i quit.
i'm fed up. seriously.
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i just realized today that i forgot to link my relationship page to the nav bar. i hate it! i can't get anything right. i might as well have a nose bleed whenever i smile. [note: that last sentence was encrypted, only one knows what i'm talking about] another thing. i'm tired. again. why am i up late? someone remind me.
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did anyone else know that we were supposed to vote yesterday [tuesday]? i can't believe i didn't know. this is the second voteing session i've missed since i've become eligible. and there have only been 3.
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travis. your blog disturbs me. in fact, i debated whether or not i should even say anything, but i figure that the only people who read this are you, me, pete, and sarah. whoelse even cares what i have to say, or what's going on in my life? no one. and it doesn't matter. the only reason i do this is because it gives me something to do. well not really, it's like a journal, and i'll be able to reflect back on it.
damn. you were right peter, look how far off track i get. i just babble, my mind moves too fast. anyway, back to what i was saying. travis. [pause] wtf was that about? here's what you wrote
I figure I have to try to hurry and donate as much as I can before I become ineligible, because I plan on getting my first tattoo this summer and you can't donate for 1 year after getting a tattoo. While that is only a temporary ban on donation, I will be banned for life from donating once I've had sex for the first time, as "any male who has had sex with another male since 1977" is ineligible, which I understand because of risks for various diseases, but it still seems kind of unfair.
I'll no longer be given the opportunity to help someone out by providing them with the blood that they might need to save their life, and since I have a rather rare blood type, it hurts the Red Cross' supply in two ways, in number and type as well. But, I don't want to put anyone at risk either, so I understand why I won't be able to give, I guess it just disappoints me.
ok, unfair? how is that unfair? and why the [bleep] are you discussing your sex life on your public blog? that's gross. if you like homo-butt humping *purely in jest* more than you like giving blood, why should you care if you can't donate or not? i don't see many gay men complaining day to day about how they can't donate blood because they got laid. personally, when you get laid, i sincerely hope that donating blood is furthest from your mind. i can't imagine what it would be like if you told a sexual partner "damn, now i can't donate blood. thanks a lot [name] ! you've ruined my life!"
as for your idea of the red cross needing you. blah. come on. yeah, it's nice that you are doing a great service to the community, and that you are helping those that are in need of your blood, but travis, come on. after all it is the American Red Cross not the Travis Cooper Red Cross. honestly, if it means that much to you, simply, don't have "male on male" sex. don't get a tattoo. don't do things you want to do because your blood is so valuable. first and foremost however, don't let it get you down.
i have more travis issues i want to talk about...but i'll save them for later...nm... forget it, i might as well get it all out of the water. travis. i haven't read your blog in like 3 days, and when i do. [shakes head]
I think I'm going to take the time, some time within the next couple of days, to post my own coming-out story on ELIGHT.
I think it is important that kids who are struggling with being gay (or lesbian or whatever) know that coming-out isn't always a bad thing. In fact, it's almost always a very, very good thing, even if bad things happen afterward, which is to be expected.
They have to know that they aren't alone, by any stretch. I know what I went through just a few years ago, and had I known about ELIGHT, and similar organizations, it would have made things so much easier for me. Having the ability to be in contact with supportive, accepting people is an absolute necessity for young people, but especially for GLBT (gay-lesbian-bisexual-transgender) youth.
I guess maybe if I can do this then I'll be giving back something to my newfound community. I just hope it's enough.
come on travis. coming out story? what story? who didn't support you when you told them you were gay? i understand that there aren't too many out-of-the-closet homosexuals in newark, but you know what, has anyone jumped you, slashed your tires, or egged your house since you came out? no. and no one will. anymore it's something to celebrate when you come out and say you're straight!
by all means, if you think that it would help if you told you them your story, do it. but i don't understand why you say your newfound commmunity. if you feel like you're an alone GLBT, go to axis, go to high street and count how many rainbow colored flags you can pick out. watch will an grace. but don't say that it is a newfound community, because you're still the same old travis with the same old friends. by saying that you are siding. you are part of our community, as is everyone else.
