on my arm, its like she never actually left... but the question is, do I really love her? Is this the one? Or am I just simply once again over-reacting?? I've never felt like this before, ever! I've never felt so, close; so intimate I guess. Yesterday, she told me she's never been so attached to someone so soon before... I hope this doesn't get out of hand!
It's March 27th, and tonight was a blast! I don't know about everyone else, but I had a great time, I feel so... giddy or hyper, even though I am exhausted!! It's 10:48pm right now, and I really should think about bed! I finally got my SR-71 cd Tuesday, and never got to listen to it until tonight, finally! The cd is the BEST! I love SR-71! And to top off cd talkage, we found out the 25th that the new Linkin Park cd was in, Meteora and that kicks ass too. My friends came with me into Sound Vision, the place where we buy cd's in Barrington... well, the only GOOD place to buy cd's in Barrington, and they had 4 limited edition Meteora cd's. Tim, the manager or w/e, asked me if I had ordered any cd's, and I told him I ordered SR-71's cd, Tomorrow. He told me that was in, so I told him to pull it up along with two copies of Linkin Park's new cd, Meteora. My friend Brian told me he didn't have any money, and I felt in a good mood, so I bought a copy for him.. told me he'd pay me back. Besides, I know he's good for cash, so I figured what the hell. I couldn't help but feel good today. Just on that sole fact that Alice looks happier than I've ever seen anyone before was enough to make me crack a smile. Its no wonder why I feel so at ease and so happy with her. Alice's birthday on the 26th and since I knew she didn't have any cash, I'd get her the other copy, since she's a die-hard LP fan; figured I'd be generous. Generousity hasn't let me down yet ^-^!
As of today, March 30, when I finally get to write more of a journal entry, its been 8 days since we've been going out already... I feel stronger vibes off her than I ever imagined! She told me something yesterday and it impacted me so much it gave me cold chills... I could've cried, but instead, some tears just rolled out of my eyes... I wish I could understand whats going on my head; in her head. She was obviously thinking, but I just wish I could help her... figure out what shes so deep in thought about. When I told her I loved her, I noticed she was shaking, like someone having severe cold chills... I could've swore that her shaking was directly related to coldness, but it was rather warm in my room. She just looked at me and said jokingly, "Look what you did now..." I just kind of laughed, nothing else I really could've said after that. Everything just seems to be at ease between everyone, everything is just so peachy... tonight, my friend finally worked out a mutual agreement between some of his friends too. Seems everyone is hooking up lately, I told him it must be in the season and its all about the Easter chocolate! My friend Jeremy, consequently the one who helped me, seems to be in a little situation of his own, but I think he may finally be happy soon... so I hope. I just wish everyone would be at ease among my friends. Even though things are going good for me, theres still a little bit of controversy among them. All is well soon, at least, I hope again. //The world is twisting turning, our life is living learning, theres so much more for you to know, If you could lock the past away, Step back through the door way, This ride has just Begun. If I could change your point of view, is there someway I can show you, The Best Is Yet To Come" SR-71//