TITLE: Yesterday's Ghosts
AUTHOR: Rainie
EMAIL: [email protected]
DISCLAIMER: Joss, not I.
DISTRIBUTION: Please ask first
CATEGORY: B/S
RATING: PG
PART: 15/16
I want...
Kiss?
Kissing?
Lips touching?
Buffy??? - Me???
Nononononononononono!!!
None of that. This is so wrong.
Not that I mind her kissing me senseless.
Although she not actually does. It's just what it feels. I feel.
Cor, this' so bloody good. So very, very bloody good...
Will you stop it already, mate!
"Luv?" I manage flatly.
Silence. I try again.
"Listening, Luv?"
Still no reply.
It's now or never!
I take a deep purposeful breath.
Burying my face in the soft of her hair.
Well, mate, you go ahead.
I hesitate.
"Spike?"
An other gulp for unneeded oxygen.
How am I to approach?
How am I to explain?
Straight forward.
I then decide impromptu.
"I want you with me on your own free will.
I want you to kiss me and to tell me I'm not second choice.
I want you to love me and mean it and not because it reminds you of him.
I want you to be pregnant with my baby and I want you to..."
My voice crumbles, emotions running havoc.
I can feel her soothing touch.
Tiny arms holding me close.
"Spike?" She whispers.
Her hands in my hair.
"I want us to go home."