| I have been a big fan of the Moody Blues for most of my life. Their tender, sagacious lyrics and sweet music have given me hope on many occasions, both desparate and joyful. There is a wonderful song by the Moody Blues that embodied my desire to live in this world as the person I saw myself as. |
| The right to be free was what motivated me from the first day I stepped upon the transition path. I'm sure they had a much different woman in mind when they wrote the song, but it so speaks to my heart and my desire at the time to live as a woman entirely. I did hear the call in my life and that was why I was in a hospital in Montr�al awaiting my SRS.....I had fallen in love with the woman inside of me.....I ached to be free......all I needed was a feminine body to go along with all that I had embraced in my life that was so dearly feminine. The face that I had known did seem so lost and alone. Oh, baby, in a matter of hours I would be coming for you! That's Not What I Was Told I was up with the sun Monday morning feeling eager to get the whole process started. I certainly thought I was headed into surgery first thing that morning. The hospital seemed strangely quiet for all that was in store for Janet and me. The first stirrings in the room came from my sisters who had come to see me off to my surgery with Dr. M�nard. We patiently waited for some direction from the staff and finally the good doctor arrived in the room. He was there to inform us that there had been a slight change of plans. He needed to do a breast augmentation before he got started with my SRS. I introduced him to my sisters. We all had a good laugh when I asked him if we could get a family discount on boob jobs for the four of us. He told us the delay would be about 45 minutes to an hour and then he departed. I was okay with the news, but my sisters wanted to know exactly when they would be taking me away. They headed out to the reception desk to ascertain the time. Back Next |
| Had To Fall In Love What mattered to me Was the right to be free Like I'll be someday I'm waiting for my heart to lead the way The places I've seen And the roads in between Make me wonder why I'm searching for my dreams up in the sky I heard the call And in the mirror I saw the writing on the wall And I had to fall In love with you The face that I've known Seems so lost and alone When you're far away I'm comin' for you baby right away |
The places I've seen And the roads in between Make me wonder why I'm searching for me dreams up in the sky I heard the call And in the mirror I saw the writing on the wall And I had to fall In love with you What mattered to me Was the right to be free Like I'll be someday I'm waiting for my heart to lead the way The Moody Blues (Octave 1978) |