| That form of modesty has been with me ever since
my puberty. I managed to overcome some of it in order to have intimate relationships in my life, but my former sex never allowed me a sense of comfort. I had hoped that having the SRS would finally afford me a sense of comfort with myself that I really never had as a man. I was about to find out how I felt about myself once I met with Dr. M�nard at the party in New Jersey. I was a little nervous when I saw him for the first time after my surgery. He invited me into the room they had set aside for him to consult with his patients. We chatted for a little bit before he asked me to remove my skirt in order to examine my newly formed womanhood. I remember feeling so at ease in doing so. I think it was the first time in my life where I felt no fear about showing off my body, most especially my genitals. I do believe I actually felt proud as a peacock as I made my way on to the couch so he could look at the results. He looked at everything very closely while my uneasy anticipation grew. He finally let loose a smile and asked me if I had observed my new clitoris. He put his fingers to his mouth and uttered the expression �mwah�! I could tell he was proud of his work and that greatly pleased me. He told me everything looked quite well and was on track to looking normal for a woman. It was nice to have that kind of confirmation. We chatted for a few minutes about some of my concerns. All the while I was feeling so comfortable with my new body it didn�t even dawn on me that I had been sitting on the couch for quite some time with nothing on my bottom, and I wasn�t the least bit uncomfortable about it. Dr. M�nard has been nothing but a gentleman whenever I have been in his presence. I have to admit that I enjoy his company and conversing with him with ease. We must have chatted for another hour, from things like breast forms to that crazy �Eva� who was at the residence while I was there. He told me she called him everyday for about two weeks after her surgery. I asked him why he never produced a video detailing all of the things one will be confronted with after the surgery. He told me that for one, everyone heals differently, and secondly, it still wouldn�t keep people from calling him with their concerns. He said he preferred to deal with his patients on a one on one basis. I can attest to the fact that he has always addressed my concerns. We finally heard someone knocking at the door bringing our little pow wow to an end. I thanked him immensely for all he had done for me. He told me that of all his patients, the transsexuals are the most appreciative. I gave him a big hug and then we parted ways. I feel indebited to Dr. M�nard because he has given me something that I once only dreamed about. I left that party with a sense of pride and dignity. It took a lot of years for me to overcome the angst of my awkward youth. The newfound joy I experienced with finally having the correct sex would only be tempered in the months to come by all the lamenting I would do over not having the right body in the first place. <<BACK<< >>HOME>> |