don't think travis that i'm mad at you. or had a bone to pick with you, i just felt like explaining my feelings about your blog. if this offends you, then i'll take this post down. i just felt that you needed some much deserved feedback. seeing how i get none, and i'm assuming you don't either.
travis, i support you 100% and always have.
love ya, g'night
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i had lots of fun today. well, first off, i slept in. of course. then i get a call from manpower. they want to know if it's ok if they send Dennison Univeristy my resume. of course it's ok. but they asked if i was interested in working in the financial aid department. sure i am. job at dennison = cheap tuition to nice school. yep.
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the best part of my day was around 4 pm. i went running/walking with my dogs. i packed the two of them in my car, and i drove to the ohio state university campus newark. we parked in the back lot, i don't know the name of the buildings, but it was the big parking lot furthest from the road, and across the little lane from the child developement center. you know which one i'm talking about? well if you do you do, if not *shrug*. ok, so the three of us get out of the car and start on our walk. we walked over to the bike path and started. my dogs were going crazy. like they had never been outside before. they were running back and forth, smelling everything. they were crossing their leashes, and twisting them around my back and pulling me along. it was sad. they were walking me. eventually they calmed down and realized that i was walking along the path. then they met their first fellow jogger. omg. they were so excited to see a stranger. and the stranger, nice person that he was, decided to antagonize them by petting them. AH! My dogs were breaking my hands! anyway, they are cute and welcoming. he left us, and we continued on. after a while of everyone i passed stopping to pet my dogs. i realized something. my dogs are people magnets. even when they are foaming at the mouth with spit cause they are so hot. tomorrow, i'm going to go out and by those doggie water bottles that you can use to water them. i figure that my dogs are fat anyway, and we both could use the exercise. so tomorrow, at around 4, if not sooner, i'm taking holly out for a jog. then thursday, i'm taking ike, and friday i'll take both of them. that way we get a routine exercise program down. then when they get used to it, and not so excited, i'll start taking the more often. this will be a good summer of running with my dogs. besides, what else do i have to do. so, if you see a guy running around with a golden retriever and a yellow lab, it's me. i should be out between 3-6 almost everyday. i'm going to try and run as much as i can. well, that's enough for now.
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i'll write more tonight if anything interesting happens. doubt it. but life is very strange.
i still can't belive....3 whole weeks *evil grin* hehehe
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i rented finding forrester last night, and i didn't get it back in time so i just kept it another day. guess i'll watch it again. i picked up my pictures tonight from meijer and well, the roll had pictures from christmas time on it and pictures from this years prom. i'll scan them in. they are kinda sad tho cause ginny was in some(from christmas). she passed away in march.
**changing topic**
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i didn't work today, i went shopping instead. and i got this really awasome jacket; kenneth cole reaction, it's really nice, i really really wanted one. and i got some nice shirts, and 3 new belts, a fountain (seriously, for my bedroom), a HUGE pillow called a body pillow, new sheets and stuff, and lunch. oh, and i went with my grandma (who's in town for a few weeks) and my mom --instead of working. can you blame me? it's like an early christmas.
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i just found out today that my mom, my dad, and my grandma are dissapearing into the great west for 3 weeks this summer. that leaves the house to me. 3 weeks alone, well not really alone, i'll have my dogs. nice huh?
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ok, i decided that i don't want a civic, but a maxima instead. and it's becomeing more and more of a reality every day. first tho, i need a job!!! i never thought i'd say this, but i acutally want to work. i need to work. what's happening to me?
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i'm going to a concert this thursday, i can't remember who's playing, cept for project 86, peter's told me hundreds of times, but i don't really listen, i just hear the word "concert" and my ears perk up. quick bit of info for you people who don't know, last summer was dubbed, the summer of concerts (to me at least) i ended up seeing:
smashing pumpkins
crazytown
dope
Staind
POD
System of a Down
Korn
Kid Rock
PowerMan 5000
Metallica (2x)
i think that's it, peter would know.
