| Hello i wanted to make a web page about being raped, and maybe be able to help someone else that has been raped. I had known this family for like 3 years. I used to babyset their kids and spend all my extra time over there. I treated them like they were my family. Well New Years Eve a year ago i was over there drinking and hanging out.I had a friend with me. The couple decided they wanted to go out to a club. So they left and left the kids with us. So me and my friend were just hanging out. The guy had called me on the phone and was telling me things he wanted to do to me. I did not take him serious because he was always telling me things like that. It was getting late and i was really tired, so i went to lay down the in couples bed. They were not going to be home till morning. I was like half awake and half asleep when they guy had came through the window. He went into their bathroom to wash his hands. Then he came over to the bed and laid beside me and put his very very cold hands up my shirt. I was so scard. He then started taking my panties off. He nade me jack him off while he ate me out. I felt so dirty. He then got on top of me and was playing with my breast. My friend had walked him the room while he was on top of me. He tried to roll off the bed and hide but she saw him. She yelled at him to get out of there ect.. She left the room and he got back on top of me and put his penis in me a few times. I think he realized i was still a virgin because he then said i can't do this. He told me i was going to get him in trouble. He got off of me and started to put his clothes back on and as he was going back out the window he kept telling me i was a gooffy girl. When he left i felt so dirty and so scard. I just laid there i felt very sick, so i went to the bathroom so i could get sick.. My world felt so black and i was shaking and i did not know what to do. I went to find my friend i could hardly walk. I just cried all night and had some really bad nightmares. I felt so ashamed and guilty that i did not tell anyone for about a week. I thought it was all my fault. Nightmares kept me from sleeping for a couple of months. I became really depressed i never wanted to leave my house because i was so scard. I always felt alone and that no one understood me. I laid in bed many of nights wanting to die because i could not handle the hurt or the pain i felt. You see this guy took my virginity. To this day i have moved out of state and i have started my life over. My life is now on the right track and i am with my mom. She is my bestfriend and she has helped me alot through everything. I still have my days were i am really down and just want to cry. Nightmares still haunt me in my sleep sometimes but i am learing how to deal with them. I want girls to know that they are not alone. There are Thousands of girls raped everyday. Please if you have been raped tell somebody you trust. Thatis my story. Please look at my other page for advice and tips to help you. Thanks. |
