View From Heaven
By: Yellowcard
I'm just so tired
Wont you sing me to sleep
And fly through my dreams
So I can hitch a ride with you tonight
And get away from this place
Have a new name and face
I just ain't the same without you in my life
Late night drives, all alone in my car
I can't help but start
Singing lines from all our favorite songs
And melodies in the air
Singin' life just ain't fair
Sometimes I still just can't believe you're gone
And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven,
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
Down here
I feel your fire,
When it's cold in my heart
And things sorta start
Remindin' me of my last night with you
I only need one more day
Just one more chance to say
I wish that I had gone up with you, too
And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
Down here
You wont be comin' back
And I didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish I got to say goodbye
And I'm sure the view from Heaven
Beats the hell out of mine here
And if we all believe in Heaven
Maybe we'll make it through one more year
I hope that all is well in Heaven
Cause its all shot to Hell down here
I hope that I find you in Heaven
Cause I'm so...
Lost without you down here
You wont be coming back
And I didn't get to say goodbye
I really wish I got to say goodbye
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Jen and I have been friends for around 12 years. Even though we began to drift apart these past few years, we were still best friends and always tried to keep in touch. I lives became so busy. It's hard to accept the fact that she's gone. We had so many plans. She is the godmother of my son. I went to her funeral, and saw so many people that have known her for just over a year or so, and how much they cried for her. Even though they barely knew her, she touched their lives somehow. Jen was always there for me, and always tried to please me. I loved her so much. You didn't have to know her long, everyone loved her.
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Jen, I dont know what to say. Its taken me over a week
to figure out what to write to you. You have my
letter. It will always be with you. I hope you hear me
when I talk to you.I try to every day. I used to talk
to god. But now i talk to you. Christmas wasnt the
same. I tried to have fun, but something was just
missing. And I know what that was. It was you. I know
we wouldnt have been together anyways. But thinking
about how you wernt going to have the christmas you
wanted...and how Rob was alone. I know you were with
him. I just hope he knows that. I love you Jen. I cant
write it enough, because I know that now I cant say it
to you. Id gove anything just to be able to tell you
that I love you, just one more time. I'll talk to
you....and I'll come to see you often. I love you.
~*~*~*Ashley Carver*~*~*~ |
In A Second
In a second�
Everything can be taken away
In a second�
You can end your last day
In this second now
Remember who we miss
In this second now
Think of this
Don't forget the friends you have
Because in this life nothing's permanent
Cherish what you can for now
Don't put them on a shelf as a long-forgotten sentiment
Always hold to those you love
Make sure your last words are those of care
Because in a second
They might no longer be there
Remember in this second now
The love and laughter that she had
You can cry for the moment now
But don't always be sad
So always remember her
Never forget
In this second now
Live and don't regret
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Jen...
Wow...I can't believe you're gone...it's like just yesterday you were running up to me and Gabby yelling, "It's hump day! Can I hump you???" I don't even feel like I have the right to grieve for you...it seems like I didn't know you well enough or long enough for this to effect me...but it still does. I look back and realize what an awesome person you were...I really regret not getting to know you better. I can still remember you telling me about how you lost your virginity...heh, my first sex talk ;) I wish I could have known you better. And I wish I knew why you had to be gone. But I may never get those answers. All I can say for now is, "See you soon." Love you Jen, Keely |
Kind friends and companions, come join me in rhyme
Come lift up your voices in chorus with mine
Let us drink and be merry, all grief to refrain
For we may and might never all meet here again
Here's a health to the company and one to my lass
Let us drink and be merry all out of one glass
Let us drink and be merry, all grief to refrain
For we may and might never all meet here again
Here's a health to the dear lass that I love so well
Her style and her beauty, sure none can excel
There's a smile upon her countenance as she sits on my knee
Sure there's no one in in this wide world as happy as we
Our ship lies at harbor, she's ready to dock
I hope she's safe landed without any shock
If ever we should meet again by land or by sea
I will always remember your kindness to me
-Mason
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*sigh* ...christ. Jen, the last 4 years I knew you have got to be the funniest years of my life. I remember when you used to wear your favorite pants with the legs so wide you were able to fit me in one. And you did. There aren't enough words in the English language to express how much we will all miss you. It just bugs me that the last thing I said to you was "Go on. Get outta here. Good riddance." I could tell you knew I was joking with you when you were skipping away and how we smiled to each other for the last time... but still. I will miss you, Jen. You were a great friend. Rest in peace.
-Thomas "T-Bow" Bowen |
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It is so hard to imagine this life without you jen. We were best friends when i was there and i regret drifting away after i left. There is nothin i can do now to fix that. You one and i've lost the chance to speak to you and hug you and tell you I loved you.