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this is getting lengthy, but it's been a long weekend. i have reason to write. nighty night, oh yeah, check this out.
click here it's kinda cool, but might take a while to load. i just made it last night, if you guys ever wonder what i do when i'm up really late...peter, i know what you're thinking and i'll kill you, i know where you live.
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Ok now for the good news! I HAVE A CELL PHONE NOW! anyway, my number is 740-814-0625, it's a local call if you live in Newark, it's just 814-0625, i could care less if you know me or not. just call me! i love getting phone calls. and if i don't know you, even better, just make sure you tell me who you are. :oP
don't be shy
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i went to newarks prom last night with jennifer, i don't have any pictures up yet, they are getting developed. yep yep. i had a great time, it was soo fun. i took jen to the buxton inn, when i told her we were going to red lobster (she wanted to go to the buxton but i told her that we couldn't). so then i went to prom, it was late, an 8:30pm prom. that's really late, utica's was only 6:00pm. well anyway, jenn was great, i had lots of fun. and i saw lots and lots of people i haven't seen in a while. and i met lots of really great people. i hope to see them again. i had a great night. thanks to all of those that participated in making my evening wonderful. "..and i'd like to thank the academy." blah blah blah.
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ok, i'm going out, on the town, cause i start working tomorrow. YEAH!
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ok, i went to OSU-N to go to some classes with Peter...but noooo, he's not where he was supposed to be. I was ok, 5 minutes late, I was supposed to meet him at 10 till 8, and i was there at 5 till 8. i parked right behind him in the parking lot. but, alas, no pete. grrr. anyway, i'm now, bored, again. it seems like there is never anything for me to do. i know what my parents would say "get a job" well, i'm trying. i want a job, i need a job, but manpower hasn't called me back yet. although they should have already. I NEED A JOB!!!
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Tomorrow i have prom, my grandma is coming up from florida, cinco de mayo, and the sonfest up at the NAZ boy will i be busy. i'll write about it when it's over.
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Yeah, ok, i've got to go now
peace
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04.05.2001 (2:52 in the stinking morning) 1441 hits
i can't sleep.
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blah. i had more to say but, yeah.
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g'night, i'll be thinking of you while i dream awake.
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guess where i ate again yesterday? yup. puerto vallarta. yum. afterwards i thought i was going to explode from eating so much. gluttony is my favorie sin. anyway, i had my interview today. it went really really well. i took a test on power point, and i am a proficeint user. and then i took my test on microsoft word 2000 and word 97. lol. the lady looks at my score and is like "master user? wow that must be good, i've never seen master user before." she goes and asks someone else what it is and they all look like startled deer. "master user?" "yeah, that's really good, that's supposed to be the highest." anyway, they were like, because of your resume and tests scores, we're going to send your information to the technical division in columbus. we'll call you immediatly. so that's why i'm sitting at home at this time of day. i am waiting for a phone call. i hope i get a good job. i'm thinking of posting up my resume online so i can refer people [potential employers] to view my page and resume at the same time. yeah, i'll do that later.
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happy birthday tommy.
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another thing, what the heck happened to all you guys posting on my message board. jerks. just kidding, but i check my message board, an no one is posting. and, no one emails me. this page is getting boring. especially when i know what it's like to have people actually respond to you! well, i'm hungry, and i'm going to go grab a bowl of cereal of something.
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ok, after the excitement of getting my own domain name. right, i forgot i was the only one that was excited. what was I thinking!? hmmm...i want those polls. i think they'd be neat. i'm just to lazy to get them. yeah me, lazy, i know i know, you'd never dream of me being like that. well guess what happened today! ...
nothing!
well some stuff did happen. i saw jeff! i went to dance, and i met linzy for the first time. and i watched mtv at travis's house. and i told jeff i'd help him with the gay-straight alliance web page. pro bono. i think that'd be fun. well making any website is fun.
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Two ethical questions
Question #1
If you knew a woman who was pregnant, who had 8 kids already, three who were deaf, two who were blind, one mentally retarded, and she had syphilis; would you recommend that she have an abortion?
