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Who am i?
What am i?!
Doing.. here.?!
Vital ;;
name: Natalie.. aka Natz
date of Bith 26.August.1988
age: 16
live: West Wimbledon..London
marital status: Single
height: in between 5'8" and 5'9"
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My Name;;
I love my name! I would prefer to be called Natalia, as its more unique, but Natalie and Natalia are the same name so i could change it if i wanted to. I felt unique until i went to High school where there were 6 Natalie's in the year, one of the most common names in the year actually.. when pronounced properly i like the sound of it too.
my name's meaning;;
NATALIE f
Usage: French, English
Pronounced: nat-a-LEE (French) , NAD-a-lee (American English)
From the Late Latin name Natalia , which meant "Christmas Day" from Latin natale domini .
From the Latin meaning "born on christmas day" She is energetic, pretty, fun to have around and easy to get on with. A relaxing companion
About me;;
I live with my brother and my parents, Barrie and Maggie in a 4 bedroom house (although one is an office) in South West London. I have a 5 year old cat called Belle who is the fluffiest most affectionate cat in the world and I love her to pieces. My mum and dad have been married 25 years this year and had me late in life, mum was 40 when i was born and my dad was 37. Both of my granddads have passed away, one before my brother was born and the other died when i was about 4. My nan lives near us and we see her lots, she's full of energy at 78 and the funniest person you could ever meet. My nonna lives in Bromley, yes Nonna, which means she's Italian. She moved here when she was 22 from Italy after marrying an English man in the army. She's 80 now and still going up to London every other day by bus! She's mental...
I have relations in Italy who i rarely see, some i've never even met before, which is really sad because its a part of me that is empty. Next year hopefully i'm going to meet them all. I haven't been to Italy for 6 years! My aunty lives there with my 6 year old cousin and we see them once a year when they come over to see us, mainly at Christmas.
My cousin Claire who's 27 lives in Italy now and then and my other cousin Adam who's 23 is in India. So you can see my family are spread all across the world!
Future;;
From September onwards i'll be attending college, doing Fashion, Performance studies, Theatre studies and English Lit. I'm really excited about it, but also very very very nervous! It's gonna be a journey indeed!
It was sad saying goodbye to a lot of my friends when we finished school, because i know a lot of them i'll rarely keep in touch with, but i have a lot of great memories with them and photos to cherish forever. I know the important ppl in my life will still be there through it all tho, which includes quite a few of my close friends. I know i'm gonna make lots of new friends in college which is really exciting cos i love meeting new people!
Ambitions;;
I really want to be in musical theatre, if it's not on stage i want to write scripts, songs anything, i wanna direct, produce, make scenary, costumes, the whole thing. I love every aspect of it and with all the choices i've taken for A-level i reckon it'll help me in everything i want to do.
Me inside ;;
I lack self confidence and have low self esteem but a lot of people don't realise it because i can be really loud and can talk to anyone about anything. I can sing but don't have belief in myself to be confident singing in front of people i don't know. I know i'm not the most beautiful person in the world, i have many flaws and i've not got a great figure but i reckon my personality compensates for that. I like to be liked, and i tend to like everyone until they do something annoying..I think i'm mature for my age, and have been told on numerous occassions that i look and act much older. I don't wanna grow up fast or act like an adult but i can't help the way i am, although as any teenager does i have tendances to be childish and be really random. I'm quite random most of the time to be honest, and i like to make people laugh, one of the things people can definitley say about me is that i have a sense of humour...and i agree that i do find myself hilarious, cos i can say the most stupid things.!
Me Mentally ;;
I'm up and down like a yo yo, one minute i'm full of life and really happy, the next i'm depresses about something. It can't be helped and i can't snap out of it, it's just the way i am. I like being me, but dislike myself in many ways, weird that, sort of contradicts myself but its really true. Sometimes i lie away thinking what a mucked up life i have, i have friends, family that love me but there's always something missing. There will always be people who don't like me, guys who just want to be friends and judge purely on looks.. one day i'll wake up in the morning and just be happy.. until then i'll wake up and think "life's ok".. i get disappointed quite easily, i get walked over and i put to much trust in people. I'm always the one who does the running, chasing people, getting people to do things. I need to learn to stop and let other people do the running, cos these legs, and this heart is tired.
Me Physically ;;
I know people say that no one is ever happy with how they look and how they are physically, which is true, there is so much wrong with me its unimaginable for one person to have so many defects, but i live with them. I'm not happy with how much i weigh and my dress size, but i'm determined to go to the gym and make myself happier. I don't wanna be a size 6 or anorexic or anything like that, i just wanna feel comfortable within myself..
