I brought a few CD's with me to listen to during my stay at the hospital. One of those was "Encore" by Russell Watson. I freely admit I have been a fan of Star Trek for many years. The writers have been unafraid to tackle many social issues, including gender identity. Russell Watson sings the theme song (Where my heart will take me) to the last Star Trek series, Enterprise. Those lyrics touched me the very first time I heard them. That song became a mantra of mine while I was preparing for my surgery. Russell Watson has the most wonderful voice and every time I heard him sing that song (and others) tears would run down my cheek. I gave Janet my diskman for her to listen to this beautiful song. She just loved the lyrics and listened to it four or five times. Those lyrics just seemed to echo my transition. The long road was finally nearing it's end. In a matter of a few hours my life would change forever and hopefully for the best. We talked about how wonderful it was to there after all that we had been through. My tenacity had paid great dividends. All I needed now was to have Dr. M�nard sculpt me a cute little coochie. I was happy the nurse brought in sleeping pills for us. I never imagined that I would be able to sleep a wink the night before my surgery. I took the pill and listened to another CD as I lay in bed. I was truly delighted to be on the brink of a new life, and yet I was amazed how serene everything seemed. I drifted off knowing it was only a matter The Right To Be Free I had heard just about every argument on transsexuality from a myraid of people right up to the time of my SRS. There was no shortage of professionals, friends, family and other transsexuals who voiced their opinions over people like me who had the desire to permanently alter their bodies in order to rectify what I considered to be a grave injustice at the time of my birth. The opinions ranged from those who thought it was immoral, to those who believed SRS was merely a capitulation to the socially accepted binary system of the sexes, and of course, to those who would do anything in order to have it. I couldn't be bothered with how other people wanted to shape my life. I knew there was really no way of convincing everyone that my desire for SRS was genuine and needed. The only thing that mattered to me was my concern for my ability to thrive as the being I saw myself as. To me SRS was the key that would unlock the door for me feeling comfortable with me. I felt if I could unleash that potential in my life the thriving would eventually fall into place. Back Next |