Question #2:
It is time to elect a new world leader, and your vote counts. Here are the facts about the three leading candidates.
Candidate A: Associates with crooked politicians, and consults with astrologists. He's had two mistresses. He also chain smokes and drinks 8 to 10 martinis a day.
Candidate B: He was kicked out of office twice, sleeps until noon, used opium in college and drinks a quart of whisky every evening.
Candidate C: He is a decorated war hero. He's a vegetarian, doesn't smoke, drinks an occasional beer and hasn't had any extramarital affairs.
Which of these candidates would be your choice?
Decide first, no peeking, then click here for the answers...
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well, that's all for today. i'm tired. alone :o(
you and me
meant to be
immutable
impossible
it's destiny
pure lunacy
incalculable
inseparable
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k, i just had to wait until it was late enough to count this as monday.� ok the most exciting news in the world, topping all headlines.� www.geocities.com/ralphthesuperdog77 *drum roll* is now.. *more drums*� *TAH-DAH!* www.ralphthesuperdog.com!!!!
yes, that's right, i now have my own domain. if you still like coming to this geocities place, it will update along with www.ralphthesuperdog.com but anyway, now that i have own domain, it will spare anyone the hassle of spewing out a big long URL.� *wow* this is great, i'm very excited.
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ok ok, *calm* let's see, what did do today?� i went to church, ate at puerto vallarta for the third time this week (a week is any given seven days) um, sat around cleaned my room, saw sarah, saw jen, watched� where the heart is*coughunghcough* came home and yep, that's my day.� exciting huh?
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there is nothing more to say, but see you later, and i'm going to upload new pictures to advertise my page, to well, my readers. heh.� what a crowd that is *wink*
peace,
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old habits die hard. i'm up again, and i'm tired. but it's one of those nights that when you lie awake in bed you search for a comforting thought to get you through the night kind of night. well, my comforting thought hasn't come to me yet. there are so many things going on in my life right now. and today was a catalyst of these brain wracking decisions. i went to lunch with mr. baker today. it was a really good lunch, i haven't had a chicken sopapilla in so long i thought death was imminent. lunch was great, and i had great company.
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i'm going to Newark's prom this saturday (may 5th) and i'm looking forward to that. i haven't seen jen since august, didn't have a chane over christmas break last time. jen's one of my really good friends. last year i took her to my high school prom. and! i ripped her dress. hehe, nice guy that i am.
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another interesting thing that i'm thinking about. there is no day but today. i was reading the liner notes to the rent soundtrack, and i saw that in there. that's so right, nothing is guarenteed nothing is for sure. carpe diem. i just have to think about that a lot.
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i want to commit. i want to make a commitment. i want to jump in the water, instead of always having a foot in the door, waiting to leave as soon as the fantasy i live in shows sings of changing. life isn't a fantasy, and it's taken a long time to realize that. well, g'night.
.:'^_^':. but life is a gift; a blessing
i've had a late start today. sorry bout that...i guess more people than i thought visit my page, that or you guys just sat on it and refresehed it, either way, there are 1165 people as of now. very nice. thanks readers. i shipped a glass picture frame and it broke so i went out an bought a new one today, i went to 2 temp agencies. hopefully i will get a job soon. i need the cash. other than that today has been a lazy day. my teacher from high school and i are going out to lunch tomorrow; i'm looking forward to that. *sigh* my heart flutters.
