College Life.....is wonderful.
A new year, a new site.
I suddenly remembered I had a website the other day. *nods* Yeah, I know how pathetic that is. But hey, I��m forgetful. Anyway! I have decided to update my website, maybe change the BG, maybe not. First things first, however, the buttons HAVE to go. I need a better looking set of buttons.
I went searching and found some cool forward/backward buttons. Now I just need to make my buttons match. Maybe I��ll just make a sidebar or something�K.. Should figure out how to do that, just for kicks even if I don��t use it. Anyway. Just figured I��d let you all know that this site will be updated over the next week or so. It��s become my pet project/stress reliever again. And believe you me, with all the stuff with Jamie and VGC and the paper and classes and work and my health going on, I desperately NEED a stress reliever right now.
I do know one thing for sure, though. Sometime over the next week or two I��m taking Jamie to the Cape to visit the turtles (had to give my babies to the Shell Factory �� They were too big to bring back to the dorm, plus the lack of sunlight would have been totally unfair to them) and then to PC to visit Jen��s grave.
I��ve been thinking of her a lot over the past weekend. Moving in seriously reminded me of her, and spending time with Ash didn��t help that. I mean, not that I mind spending time with Ash. Oh no, not at all. I LOVE the fact that she��s here and we can hang out again, it��s been far too long. It was just a painful reminder that Jen isn��t moving in and getting set up this week. She isn��t starting classes. She isn��t feeling those same nervous yet wonderful butterflies in her stomach that every other Freshman is feeling�K�K It��s just not fair. At all�K.. And Ash has pics of Jen all over her dorm, and she asked me to play ��View from Heaven�� in the car the other night. It was a good thing Jamie was driving because I started crying. I mean, it wasn��t the first, or last, time I��d played the song that weekend, it was just�K. I guess the fact that Ash and I were hanging out again, which Jen would LOVE to know, and she wasn��t there. She should have been there�K�K She should have been sitting in the backseat between Ash and Tor and singing with her beautiful voice to all the songs. I shouldn��t have HAD to play that song, I guess that��s really what got to me. The fact that I shouldn��t have had to play it. The fact that that song meant near nothing to me this time last year. But suddenly, it means everything. Since the day I found out, I haven��t been able to hear it without a flood of memories, and usually a flood of tears�K�K�K�K�K�K
I have to stop before I start crying again. I have Bio reading to do�K I have to go�K
~Wolfie~
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