Well, I took 2 of those damn pills last night like a good little girl... and took the other 2 tonight... :\ I wasn't going to at first, they just didn't look right... Anyways, Chris convinced me to take them ... how I'm still not too sure, but he did... So if I die tomorrow I want you all to give my doctor a good kick in the snatch for me... lol The squirls got me again today... *snort* poor Brad... he actually took me seriously... No one should ever ... EVER take me seriously... Ummmm... tomorrow is Halloween... but you all know that... CJ gave me a great idea for a costume... I'm gunna wear a sheet over my head... and be.......... Well, you'll have to figure that part out on your own! =D


Thought of toasters... 10/30/2001, 10:42pm.


October 29, 2001

Little red pills... 4 of them... I still don't know what they're for... My doctor called my mom last night and told her to get them for me... I'm scared... I hate pills and I hate doctors... I keep getting these damn blood tests and I still don't know what's wrong with me. I thought I was healthy... I feel healthy, yet the doctors keep taking my blood and giving me pills and not answering my damn questions... Everything is so secretive... My pills, they're in a little tiny ziplock bag... They look like illegal drugs, not something out of a pharmacy... Stupid doctors... stupid body... Anyhoo... I'm still working on that layout, I think it's comming along pretty good, but we all know about my html skills, it's still going to be basic and boring, but different enough to keep my satisfied... Theresa found a place for me to try for hosting, so I'll check that out later... Last night I went to Travis's... we hung around there for awhile and then went out to buy cigaretts... (no, I don't smoke) ...After that we wandered the docks for a bit and then headed up to Julian's... Nothing much happened... but more than the usual Sunday night.


Thought of toasters... 10/29/2001, 7:51pm.


October 28, 2001

Wowee... It's been awhile since I've updated... Oh well, no big loss to you people ;) The last few days have been mildly entertaining... A lot has happened, but nothing has at the same time... I've been so out of it the past week, I don't even realise what's been going on... If anything even has been... I've been trying to spend as much time away from home as possible... I just don't really like it here anymore... My mom is too over protective though so I'm still stuck here most of the time... Doesn't matter though, it's not like she's around... I just hide out in my room blasting music...

Wow, that was pointless... oh well... I updated... so... hah...


Thought of toasters... 10/28/2001, 2:13am.


October 23, 2001

Well I'm home sick today... What a surprise =P I feel like complete shit... I'm surprised I even made it to the computer... I slept until around 2:30 when something walked by the house causing all 3 dogs to bark and howl until I got up and tried to yell at them :\ Urgh... Sometimes I just want to skin them alive. I would talk about what happened yesterday, but nothing did... So instead I'll mention again that I'm making a new layout, I just suck at html so it's taking longer than it should... I'm also thinking about trying to get hosted... but I dunno ... I don't really *need* it...


Thought of toasters... 10/23/2001, 3:02pm.


October 21, 2001

Mmmmmmmmmm..... Looky here *no, HERE* ... Theresa found this GREAT site... and it's my newest obession... We're going to go stalk them... lol Go take a look and see why ... And for you guys reading this, don't bother because you won't understand ;)


Thought of toasters... 10/21/2001, 9:56pm.


October 20, 2001

The show last night was pretty good... Definatly been to better ones in the past... The new band Wake Forest were not that great I left for most of their set and ran around the parkade with Ashley, Travis and Peter .... Wow we sure know how to have fun! =P 96 Rats (Sean, Ryan, Peter and Taira's band) was pretty good... I've heard them play way better though. Sean got pretty pissed off on the last song and kicked the shit out of his guitar... After the show I went to gabe with Travis... We got to Neil's place and they (I can't list everyone ... too many people... let's just say 12 guys and me) were all burnt out watching some German anal cat porn so after watching that for about 5 minutes me, Travis and Trevor left again and went out to the store to burn things . . . We grabbed all the news papers and started a huge fire on Twin Beaches... We got bored of that pretty fast and went back up to Neil's and watched scary adult cartoons until around 6am when we just all shut up and finally went to sleep... I pretty much woke up and then left to catch the ferry with Lane and Travis .... I think they sunk that diving ship today but I didn't go see cause I'm lazy and I went home and slept instead...

Made a splash page ... it's really boring ... and yesterday after I got that pic all loaded up I saw that the exact same one was on some girl's page that was featured on Reality Check ... Oh well ... I DIDN'T STEAL IT ... ;) So yeah ... just take off the 'jesse.html' and you will see it ... WOW


Thought of toasters... 10/20/2001, 5:12pm.


