I'm the unwanted girl,
The one you push away.
"Not right now" and "maybe later"
Are the only things you say.
You treat me like I'm stupid,
And like you don't want me around.
You treat me like I'm nothing,
Except for dirt upon the ground.
I'm the unwanted girl,
The one you never loved.
The wicked little girl
Who wasn't from "above."
I'm the little girl,
The one you never see.
I'm the unwanted girl
And that's how it shall be.
Dear diary I am scared by what went on tonight.
Dear diary I'm scared 'cause my parents had a fight.
Dear diary I am sad, I feel so lost inside.
Dear diary I am sad, this pain I cannot hide.
Dear diary I'm angry, how can I live this way?
Dear diary I'm angry, I don't know what to say.
Dear diary I feel betrayed, this is so unfair.
Dear diary I feel betrayed, why do I still care?
Dear diary I feel insecure, I don't know what to do.
Dear diary I feel insecure, I still don't have a clue.
Dear diary I feel trapped, there's nowhere left to run.
Dear diary I feel trapped, with no moon, stars, or sun.
Dear diary I feel stupid, I should have seen this coming.
Dear diary I feel stupid, someone please do something.
Dear diary I feel lonely, although I still have friends.
Dear diary I feel lonely, and that's how it will end.
I've written this with a steady hand,
To try and make you understand,
That I don't have the control you demand,
And I can't do all the things you can.
Your words slice me deeper than any blade,
And the scars you leave will never fade.
They go deeper than any cut I ever made,
And no one or nothing can come to my aid.
Now the thoughts are here again,
The battle inside rages within,
The marks are scarred deeper than just skin,
And the depression has completely set in.
Hope You're Happy.
Here I go picking up this pen,
Because I've dissappointed you once again.
Here I go once more crying tonight,
'Cause you hurt me and I didn't even fight.
Here I go tracing the blades shape,
Wishing to destroy you with all my hate.
But instead, here I go again,
I sink in the blade and watch blood stain my skin.
And now here I go, pretending all is good,
You don't doubt it, even though you should.
