Leave Me Alone

Leave me alone

stop staring at me

I feel like a stranger in my own home

Just leave me alone

I want to go away

When will the endless questions cease

I can't take this another day

I just want to go away

You’re just playing this out

Making it your own little game

Like this is one big joke

Obviously I have done well to hide the pain

I want you to stop

To leave me alone

This was so much better

When I just suffered here

on my own.

Don't Forget

Don’t forget what it is like to be alive

Take in the sights

Watch the sunrise, the sunsets, and the night skies

Feel the subtle heat from the sun on your skin

Walk down the road, silent and by yourself

And feel yourself start to grin.

Find a friend and hold on to them

And don’t let them go

Instead, hold on again.

When you think you are about to die

Please my friend,

Don’t forget what it’s like to be alive.

It does not grow

These words I speak

The bitter words I let flow

I bring forth what I know

These humbled emotions are making me weak

Oh, my heart it does not grow.

Shadows of what knowledge beheld

The deepest meaning, so far below

I would give anything to venture, to go

To be close, near again

But oh, my heart it does not grow.

Love, Love Have I lost?

I wish I could feel, I wish I knew how.

The great expanses of what I don’t know.

To gain emotion, what does it cost?

But my heart…it does not grow.

Safe Harbors.

The raging sea, she brought me in

Took me in and held me there

And stopped the storms from crashing in

Protected me and kept me safe within

The waves came with such a blinding fury

I didn’t think that I could possibly find what was needed to survive

I had never seen a night so dark and dreary

I had never seen a storm such like this one that wanted to kill so clearly

The clouds rolled through and tried to kill this dream

They stormed down with all they had

And maybe I though they won or so I made it seem

But somehow I would find all I would ever need

Never did I want to die as much as I did there

But this harbor meant something

I had to fight, now I had to care

I found it for some reason, for some reason it was there

The ocean rippled and reflected the lightening glare

As the storm blew by

And my heart became a vessel strong and fair

And all because of the ocean, and the harbor there

The Fallen

It is a fall from grace my dear, dear friends

I’ve stared it in the face long enough

And frightfully so this is where it ends

I’ve fallen so far away

I’ve fallen so far

I’ve fallen so

I’ve fallen

…

Found

Trekking vast and desolate lands

empty and void of thought

just like the heavy air that seizes this moment

Searching for so long

Culminating in an unscripted ending that just

Couldn't have been planned.

What could be done if suddenly everything was found?

It would be the most glorious day

Silent victory parades could pass through my brain

As I revel in the worthiness of my cause

and think how I tirelessly battled without refrain

When I sit in a happiness that is unbound.

Now worlds have melted and disappeared before my eyes since time began

Filtering through my wanting fingers like grains of sand

I tremble violently as my mind grasps

like my hands at things I no longer possess.

I look at worn and tired hands, mirrors of the heart

and wonder how long it will be before all is found again.