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OMG...the funniest thing just happened. well peter was sitting next to me, and peter leans over to pick something up off my floor. and suddenly the legs of his stool fall off, and he falls to the floor in a crash. *arms flailing and everything* It was so funny I fell out of my chair laughing so hard. I was crying. And then the best part is peter's reaction. he's trying to play it off like it's no big deal. but reguardless it was the funniest thing i've seen since AARON in 9th grade when his chair broke. but that was in front of the whole
class, and then him not coming to school the next day. now that was funny. *sigh the good ol days* "melons"
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hehe
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i seriously hate you guys...whoever it is that i update this for when i�m dead tired. just to let you know i hate you. and better yet, i found some great movies of peter doing some embarrassing stuff. Hmmmm...should i put them up, or not? maybe i�ll put in a poll? And the readers (i hate you; well with the exception of one) decide. who even reads my page daily, or even bi-daily? i�m guessing a big 3 or 4 (you are appreciated), let�s see, there are 1108 hits as of right now, let�s see what it gets to by this time tomorrow. oh, and i showed my page to my mom, she thought that the nude picture thing and the feedback was hilarious. i�m starting to get tired of having to move all these text boxes, i�m thinking of archiving all this stuff. what do you readers of my page (i hate all but one) think?
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polls are starting to look more and more lustrous right now.
ARGH! i just attempted to implement them, but you know what...just put them on my message board for now. i hate scripts. i can't seem to get it to work. anyway. i'm tired...and grouchy! not really, just tired. ok, maybe grouchy. but that's because i'm tired.
today's word of the day:
avarice
(why you ask? because there is a funny story behind it)
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please! please! use my message board for comments...and, ignore anything peter and aaron have to say. :oP
i'll also work on the polls.
oh hehe, i finally LINKED the last two pages of picutes..
well, this sucks. i think i'm finally on ohio time. it's only 1am and i'm tired. argh. even in seattle i'd stay up till at least 4 or 5 in the morning. argh...
must...type...must...over...use...ellipses...
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well, today...hmm...i keep taking showers. like 2-3 a day, that's just crazy. it's so hot here. it's not letting up. 81 degrees today. that's just insane. it's april!! well better than the "mid-50's" of seattle. i have no idea what to write about. i need a job. i need to make a new resume. i need to go to the high school.
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"Am I miserable because I listen to music. Or do I listent to music because I'm miserable." --High Fidelity
(it's so hard to say goodbye is playing now)
(great, streets of philidelphia just came on now)
woo-hoo
anyway, it's time to say good night...um.. "good night"
like always, see you in my dreams (you know who you are)
peace
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what a day. first i wake up, and petey comes to pick me up for lunch. *couple hours later* cause I'm lazy hehehe, we leave. we go to my favorite resturant in the world puerto vallarta. mmmhmmm. yum yum...chicken taco salad fajitas. cheese dip...nachos...mmmm. *drools* now all i need to experiance is a chicken sopapilla...yum! i'm so stinking hungry now!
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i worked on my car today. and well...it sucks. listen to this conversation:
[scene] i'm sitting in the drivers seat, and my dad is working on bleeding the master cylinder. this is done by removing a valve from behind the disc brakes, and pumping the brakes
Dad : Man this wheel is missing the valve cap.
Me : So?
Dad: I hope I can still release the valve.
*you hear him straining to loosen the bolt around the valve*
Dad : ungh
<*< snap >*>
Dad : Hehe, oops.
Me : Um. What did you just do *pokes head out the window*
Dad : *Holding hand out* I accidentally broke it off
Me : *rolls eyes* Nice, real nice.
Dad : *stands up* Oh well. Hope it didn't need bleeding. Put the wheel back on.
Me : *sigh*
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so that's me dad, great guy. master of auto repair, defender of family, funny...funny guy.
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I took a "nice, hot, long, steamy, bath" (inside joke) today. wow was it nice, i had 3 lilac candles going, and my soothing music, and the lights in the bath room turned off. wow was it nice. this bath was two days in the making. i'm telling you. i recommend baths like that for everyone. well, i'm going to try and get on ohio time.
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well, i�m in ohio, safe, sound, secure, and naked. j/k...the plane ride was great, *cough* i had a 5 hour layover in cincinnatti because of the Comair jerks...but anyway. i made it in at around 11 pm. [quick story] when i came home in december i was supposed to be greeted by a large entourage of welcomers. But...no, no one is there, in fact no one came for another 20 minutes. [end story] ok, so i step off the plane, and guess what...no parents... i thought �not again!� but, luckily peter and travis were there. my parents were tired, so they didn�t come. it�s cool though, i made it home.
