The Good: I began with a good paying job at the warehouse for $8.00 an hour plus benefits. I saved up some money, paid off my bills, stood firm in my faith in God, I learned much about my depressive states, did plenty of traveling, spent time with family, enjoyed many wonderful experiences and kept mentally more positive than previous years.
The Bad: I had a few bad or hard emotional times, missed my friends back home, had some old lingering thoughts of depression, did not attend church or study the Bible regularly, did not come to any definite conclusions on my trip thus far and am still battling with my inequities.
There are of course other factors, but I didn�t want to get too detailed. All in all it was a good year. I faced nearly everything from an adult and mature mindset. The few times I felt my emotions taking over were attended quickly and there were no new hindrances in my life.
Now, for the new year I have some hopes and goals. I hope this will be the year I finally figure out what I will do with my life. I hope to resolve my feelings of displacement towards the world and finally find where I fit in. I hope to discover a field which interests me enough to continue in it. One that captures and holds my interest. I hope to continue to work out and keep my body physically fit, my mind active in understanding the world�s intricacies and my soul attuned to the plans God has for me. In other words, I plan to uphold my commitment to the Truth and hold Truth more important than ever before.
My fears for the new year are as follows: I fear my desires. Getting older concerns me. Will I fall to desire, thinking that if I don�t do anything now, I�ll never do it again? How will I be tested in the year to come? Will my faith be strong enough? Will I continue to wander through this life undecided? Will I gain no real progress or accomplishment? These are the things I hope to avoid. Whatever the case, I will face it and grow. I only hope that Jesus will forgive me for any wrong turns I may make. But this I already know is up to me. He has already made things clear.
~FIN