You were my best friend, my sister and so much a part of everyone's life. You made us smile when we were sad and you were always smiling. I could never really say how much you meant to me. You were my angel in life and now you are my angel in whatever afterlife there is. I can not say i believe in heaven now. There is no god that can do this to someone like you. I can only scream and cry and yell at this injustice to you. On my way home i thought of you in silence thinking of all the things i can do that you'll never get to. Ever movement and thought i had made me cry more. Made me hate myself for what i could do with the rest of my life that you should be able to. You never will get to live the life you were destined for. I'll miss you always. The only way I can think of so many ways to remember you but memories fade. I don't want to ever forget you. I loved you jen. I will always miss you. You life affect so many others. You could see that from where ever you are by how many people your death affected. Your funeral was so beautiful and you always will remain beautiful to me. I just can't believe that your gone no matter how many times i tell myself this fact. IT'S NOT FAIR. i asked whatever god goddess or deity to take me instead so many times. You deserve to live more than i ever did. You deserve to live, because your life was such a beacon to others. Forever i will love you. Forever yours, Tonya |
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Even though Jen and I lost touch over a while, I thought about her from time to time, this is indeed tragic news. My condolences and my heart go out to all of her family and friends. My favorite memory of Jen was talking on the phone with her for hours, she was so funny and so sweet. I will miss her very much. Rest in peace dear Jen, wherever you are.
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell, blue skies from pain. Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail? A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell? And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts? Hot ashes for trees? Hot air for a cool breeze? Cold comfort for change? And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage? How I wish, how I wish you were here. We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year, Running over the same old ground. What have you found? The same old fears. Wish you were here. Robert |
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Jen... I am so sorry we drifted apart. After I quit school, I lost touch with so many dear friends. I told myself it didn't matter. Now... I wish I knew what to think. I always considered you a friend. You were there for everyone, always light hearted, all smiles. I remember coming in to school when we had classes together. I'd be feeling awful, obsessing over some stupid little thing, and you'd make a joke, or tell me everything would be okay, and my stupid little drama didn't seem so bad. You helped me and were there for me in so many ways. And I know you did the same for so many others. You will be missed. I am so sorry that I wasn't at your funeral. I would have been, had I known. I was in Illinois at the time. I found out what happened when I got home via a message on the answering machine. I feel so bad that I couldn't be there, that I couldn't say good bye. I miss you and I love you. Rest in peace, dear friend.
Cat |
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Jen,
Its hard to believe that you're no longer with us.Its surreal to think that my last conversation with you was right before the accident. We were talking about christmas and how excited you were. If I had only knew that this was going to happen I wouldnt have let you leave so soon. If I had made you stay a little more maybe this wouldn't have happened to you. I had just gotten back to work when I heard. I ran back to be with you but I couldnt get through. I MISS YOU JEN!!!! I'll miss your smile, your laugh. I'm sorry I didnt make it to your viewing..I couldn't bear to see you like that. Its too final for me. I remember the first time we met..the 8th grade trip to see that holocaust play. That seems like it was an eternity ago. ITS NOT FAIR JEN!! I should have stayed and talked.I'm sorry Jen... You'll ALWAYS and FOREVER be in my heart!! I love you Jen -Britt |
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Jen,
God..... I wish I knew what to say, but I just don't. I promise I'll do something more than this in remembrance of you. Something permanent. I'm not sure what yet but I will. Everyone says you're in a better place. I wish I could believe that. But you know me, I'm always worrying about everything. Like, for the past few days I've been racking my brain to remember whether or not you were a Christian. And it seriously worries me that I can't remember. But I know I have to stop worrying about that.... Much as it is killing me wondering. Cause even if you weren't, there's nothing that can be done about it now. What's done is done......Like everyone keeps saying, I have to move on..... But it's so HARD. I don't want to move on. Not when I know that you can't. Not when i know that you'll never move on again......ever...... We were out taking family pictures the other day, the day I found out about your death. All I could think about the entire time was that you would never smile again. You'd never be told you look beautiful ever again. You'd never get a chance to graduate, you'd never have kids, or even get the chance to think about having kids. You never even got to have a real Christmas with Rob....And it kills me inside, knowing that everything I still have the luxury of doing, you'll never do again. In a way, it makes me feel guilty as hell for still being alive. And part of me just wants to go outside, look up at the sky and scream "IT'S NOT FAIR!!!" at God. To demand that he send you back right this instant.... But I know I can't...And I know he won't... The logical side of me keeps telling me that, but my heart doesn't want to believe. My heart wants to believe that maybe if I cry enough, maybe if he sees just how much it's hurting all of us, maybe if I beg enough, He'll have mercy on us and send you back..... I know it's selfish, but it's so hard knowing you're not here. And I hate to think that I get to go on living and having fun and doing all the things you'll never get to do again. It just isn't fair. I don't deserve that. You do...but not me..... Wow, this is getting longer than I thought it would.... I didn't think I'd even be able to write anything. I seriously didn't think it would come. I was fully prepared to have the above lyrics be the only contribution to this by me....well....other than the existence of the site, of course...... And now I have run out of things to say.... But I will leave you with this memory. "Ham is NOT supposed to be spongy!!!" I miss you Jen. I will forever cherish Prom and every other memory you and I had. You were the only one that I actually believed when you told me I was beautiful. Mainly cause I knew that you weren't the type to say it if you didn't mean it. And I never could have said "I Love You" enough...in fact, I never did. And I apologize for that.... I really do love you, Jen. We all do. Forever Yours, ~Amanda~ |