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i went to prom saturday night. it started out bad (lol to those of you who know why...sorry. i seem to have lost my sense of direction :oP) all in all i had a great time. and i met the infamous chris, which is really cool. it�s such a small world. i knew him, and he knew me, and we met. yep...nuff said. sarah looked fantastic. thanks for the evening. i put up pictures. click here
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oh man is it hot here. it was 45 degrees (7 celcius) when i left seattle, with 0% humidity. and toady it was a blimy 80 degrees (27 celcius) with like 75% humidity. parched earth!!! why am i complaining you ask? i don't know that is a good question.
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it's good to be back home...there was more that i wanted to talk about, but i've forgotten it now as i browse through my ocmputer. there is some funny stuff on there. l like for instance this picture...lol, i had no idea i had that. :OD
I am so not used to the time change yet...*must get sleep*
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ps. what the hell is up with you guys postin on my message board! post dang it!! it's at the bottom!
pps. i miss you allen!
i leave for the airport in half an hour, but i decided to let all of the faithful readers out there catch up on my past day. not that i'm sure you care, but still, i can read this in a few years and wonder what i was thinking. my own personal journal of sorts. well the most shocking even of yesterday was seeing melissa again. this was really strange since i haven't seen her for 7 months...and get this...she doesn't even get off the couch to greet me...she just sit's there and says "hi." talk about a knife to the chest...that hurt... :o( like a lot. but c'est la vie. there are enough great and wonderful things going on in my life to let that get to me.
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one such event is my sister's marriage~! and and and!!! i have a picture of her fiance and her together! click here it's the most adorable picture ever. i talked to rick today, it was a really great conversation because he told me how he proposed to my sister. i nearly cried. well my eyes watered up...i get so mushy when i hear about stuff like that. i think the union on a man and a woman is one of the most beautiful thing in the world. i find joy in other people's happiness. i love you rick and missy, i can't wait to be an UNCLE!!! i'll watch the kid when you go out anytime you want.
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ok, i leave in 15 minutes, i'm so excited. i already know what i'm going to do on the plane: write. i'm going to write in my journal, and write letters, and poetry, you know mushy sentimental stuff. i am such a sucker for romance. *sigh* i'm still not packed, i'm trying to make my carryon not quite so bulky, and i have 3 bags i'm going to check, and before i realized it, i had 3 carry on's...i'm screwed...if they don't let me take all of them. i'm so excited about going home, but i can't wait to come back. i really like it out here. i want to finally do something with my life *cue the piano* i want to finally be something for myself, and commit to something fully. jump in the water so to speak. i go around with my foot in the door with everything i do. but i've changed sooo much since i've been out here, but the more i change the more about me that stays the same. do you know what i mean? well...that's rhetorical.
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i'm such a dreamer. they say that you become your dreams. if this is true. then i'd say that the best coming.
i know i'll make it
love can last forever
graceful swans of never
topple to the earth
and you will make it last
forever you
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ps. AAAAH I'vE GoT To gO! SEE YOU IN OHIO! LOVE YOU!
pss. I'll really miss Allen :o(
well now, i'm a twit, i had already writen my entry for a day, and i forgot to save the stupid thing! so what i had was a puzzled look as i was going over my webpage...hmmm...*coughmoroncough*
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lately i've been going around with my head in the clouds...i'm truely on cloud nine. (story time) i was talking to allen today and i had said something along the lines of "i don't believe in the zodiac" and allen was like "mmhmm" and persisted to show me my astroligcal profile. what a jerk. :o) well anyway, i reversed my previous statement and now i believe in the zodiac. my entire profile fit me to a 't.'
