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Well, where do I begin? I'm a 27 year old (almost 28) 'gurl'. I really don't think of myself as a 'woman' yet. I still feel much like a little kid. Maybe that's good. Why should I feel like an adult? Who wants all that stress. I basically live on my own, although my boyfriend tries to be here as much as possible. I'm assuming he comes over to hang with me. He still lives at (a much crowded) home. He's also 'younger' than me. I put that in quotations, because although he is younger in years, he's definitely the mature one. I just moved out last Oct (2000), into my very own, first apartment, a good and bad decision. Bad because I really can't afford it and I think I did it for the wrong reasons. I can be very implusive and capricious. Good because I'm on my own(?)
(I'm still deciding.) Once I moved out, my 'real' life was supposed to begin. You know, real freedom, sparks creativity, begats productivity and all that sort of stuff. Hasn't really happened yet. I've done some stuff. Painted a lot.. made a cushion, seat covers, but I haven't been creating on a regular basis. I'm in the process of 'finding' myself. Ya, I'm lost. have no idea what I want to do with my life. I should tell you, I'm a graduate of Fashion design and production. That means I can sew! (among many other things to do with the production & design of clothing). I could be a fashion designer or some such thing, if I wanted. if only I knew what I wanted. I don't really consider my self a designer and don't know if I want to have my own business, designing. It's funny, once you finish school, is when you realise, what your field is really like. You go in first with dreams of being the next big (insert name of big time fashion designer), so and so. But It's not until your final year rolls around and you're looking for a job, that you realise it's not gonna happen. At least not that easily. or the most part, if your lucky enough to find a place that will hire you(being that although you just went through 3 years of intense fashion design studies - you have no 'real' experience, and therefore can't get a job), the job you'll be doing is not exactly what you imagined. It generally turns out to be the boring office side of fashion. Enough of my ranting. I'm not bitter, really. I like other things too like web page design, reading, inline skating, music. I'm the middle girl and a pieces. I think I'm very much like my sign; creative, moody, sensitive. I don't have tons of friends and I wouldn't exactly say I'm outgoing. I like hanging out with friends, but I also like to be alone. I love my boyfriend and plan on marrying him. He's definitely one good thing I have. He accepts me as is, no strings attached. Plans for the future? Just to figure out where I'm headed and make it there. Have a nice home and family and career that I adore. A joy filled life. Hopefully I'll get there without too many bumps. email: [email protected] |
journal (or am i supposed to call it a blog? weblog?) what if? (no comment neccessary) quiz a questionnaire i filled out from 'O' magazine the girl something i wrote, in my sleep |
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