TITLE: Yesterday's Ghosts
AUTHOR: Rainie
EMAIL: [email protected]
DISCLAIMER: Joss, not I.
DISTRIBUTION: Please ask first
CATEGORY: B/S
RATING: PG
PART: 14/16
Clear All
"Spike?"
"Buffy?"
We speak up simultaneously.
Neither continuing, only staring blankly.
"You first," Spike finally decides into the silence.
I just shrug unable to paraphrase what's on my mind.
It's the same to him. I can feel it, when he buries his face in the crook of my neck.
We stay like this for what seems like forever.
Strong arms encircling my waist.
Why does he put up with me?
Wouldn't he be so much better off alone?
"Spike?" I manage casually. "You want me to go?"
He doesn't move. Only his grip tightens. It almost hurt.
"That what you want, now that he's gone."
It's not a question.
I can feel a shiver running through his body.
Goodness no, I wanna scream, you got it all wrong, it's what you...
But I don't scream. No word coming from my mouth.
"So that's it?" I can feel him placing butterfly kisses all along my jawline, ever all so gently pushing me away.
It's now or never.
"Spike?"
I take a deep purposeful breath unsure how to say.
The kissing stops as he's waiting for me to go on.
He tilts his head so he can get hold of my eyes.
Ohmigod, how am I to explain...
I try to turn away, try to hide the tears burning behind my eyes.
But he won't let me. Not this time.
I panic.
"What is it, luv?" He inquires in a warm but firm voice.
I know he deserves me to explain.
But there is no way to describe - no way to...
I do the only thing I can think of making myself clear.
Catching his lips in the softest of kiss.