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i love talking about fate and solemates and things like that! before i never gave the notion of soulmates i second thought, but now i am a firm believer that there is truely someone out there that is perfect for you. i wonder how many people have actually found their soulmates? i'm not talking about soulfriends, because i've aready found my souldfriend(s). i believe that you can have more than one soul friend but only one soulmate. weeeell, it's getting late and i have a final in the morning, wish me luck, cause you know you love me!
later
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ps. check out all the nifty stuff i have on my page now!
pss.(pps.*shrug*). TRAVIS CLICK HERE!
after constant harrassment (sexual and otherwise *wink*) I finally put his picture up. :o)
what a day, what a day. i woke up, went to school, and wrote poetry. this is an amazing thing, because i haven't writen peotry since i was a junior and high school. and i've NEVER writen poetry for anyone...EVER. AND i've never writen poetry outside of a school project. Love is a strong muse ladies and gentlemen. Not only did i write poetry for someone, but i wrote it on my own free will. i'd like to share with you 2 of these poems. i was going to put them up on the expressions page, but nah, i'll make it easier to find, and i'll put em up here, tell me what you think. like i said...love is a strong muse, a great muse. the second poem entitled .:you are:. was writen for a very special person very close to my heart.
peace,
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*yawn* i just woke up, i have so much to do today. i'm going to start packing so that i can ship some of my stuff back home. there is no way that i'm going to be able to take all my stuff on the plane. anyway, i've got to go and buy some boxes, and then go and ship them.
i just picked up two new cd's. life house, and coldplay. life house sounds like early creed meets late pearl jam, and the cd is pretty good. cold play sounds like dave matthews band, and i haven't really listened to it very much but from what i've heard it's good.
peace
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i would like to take a moment and announce to the world that my sister is getting married. this is very exciting for me, i love my sister very very much and i really like the guy she's marrying. he's the only guy that she's dated that i actually liked. anyway, congratulations sis, and may you and rick find happiness in each other.
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rain rain go away, come again another day, when i'm not working
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yeah, so i
finally got a job.
finally got back online, for like the first time in 5 days
finally borke 700 files in my mp3 directory (complete songs)
finally updated my page
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i started my summer movie festival early this year. without peter. yeah, i've given up on all my friends. i like being alone! ya hear that! not really. but i never hear from them. don't mattah, i've got my 61" TV and a 5 DVD player, with a killer sound system, and my teddy bear to keep me company. "seattle seattle seattle" *clicks heels*
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hey check that out, a deer, outside my window. yep. neat-o.
see how interesting i am? let's see, maybe i chronologically arrange my magazines to pass some time?
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nice message board wouldn't you say? i don't get any posts, then i get a whole bunch, how exciting. see what a little contorvesry will do? i got you guys doing research now.
oh, i'm not going to retort. i talked to travis, and things are cool now. they always were, i just had to say a few things. think a lot of people took what i said in the wrong way, and that is easily done if you read it in the wrong voice. it's hard to convey emotion through text, but it was in the light-hearted manner that i usually speak in. anyway, what's done is done, life goes on, so shall i.
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op, see now what happens when i take my time while doing these silly entries? now i'm busy, i've got to go. adios amigos. later amigas.
too all of you who never contact me. *shakes head* i think of you do you think of me?
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holy crap, i haven't updated my page in forever.
i guess that's what having two jobs does to you. what's new...my wardrobe is! allen came to my home in ohio for a few days, and we went shopping, and we went all over. it was fantastic. i can't wait to get back to seattle.
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i changed the webpage back to it's old self, cause you whiners didn't like it. j/k. anyway, i'll *try* to make an effort to update it more often
----chris
sarah.. i can't wait to see you! ..soon.. :o)
yes, the rumors you have heard are true. Christopher Hayden has joined the Air Force. And from hence will be known as Airman First Class Hayden.