Things you didnt know ;;
;; i used to be really slim
;; i fancy someone 17 years older than me
;; i had an accident when i was 7 which damaged my ankles for life
;; i've been dying my hair since i was 10
;; i found out i was chattin to a 37 yr old man online when i was 13 that really really upset me
;; i have anger problems and i sometimes throw things or smash things
;; im always ill
likes;;
My friends, pink, my mummy, fun,laughing, jokes,Pammy my best mate, glitter,randomness, silver jewellery, retro, rainbows, colour, music, paint, creating things, Harry Potter,art, fashion, films, books,texting, talking, flirting,singing, dancing, holidays,my birthday, outings with my mates, chesington, sparlkers, flames,christmas,sleeping, mint, strawberries,snow, fairies, water,Maroon 5, rock music, indie rock, pop,jam, nutella, pineapples,coconut yoghurt, bananas,chocolate,writing,photographs, bubbles, ice cream, melons, boys,men, hair, black, white, the internet, sites, forums, vodka, my home, Corfu, Italy, Italian language, love, meeting new people, making friends on holiday, MSN,other peoples websites, chip butties,Nandos,Animators!! Wimbledon theatre, stage dooring, the JW forum peeps, JW forum groupie gatherings, JW!! Michael Jackson,Centre Court, CDS, gigs
Dislikes
paedophiles, racist ppl, haters of ne kind, discrimination, horrible smells and tastes,fish, fake people, nasty people, plans that fall through, missing people, hating people, the cold, gettin burnt, sadness, death, hate, flying in a plane, custard, nuts, peas, marsipan, spam, losing things, low credit, forgetting where my phone is, not getting texts, no one on msn, dogs, being broke, periods, spiders,sneezing, hiccups, having no phone calls, being dehydrated, lightheadness, people who r slim saying they are fat, two-facedness, 50 cent, droning Hip hop, computer viruses, homework, peanut butter, lies, deceit, sums, algebra,immaturity, childishness, men with only one thing on their mind
Random Facts!
1.i used to have curly hair
2.i support Chelse Fc
3.i was born in Kingston Hospital
4.i'm scared of having children
5.i've had 3 cats, 2 guinea pigs and 1 hamster
6.i always wanted my tongue, eyebrow and labret pierced
7.i hate fish
8.i have posters of will young on my wall
9.i have more jewellery than all my friends put together
10.i have a huge coca cola tin as my CD player
11.my mum's uncle was a tennor (singer)
12.i hate cartoons
13.i have so many empty cd covers and can never find my cds
14.i have problems with my ankles so i can't wear heals
15.i actually loved school
16.i used to have one of my teachers phone numbers
17.i hate long nails
18.i can't stand sunbathing
19.i get too many headaches
20.i'm terrified of death
21.i love the internet
22.i pray
23.i used to smoke when i was 9
24.i don't like short skirts
25.i don't wear thongs!*ukk*
26.i say dude quite a lot
27.i prefer hugs to kisses
28.i used to think there was a dragon in my tree when i was little
29.i used to collect catapillars
30.all my pets apart from one cat is burried at the end of my garden
31.my first cat was called Muppet
32.i loved Button Moon, Shoe People, Thundercats and Cities of Gold when i was little
33.i always get burnt on holiday
34.i miss people too much
35.i cry everytime i think that my nan and nonna will die one day
36.i love Hugh Grant
37.i have a dog called Looey (not real.. a teddy) that i take whenever i sleep at someones house or on holiday, i've had it years
38.i always wake up at 7 on xmas day and try and get everyone up
39.i prefer retro jewellery to bling bling
40.i prefer baths to showers
41.i can fall in love really quickly
42.a girl i met on holiday is one of my closest friends..Emily x x
43.i hardly ever eat chocolate
44.i hate people who kiss ass
45.i burp, and my dad gets annoyed cos its "unladylike" ohhh sorry!!
46.i hate men with long nails! ERGH
47.i hate feet
48.i fancy too many people i shouldn't
49.i love gettin texts
50.i love people!
...:Songs that mean something to me:...
I'm turning my back on this life for as long as I can,
Someone make me star 'cause I sure as hell can't be a man,
I'm too fragile and clever you know
And this universe just leaves me cold
I'm just hanging around here, I'm longing for someone to hold
You always knew didn't you Mother
You always knew as mothers always do
You always knew didn't you Mother
I was a stranger in this world
This dumb education was never quite part of my plan
So you left me to ruin but I'll always know who I am
I'm too fragile and clever you see
And your universe just leaves me cold
I'm just hanging around here, I'm longing for someone to hold
You always knew didn't you Mother
You always knew as mothers always do
You always knew didn't you Mother
I was a stranger in this world
Whoever told you that these were the days of our lives?
The sweet boys they crumble, and the wicked ones rise and survive
And they're running our lives, yes they're running our lives
You always knew didn't you Mother
You always knew as mothers always do
You always knew didn't you Mother,
I was a stranger in this world
On a clear day, I can see myself for miles
Oh Mother, oh Mother
On a clear day
Oh Mother, Oh Mother, Oh Mother...
Hate the way you look at me
Like you can tell so much about my life
My life
Assassinate so carelessly
So assured how sweet you twist the knife
Don't you know I'm just a lot like you
I need all the Godly things that you do
When you're alone, at night, do you run and hide?
Are you strong, inside, are you full of pride?
Or just petrified
Hate the way you look at me
But I can see the terror in your eyes
Your eyes
You pull the trigger
Your smile is sweet
But I don't care if we never meet
That's fine
It's alright
Don't you know I'm just a lot like you
I need all the Godly things that you do
When you're alone, at night, do you run and hide?
Are you strong, inside, are you full of pride?
Or just petrified
When you're alone, at night, do you run and hide?
Are you strong, inside, are you full of pride?
Or just petrified
Take a look at your life
Take a look in my eyes
Take a look at your life
Take a look in my eyes
Take a look at your life
Are you petrified...