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RANT PAGE #4 |
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6/11/03-- Well, another day and the world still sucks. Go figure huh?? Actually, in the grand scheme of things, it could be worse. Blood could be pouring out of my eyes....that would be worse. But not by a whole lot anyway. I'm gonna try to go this whole rant without mentioning women/love/romance/, the normal things I rant about. I have tons of hostility and anger about those subjects, and could probably bitch about them everyday, but then again I don't want to bore you. Wait.....this is MY page!!! I can rant about whatever the hell I want!!!! If you don't like it, you can click the little "x" in the top right corner and close the page. But this is actually more towards society as a whole really. Recently, I spoke with a friend...let's call him Dave. Now poor Dave got a call late one night from an ex flame of his that told him how much she missed him and how she envyed what ever girl ended up with him. Now this girl had dumped poor Dave for no apparent reason(I totally understand that!!). Well actually, it had to be his looks really. He never beat this girl, cheated on her, yelled at her, or treated her with disrespect. Dave pretty much did everything she asked...yet she dumped him. So Dave comes complaining to me how when she calls and tells him these things and tells him how he treated her nicier than any other guy, what is he supposed to think. As far as I'm concerned, he's thinking the right thing. He got dumped for someone with better looks. If he was such a great guy AND had better looks, we wouldn't be having this conversation. But I also explained to Dave that he is not alone in his pain, and is more than welcome to join Planet Green. I'm out for now.....stay Crescent Fresh!!! |
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6/6/03--Okay, time for some more ranting. Someone, anyone, please explain to me why the hell I go to the club every week. I always go to the same club, and I always see the same people, same situations, same problems. I don't dance(hate it with a passion), and I try not to drink too much because in my current mindstate I'm just a sip or two away from becoming a full-fledged alcoholic. So why do I go?? The only reason I can think of is to maintain some sort of human contact. But on the bad side of things, going there always reminds me of how messed up love/romance is nowadays. I used to honestly believe in romance. I mean REAL romance. Where the two people loved spending time together, couldn't think about anything but being together, and basically made those around them sick because of how much in love they were. But going to the club pretty much shoots that dream to shit. It seems that people nowadays are only interested in one thing...SEX. Don't get me wrong, I have a healthy attitude towards sex, and probably desire it as much as the next person. But there's got to be more to life than just that. But more and more life is showing me that I don't belong in this world. I've only been in 2 SERIOUS relationships in my life(I say serious because they lasted a number of years). And both were very happy times in my life. And both ended kinda unexpectedly, and not by my choice either. The first one I still to this day have no idea why it ended, and the other one because I wasn't attractive in her eyes anymore(to be fair, that's my theory, not her's.....but damn it, I'm convinced it's the accurate truth). And due to these relationships, and my general observations from the club and basic life, I've gained such an bad attitude towards love/romance that I've screwed up other possible relationships for no good reason. Well, it's for lack of self-confidence actually. It's like being trapped in quicksand. I get all stressed, and then sabotage my own life. What the hell is up with that?? So is my never ending spiral of pain I guess. |
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5/31/03==Just some random bitching!!! I noticed something interesting tonight. Well actually, I've noticed it long before, but I've just decided to comment(bitch) about it tonight. LET ME SAY THIS FIRST!!! I consider myself to be physically unattractive. I honestly believe I have a better personality than 90% of the male population, but think of myself as being towards the bottom of the barrel when it comes to "physical looks". Ok, with that said, here's my bitching. I noticed tonight how a lot of guys operate. A large majority of guys operate on what I'm gonna call the "Shooting Low" theory, or from now on known as the "SL" theory! What is that? Well, if you took a guy who on the classic 1=10 rating scale would be about say a 7..........that guy in the club is gonna hit on the females HE thinks rate about 4 to 6. Why? Because it increases his chances. I watched guys hit on women, who might have 100% percent wonderful personalities, but according to the classic scale rate about a 5, being hit on by guys who might rate an 8(again, based on the classic scale......not MY personal opinion)!!! And these girls were eating up every word these guys said to them. And it's not like they were sincere or anything. To me(and I would think most people), it was completely obvious what they were after. SEX! But by hitting on women THEY felt were 'below' them, they increased their chances for success. And that is such a shame. First off, most of these women deserved to be treated better than that. If you have a good personality, it shouldn't matter what you look like, and they sure don't deserve the guy who's getting desperate because closing time is approaching and he has his "beer goggles" on. Ladies...stop fallling for this trick. You deseve better. And MEN?? Just STOP!!!!! She derves bettter!!!! |
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5/29/03--Okay, I got to see something tonight. I got to see the 'male animal' at work. It is really quite a sight to see. I got to see a totally drunk guy hit on every woman within a five foot radius of him. And you know what?? The women loved it. Why? Because he was charming?? Don't think so. Because he was polite?? Not even close! Well why then?? BECAUSE HE HAD THOSE "PRETTY BOY" LOOKS!! If someone unattractive...say...um..ME, had tried the same thing, they would've been slapped across the face. Not that I would do anything like that. I'm just a different species than that. But it did re-enforce my theory of the world. With good looks, you can get away with just about anything and everything. I don't blame women. I don't blame men. I blame fate. No wonder the divorce rate is much higher than that of successful marriages. People are hooking up for all the reasons. Sooner or later people will realize the grass ISN'T always greener!!!
On a different note, I'm sad to report a friend of mine has cervical cancer(well, final biopsy still pending). That's gonna be a hard thing for her to deal with, but she's a trooper and with the proper support, I know she'll make it.
And on a completely different note, the world's only nightmare metal band Cold Moon, played a show the other night that was filmed for the new video site, MP4(like mp3, but one higher!!). I'm sure it went awesome(I had to work at my totally suck-ass job...that gets worse each and every day), but once the video is up, you know I'll throw a link up for it.
Well, that's about it really. Life still in turmoil. Job sucks. World sucks. Black hole's suck! But I'm out of here. Stay Crescent Fresh!!! |
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5/27/03--Okay...circle this day on your calendars. Let's see, Tuesday...the 27th of May 2003. This was the day when I finally realized I'm gonna snap. Yep, it's been confirmed. I don't know when, and I don't know exactly what will happen, but I just know it's coming. Events of today confirmed it for me. Some of my worst fears were confirmed today. I'm not going into details or anything, because it really doesn't make a difference, just remember this day. Years from now, when people ask "Hey, what caused Green to snap and lose it like that", you.....lucky reader....will be able to point them to today and say "THAT....is the cause!". Great huh? |
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