some may cry, and weep, others will jump and leap, but none shall comprehend the greatness of the United States Air Force [plug]
i will now explain to everyone as you sit there with your mouths open, why, i joined the USAF. I, like many other lads, skipped a lot of classes my first year in college. i ended up failing, and my parents finally decided that i needed to stay in ohio a year to prove that i wouldn't do it again. i argued, because i knew i wouldn't screw up like that again. but words are mute compared to actions. my parents wanted me to stay home [ohio at least] and get marvelous grades and such. but i didn't see myself growing as an individual by staying home and potentially staying with the same friends i had in high school. I felt like i was the same person i was when i got out of high school, and i didn't like that. once my parents told me i wasn't going back, i quickly weighed my options. i could move to seattle and totally cut off my parents [hah, like i'd live]. i could go to the branch. or i could go to something like OU [my mom didnt tell me this until after i joined, cause i might have taken her up on that offer] or.. I could join the military. the military had never been spoken of in my famliy. my parents had put themselves both through college, put my sister through college, and i was going to college, no other paths were in front of me. well i'm 20, 13 credits behind in college, back home. soon to be like my sister and $23000 i debt to an education that she's not totally happy with. I didn't like that life. I'm young, i've seen more than most people do in their entire life. and i'm searching. i'm searching for myself, hoping to find my future in something, i'm afraid to commit, i'm afraid i'll miss something, i'm afraid of who i'll be if i don't take every opportunity, and i'm afraid to find out i've messed up. i hate messing up. i hated failing my first class, and my second, and my third, and forth. i hated the fact that i was going to be back to being under a roof that i did nothing for. back in my parents eyes. some kids get kicked out when they turn 18, mine were willing to take me back in now that i'm 20. i was working 50-70 hours a week, making hardly any money, and having no time to myself. i was back in newark. and here i would stay. then one day a recruiter calls me and asks me if i'd considered joining the military. i hadn't. i never had. well kinda, but it was more out of curiosity than interest. i talked to the marines, then i talked to the air force. the air force seemed better suited for someone like me. so i asked what he could offer me. and this is what i want, and this is what i'll get,
a job, health insurance, medical, life, car, dental, housing, food, and lots and lots of perks....but most of all...travel, and an education. i can go to school take classes in whatever i want, and it won't cost me a dime. just as long as i don't fail. i can take geology and astronomy, i can take all the classes i'm interested in and not worry about going bankrupt. or making my parents broke. i'm going to go to monterey california, which is a nice little resort town on the coast. i'll learn chinese for 15 months. and i've always wanted to learn a forign language, why not learn chinese, i've always wanted to go to china, and see that part of the world. i'm going to be stationed in japan! i've always dreamed of going there, and while i'm there i can take classes in japanese, and maybe get a degree in it. who knows, i see more possiblities, and more opportunities than i would if i stayed home. and hey? what if i hate it? it's only 4 years. and i get 30 days of paid vacation a year, weekends off. i don't know of any jobs in newark that will pay me to go and learn chinese. do you? i don't know of any jobs that will offer dental, medical, car, and life insurance plans right when you start either, especially without a college education.
i hope this little essay has been informative as well as thought provoking. so i ask that you miss me, and wish me the best. this was my decision, and you should be happy that i'm looking for something, and willing to work to find it.
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now, let me tell you about seattle :oP
seattle was probably the best vacation without location that i've ever taken. i've been to vancouver twice. i've been to a concert. i've been to clubs, i've been to parties, i even attended my first pride parade [very interesting]. i stayed at a strangers apartment, in vancouver. i saw vancouver in the day time for the first time.
and.
seattle.
seattle was wonderful, but not the city really, but the company i got to share it with. allen. miranda. and sarah. thank you for making my last 2 weeks before the military a wonder 2 weeks. allen, was my esteemed host. thank you allen!
miranda, thank you so much for spending so much time with me. i really enjoyed your company, and hope to see you when i visit.
sarah, i hope you enjoy the rest of your year here in seattle, i'm sorry i can't be here for more of it.
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this is probably my last post for a long time, at least till i'm at monterey. not that i post that much anyway. please feel free to use my message board, or email me, i'll check all of it when i get home.
as for my ohio friends. SPEND TIME WITH ME!!! i'll be home for a few days [read: one or possibly 2] so spend some time with me before i have to go.
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ok, lates all, i'm really tired, and i've got to upload all these pictures! they're from my trip to vancouver, both of them. enjoy.
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ok, i know there are lots of errors..ignore them
PICTURES ::::::: Vancouver