Ok, it's been a crazy two weeks with some decidedly low points. Last Thursday Joe and I had a very long, very painful discussion. There's no other word to describe it... it was awful. I felt as if I had lost my best friend and there was nothing I could do about it. The cliche catch phrase seems to be "it's very very hard to do the right thing". It's been a really long time since I've cried that much. :( And the constant rain just makes me want to cry even more. Joe called me from Raleigh this week and we're going to give this friendship thing another chance. Some things in life are worth giving second chances. Seventy times seven right? This is one of them.
It snowed briefly on Tuesday... craziness!! I'm not ready for that kind of crap! I still want it to be summer, we never really had fall, and now apparently it's winter! My next move is going to be south!
Well, speaking of moving... funny story. (Funny like ironic, not funny haha) Yesterday was insane! (and I'm quoting someone on that) Drew got a call on Wednesday from a guy that he used to work for when he work for Entercom in Rochester. There was an opening for a Chief Engineer position with Entercom in the Madison, Wisconsin market. And Drew was considering whether or not to take it. This is one of those times in life when you have to decide what kind of person you're going to be. Are you going to be that person who does the "right" thing, or does what feels right at the time? I decided to do the right thing and it tore me apart. If this job was what was best for Drew and his career, I was determined to only give him the utmost amount of support and encouragement, without regard to my own emotional well-being. Ok, yeah, that lasted until late last night when it seemed quite apparent that he would take the job if the salary was right. I realized that I wasn't strong enough to pretend to be happy, even if I was genuinely happy for him. I hung up the phone and cried after being in silent agony for hours on the phone. I called Joe, even though he was still in N. Carolina, and he was really amazing. This time he was my rock when I needed someone to hold me up and tell me that everything would be alright. He had even suggested that I consider what opportunities would be available to me if I would consider going to Wisconsin with Drew. I thought that was incredibly selfless of him to say. Lately I've been feeling very burdened and weighed down by the issues in my life, but last night, through the drudgery of reality, I saw a glimmer of hope and found an incredible blessing.
Drew called me back late last night... and he decided against the job in Wisconsin because he has only been with his current job for 8 months and even though there are some issues to deal with there, those problems can still be dealt with and there is plenty of room to grow in the company he's currently with. Plus he would be on call almost all the time as a chief engineer, and the job would be even more stressful than the one he currently has. I'm very happy that he's staying, but I'm still reeling from the mental and emotional strain I started going through in preparation of "what if" he left. I haven't completely recovered yet.
Surprise!! Drew's parents are visiting this weekend! I get to meet them tomorrow. So I'm trying to take off of work tonight so I'm not completely dead to the world tomorrow. I'd like their first impression of me to be a good one.
Well, that's all folks... at least the big stuff anyways. I'll write more in a week or two, perhaps.
Ciao!