My Mind-Bipolar (1)
Monday, October 27, 2014
I am not with a kind word, at the moment. There are too many shitty people in this world.
I do not belong. I stay home, avoiding people like the plague and the plague is what
they are - A Plague of Shit!
I have spent some time, today, working with the facebook debugger so to get the image I
want to show, when the link to this site is shared. I am tryin to stay boiling mad at
shitty people but havin to concentrate on my work is makin my thoughts go elsewhere
and my mad is calmin down - And I dont want it to calm down, just yet.
I want to stay reminded of just how much I hate people so to remind myself to treat
everybody as invaluable, because that is what most do to me. The Golden Rule has never
applied, where I am concerned. My Rule: Do unto others as they do unto you and do it
to extremes!
I much prefer to line all the shitty people up, use the Dewalt D-16 Nail Gun and nail
nail their asses to the wall! They would fill up the Great Wall of China.
I am done with this, for today. We will see what tomorrow brings.
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Tuesday, October 28, 2014
Today was not the greatest of days, either. I know the better day is coming, I just
can't know when. It is like you get on the roller coaster and you can't get off. You must
ride the ride and go where it takes you. You can scream and cry, all you wish, but nobody
cares. They will hear you but they only laugh and remain cold to your dilemma. Nobody will
stop the ride, just for you. There is no help.
You will change rides, once the current ride ends, but you will not be able to choose which
ride to get on next. The choice is made for you and you can only hold on, while hoping for
the best. Your experience is that there will be no best. It can get worse or better but
never best. It will be black or white. There will be no gray. And what makes it all so much
worse - Nobody gives a shit about you. They do not want their lives to be interrupted.
You are on your own!
As much as you desire for tomorrow not to come, it will come. You know you will have,
yet, another day to struggle making it through. You beg for this to be your last day but
your pleas go ignored. You will be forced to see daylight, once again.
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Wednesday, October 29, 2014
I may not make it to update this every day. Well, eventually, I won't. I never stick with
any schedule. I at least wanted to get here today, so to add the graphics. I am a visual
person and often, when I can't think of words, graphics say it all for me. I used to have
a website, that I kept up with, because I created a lot in my Paintshop Pro but I don't
even care to do that any more. I, now, go for things that are already created. It takes
up less energy and concentration. I am such a perfectionist, in my creating, I get on my
own last nerve.
I love the graphic header, at the very top of the page, and the graphic with the girl in
the bottle, because they are a so me type of graphics. Even the simply drawn, black and
white, fit me to a T - I have a Comedy & tragedy tattoo, on my right upper arm. I feel as
though I live in a bottle. Just put Comedy & Tragedy in the bottle and you have me.
It is only noon time. I don't feel up to this, right now. I may or may not feel up to it
later, this evening. I did not sleep well and I am running tired.
In case I don't get back, today or next or next, I am sayin - heck, I don't know what I
am sayin - I will be back unless I get lucky and God calls me home.
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