THE NEW DAY
The rain falls through the gleaming lights
Streaming down your face and through your ears
It is one of those feelings
You have neglected to feel in years
Open your eyes
taste the rain
Let this sensation flow through your brain
Maybe this isn't so bad
Maybe you don't hate everything
Realization, epiphany
Something is out there
Maybe it is not so far away
Maybe it is right here
Caring comes from within
And only then can life begin
This moment slices through all of those years
Fogged with the most impermeable haze
It seemed desperately inescapable
and all it took was this one moment to obliterate
Everything covered in staid greys
Everything has cut back and the sky has begun to clear
Stand back, beside yourself
In awe at this stunning view
Leave, amazed, and start again...anew
Fix you
You're the most important thing in the world to me...
Can you please let me help you see
Let me fix you.
I will show you a world where people care
Let's tear down these walls
I know that they are there
Let me fix you
Inside you there is all this anger and pain
I will take it all away for you
I'll get you in from the darkness and the rain
I will fix you.
When I see you smile
I realize too everything will be okay
You make it all seem worthwhile
I fixed you and you fixed me too.
Unraveling
I
am moving in backwards motions
trying to go forward, but I lack the proper notions
Realizing my own naivety
and crashing face first into reality
I am a victim of my own mediocrity
basically acting on hypocrisy
as I shade my views from the world
I am and individual left unheard
Falling victim to our stupid capitalistic democracy
That merely begs conformity
I can only watch myself digress
as the universe robs me of what I do best
People are stupid, yet they are smarter than me
Once I opened my eyes, and someone poked them out
Now I cannot see
A shining star snubbed out
I am past my prime
I think I will skip the rest of this one out
The gig is up the show is over
I am just a poser falling back further into this hole
and I fear there is only one way to go.
I hate this conformity
Without you
Drinking to soothe unending nerves
this is more than even I deserve
I try my best to quell all of my fears
We all know that the end is near
I am a much worse person without you here
Sometimes I wish I would've run away
Sometimes I wish I didn't know you this way
When it ends I will be the one made to pay
Yet I would decapitate myself to keep it the same
and I would shoot myself to inspire change
I'll just lose myself in my own brain
I know it won't be long before I never hear your name
This will come back and kick me in the ass
I am always stuck looking at the past
Because good things aren't supposed to last
I am just delving deeper
Into the times without you here
They seem darker when they now appear
I have lost myself in my own brain
Away I go
I drift into the unknown
closer to an empty room and closed door
As I sprawl my lonely brains across the floor
Re out casted...my oddities just outlasted
the one good thing that happened to me.
Like sand through the hour-glass
Wake up go to sleep
the insane schedule I keep
Days blur through each other
like a horrible watercolor
I go to sleep it's Monday
I wake up it's Friday
Another week goes by
Nothing makes today more special
than days blurred before
Yet I never change and
the cycle continues on forever more
Today? Yesterday? One week? A Year?
I can't say I know, I fear.
Everyday when I awake
Is when I know it's not fake
My life is counting down to an end
and all I can do is wake again.
Self-Contained Underwater Breathing Apparatus
I am alone
20,000 leagues under the sea
here to set you free
With an idea in my head
lest my boots are filled with lead
I try to tell you my plan
The resounding joy of my strategy echoes within my armor
and travels no farther
Foiled by the one thing that keeps me alive
I feel hopeless in completing my mission
But still I strive
Against the odds: you say it can't be done
But when it's over this battle I will have won
Faker
Surrounded by fakers who keep it all inside
the world is a big lie
whose fallacies are easy to hide
Put it back deep away
stomp out the emotions
never again to see the light of day
I too am just a big faker
A liar, a cheat, a fallacy
living out someone else's dream world reality
I am not who you think I am
But its okay neither are you
the only thing is you don't see what is true
The world is hardening into cold steel
losing all capabilities to show
that we know how to feel
We are stolid in the heart
and our minds go black,
because truth is what we lack.
Adage
A
cold winters day and feeling rather empty
I find my mind wandering
Walking to find what’s missing
Answers to all the questions my mind's pondering
All of the people everywhere
Moving in their own ways
Everyone is happy with not one care
For me it is just one of those days
I stumble past and old man in a hidden passage
I focus my energy as curiosity engulfs me
I have for you a timeless adage
the man says to me
I see you dragging your brain
you look as though you are lost
here is something to make you sane
Live everyday as if it were your last.
Empty
Everyday I look for something I can not find
A purpose for my existence
I am lost in my own mind
Crushed constantly by a world that refuses to feel
I don't know how to reach out
and help me heal
A tired heart sustained by a brittle shell
Inside I am empty
Get me out of this hell.
HELP!
Do you see something in me
Something I can not see
Some interstellar plan
to make me look better than I am
Something that is lost in oblivion
That I cant get back again
Can you change my perception
And stop this maddening deception
Please help me
Let me see
To: The High School Tragedy
Screaming at an endless nights sky
watching silently as all of the space junk floats by
Paging UFO'S to take you home
you never felt so alone
Angry at objects you never thought existed
but they are slacking on the job because all of this pain has persisted
Seeing things lost to the untrained mind
never expecting there would be much else to find
too much on earth laid to waste
there isn't much hope left in this place
Screaming at an endless nights sky
hoping to die, to never again ask why
tireless fronts put up again to try and stop more thoughts from flooding in
A high school tragedy
Killed by intergalactic curiosity
A high school tragedy
that no one can relate too
A high school tragedy
Never understood
End
You went along and ended it all
The pain of the enigma was to great to bear
Always asking, but never knowing when you would fall,
even though it felt like you were never let up at all
You felt like a lone traveler walking through one way halls
Unfortunately without all of the safety of padded walls
The shocking coldness of hallow corridors
Filled to capacity with closing doors; opportunity has shunned you.
What did it matter
you always deemed it rather funny that the entire world was based solely on
money
As you had often seen
the world circulated around its own greed.
You never wanted to be like them
But in the end it seemed the only way to spite them
you went and joined the trend
Always knowing how it would end
and when
Now your own greed has turned into oblivion.
You had to go and end it all