One missionary, Rev .Scott visited my village when I was three years old. The missionary gave me his niece's name and blessed me that I would become a woman with helping nature like his niece ANN LAURIE. I praise god for his blessings.
I was in teens 15 years old, got married to my maternal uncle, when I was seventeen - My husband Mr.Ravi Prasad had a severe Heart problem where one of the main values i.e. mitral value ruptured and I lost hopes that he would recover. Doctors gave up hope. At this juncture I came very close to God in my personal life and with tears running out I pleaded HIM to have mercy upon me and revive my husband. Instantly God gave me answer and recovered my husband. The first miracle in our married life.
When I was nineteen, I had my first conception. I had conceived a baby girl. She survived for one and half years going through severe suffering for congenital heart anamoly and multiple anamolies. And she died.
An opportunity god gave me to express my grief to him I prayed and god assured me of an other child. And the present child is a gift from god. Her name is ANNIE BESANT. She is in third grade now. After this I have to get determined for termination as the 28 weeks old fetus had developed a deformity in her heart. And doctors stated it to be a nature's mistake. And I never left my hope in Christ.
After two years with much hope and submission we planned for a pregnancy where it lead me to sorrow and distress AGAIN as the 30 weeks male fetus had developed Ebsteins anamoly and multiple anamolies where the doctors pitied my fortune. But I was never discouraged with my fortune and it is at this time God promised me to give a son
We underwent counseling and they stated"as one child born to your marital uncle is able to survive, there is achance for another healthy child" "But it depends on your patience" Physically I am stout and sound in my health but my mental suffering was too much as no one lost too many children in our families. But I was not distressed in god with my affliction towards my pregnancies.
By this time I started thinking "Why man has to suffer" but I couldn't find the solution for my question. But I humbly prayed and once again submitted myself to god.
After one and half years , unexpectedly I knew that I am carrying a child in my womb of 18 weeks where I realised that the fetus is lying dead in my womb since one week as a result of the fetus's heart failure. I couldn't digest it and I questioned god why I should suffer. I stayed one whole night in the presence of god and yelled and shouted for his treatment towards me. But to my betterment I understood that man has to suffer. If he did not suffer, he will not understand one's suffering. And I realised - God being innocent and sinless suffered for our sins and died on the cross of Calvary but today he did not leave us alone in agony, pain and panic. And it is this time we come closer to god. Here I infer to refer you "Thou the fig tree ---------no herd in the stalls- yet I will rejoice in the Lord, I will joy in the God of my salvation.
Recently I underwent vacumn cleaning of my uterus as a result of vesicular mole in my womb. But I say "Rejoice in the Lord always, And again I say rejoice" as Paul the apostle said.
And I also remember the verse from The Book of Psalms in Bible i.e. "The Lord has chastened me severely, But he has not given me over to death." I realised that god has a purpose in my miscarriages. And my connection to god is always on the higher grounds and I thank god for giving me such moral support. I always thank HIM for keeping me alive as the grave doesn't praise him.Now I am carrying a child in my womb and pls do pray.
The above experiences taught me rather motivated to share with the unfortunate people from what I have to bring health and happiness and the love of Christ as it was shared to me by the Lord Jesus Christ. I opened a ministry called "Redeemed Hearts Ministry."
