When we started the Amtgard group is seemed like the perfect thing. We'd have an environment where we would have gaming, where we could get Xcylur involved, and we'd also have outlets for our creative efforts as well.
Then politics stepped in. Need for control, all the stuff that's terribly normal and expected in such an environment - not bad, just people. But for Mike, he just didn't want to deal with it and so, off he went. Do I want to do stuff without my spouse? Not really. Sure I want to play the occasional computer game or read on my own but I don't want my recreation on my own. So, goodbye Amtgard, hello a box full of fabric I didn't use.
Then there's the Vampire game. I finally quit. I got sick of being treated crappy by Mike's buddy and his wife (mostly his wife. She has it in for me for some mysterious reason which she won't even tell me of. Que sera.) so I said "screw this." It came down to a situation where I wasn't having any fun. I said forget this crap and guess I'll find something else to do on alternate Saturdays. (we won't address that my spouse has no trouble doing things without me. That's a topic for a separate rant.)
Now there's church. Mike's getting pretty involved. I'm not so much into it as he. I chalk a lot of it up to the depression. I just don't feel like dealing with anyone at all. But I sign up for nursery duty and I try to at least do a little. Mike's in the Church play. I get to make a delivery boy costume.
Now I'm thinking about trying to get together an alternative parents group. One of the net goths I've seen here and there did such and has had a lot of success. I'm thinking to market to gaming, alternative and other such parents. Probably starting at my church, but maybe also through Nuke-Con and elsewhere. I'll make flyers. Put them up in the bookstores.
Will I run into politics, jerks and the like? Probably. Should I stop trying? Probably not. I've got to overcome my dissapointment at the evil men do and embrace the good.
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