I Am

I am the darkness in your eyes.
I am the shiver up your spine.
I am the creature that you fear.
I'm your scarriest nightmare.

I'm the monster under your bed.
I'm the evil voice in your head.
I am the chaos in your mind.
I'm the sane thought, you can't find.

I am the hidden happy part.
I am the terror in your heart.
I am the pain that you ache for.
I'm everything you wished you were.

Pretending

I spent most of my life
Pretending to be something I'm not.
Lying about never holding that knife,
Hiding behind a mask of happiness.

I hoped the real me would never show,
But just to be safe I closed my eyes to the bad.
I pretended I didn't know
When people started to talk.

I still hear all their voices,
When they'd talk as I walked past.
But they never knew all my choices,
It surprises me that I survived.

But by being someone I'm not
I found a new release,
My pain had hurt a lot,
But as someone else, I didn't feel it.

Sorry

I'm sorry that I hurt you.
I'm sorry I lied.
Sorry I dissapoint you.
Sorry I'm alive.

Sorry I wasn't there for you.
Sorry that I'm wierd.
Sorry I couldn't love you.
Sorry I never cared.

I'm sorry that I left you
To face this all alone.
I swear I would have been there,
If only I had known.

That's Me

The little girl whose dressed in black.
The scared child whose always looking back.
The girl who tells you that she's fine.
The one who feels like she's losing her mind.
That's me.

The one hiding in all her gloom.
The one sitting in the back of the room.
The one who likes to watch you squirm.
The one you think will never learn.

That's me.

The one you always tease,
Though I only try to please.
The girl you say is screwed in the head.
The one who may end up dead.

That's me.