I, understandably, had a hard time letting myself believe in vampires at all at first. But it felt right. I somehow knew inside; my intuition and my rationale wrestled with each other over the possibility of the concept. Eventually, I came to the realization that vampires do exist. Definately harder, and perhaps more importantly I admitted to myself that I was one. I felt confused and lost.
I decided to seek someone to talk to... first, I got myself an ezboard name, and posted my situation on the SLAD board. It's actually still there if anyone wants to see: My first post on SLAD. Fortunately the gatekeeper Sapphire posted a reply asking for me to clarify and helped me out considerably. I still find her response funny - "Subj: Smells like vampire spirit". But in that post she told me one of the messages I've tried to convey to you: vampirism isn't all fairytale, adventure and fluff. There's a considerable downside. Does anyone seriously believe that we don't have problems either? Do you think becoming a vamp will solve all their problems and bring them inner peace? I hope not, because all they're |
