"The wings have been set to drying."
It started last week with my new hair cut. And today I want to thank my online friend for all to see and read! Mysticrav3r, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THE LOVE WITHOUT REALLY KNOWING ME!!; to send me the money to start my transformation and set the wings to drying. As of this moment, I'm am waiting for the second stage. Adding the black . This is so new for me to experiment with myself. To play without restriction, impediment or judgement from myself. And truly not worrying about societies more specifically Bubbavilles judgement of me! I will post pictures both here and in the photo gallery when I have them. Once again without the help of my friend Mysticrav3r I could not have done this as soon as I have. Hugs, Kisses and Tongue to you my friend!!! Blessed Be!!!
Well, my hair is complete and I am so very happy with it!!! Not as strong in color as I would have liked, but subtle is good. I am not making these changes to shock the world or invited attention. I just really want to be me is all. My Mom was a little worried about why I was doing this, but it really is none of her business.
I am enjoying the chats I have with my all my friends online, but there are 4 in particular, Soldier Boy (Arkangel) Sir (which is my nickname for him), Mysticrav3r and Sentinal. They have become good friends I think. I have come to a realization in my life, I am an exhibitionist. I would have never really thought that. Don't get me wrong, I like getting attention, I just don't go out of my way to get it. My personality tends to take care of that for me. I also just never realized how far I could go with it and Soldier Boy reaps the benefits! Plus I think he especially deserves a little excitement considering he is in Iraq right now and deserves as many smiles as I can give him.
Sending love and good cheer to all those I met online and hope to continue to get to know you all.
Why is it that when we as people start to like someone or think we do, do we start to watch what we say or do or even how we act? All in hopes that this someone we like will like us back. I've realized that to be liked for who I am, I have to be who I AM! Whether that means being the exhibitionist I am, or that funny girl who can be shy in strange places and circumstances or even the sarcastic bitch I know I am. There is a book of which the Title has made a profound chang in my life; "What You Think of Me Is None of My Business!!" Terry Cole-Whittaker. Living by this ideal has made it easier for me not to worry about what others think of me and to simply be myself. I worry now only about how I feel about myself and if I am doing the right thing by me. I try to be good to all the people I know, and love without exception unless you prove you are not worthy of that love. So next time you feel teh need to be someone other than who you are in hopes of being liked, remember BE YOURSELF and if they don't like you, there are plenty of others who will!!!!