October 18, 2001

Urgh, I hate walking down Warring road... Okay, so last night I go over to Fumiko's right? And of course my bike is STILL there so I have to walk... I have two options for getting there... One way has the crazy evil psychotic man who wants to kill me... and the other has this fucking HUGE dog that has an anger problem. So... not feeling like being shot at I take the back way with the dog (aka Warring road). So I walk down the main part of it which is mostly just forest ... and I'm humming some annoying tune and just well being myself... So I get to the end of the road where is drops into a small hill... so I slide down it cause it's all slippery from the swamp and I'm making this weird scratching noise on the cement by doing that... so of course, the damn dog comes out... I've tried the whole "bad dog...stay...nooo.." thing before in past encounters and that doesn't work, so I approach this huge dog that snarling at me by saying "Come here, here boy... awww wook and the widdle puppy" in one of those annoying sappy voices and the dog drops its ears and just starts wagging its tail... So I stick my hand out for him to sniff it and he bares his teeth and starts growling and coming towards me again... So I start backing up and it follows so I turn and just bolt (Wow, I'm smart) so within seconds this dog is on my tail and I'm running as fast as I can down Greenwell (by April's house) with this fucking dog after me... So I finally make it to Main (Miko's road) and I slide down her drive way and turn around and see the dog standing there... sooooo me being my idiot self points and laughs at the dog and says "Ha ha you can't come get me now" and it starts comming down the drive way... Ugh... so I bolt into Fumiko's house and fall through the door just escaping this damn dog... So yeah that was my thrill of the night... lol Uhhh today not too much happened... at lunch I went down to the Tempo with Brad and Travis ... Brad and Jamie broke up this morning so he was in the weird destructive mood ... It was fun ... lol Last block was a bit... dunno not really upsetting just...disturbing... We were talking about grievances ... Like deaths ... urgh ... After school I went to Travis's ... and yeah ... I guess that's pretty much it... After my mom goes to bed I'm going to *try* and go out to hang with Jason ... He's in Ladysmith right now so he's just gunna pick me up on his way home at like 11 or something and then go hang in town... =P I hate living so far away from everyone.....


Thought of toasters... 10/18/2001, 6:53pm.


October 17, 2001

Today... uhhhh... yeah ... I woke up at like 8:30 and only had enough time to stick my head in the sink and wet my hair and then throw on the first thing I could find... So I got to feel all gross today for not showering and run around school in my PJ's. =D There was a stupid grade 8 social (dance) today ... Pffft I never got one when *I* was in grade 8, yet I had to run around all day helping set one up for this year's bundle ;) Tomorrow I'm hoping to spend the night at Amanda's with Fumiko, although she doesn't know this yet... haha I just figure I haven't hung out with her lately so I'll just ruin their plans by dropping in... ;) Friday there's no school so I'll probably just spend the day at Travis's and then go to the show... then spend the night at Neils on gabe...


Thought of toasters... 10/17/2001, 9:24pm.


October 15, 2001

Ohhh ohhh something I wanted to add was how much I want to stab Mr Hameister and watch him slowly bleed to death... heh heh heh ... Today within the first 5 minutes of class he was already making one of his speeches about how over 10 people in the class are failing (Look, if that many people are failing it has to have something to do with the way you are teaching, not that we're all stupid fuckers) and he said "Pretty soon I'm just going to stop caring and just let you all fail" and so me being my cheeky self said "Thanks!" so he simply says OUT and points to the door... So I wander my way out of the class looking at the ground trying my hardest not to laugh... I sit my ass down in the hall and wait... I waited for over an hour... (People came by and I chatted with them but I dunno, it still sucked) ... So he finally comes out... First thing he says to me (besides get up which he always says cause I'm sprawed across the hall) is "Have you thought about what you've done?" I just looked at him... What am I? 5? Yes, my quiet time in the courner is done now, may I go back to play time? Geeez... So I say yes and lean back on the lockers and he asks me what I did... "I said thanks" so then he makes me list almost everything I've ever done to 'upset' him... and I finish off with "..basically anything you think is wrong or horrible I've done it" and he laughs and walks back into the class... ARGH that pissed me off... So he comes back out and starts going off about my grades... "You're work is not up to standard." "Well every time I actually do my work I don't get anything back for it... I don't get a 'good effort' or a 'nice try' I get 'not good enough' 'not up to standard' and then my marks don't even change. So why should I even bother?" Then he got really mad and gave me another lecture on attitude and how being kicked out is not the cool thing to do... I don't get kicked out because I'm trying to be cool! FUCK he kicks me out cause he has a problem with everything I do... Alrighty, I'm done my ranting about him for now... =P


Thought of toasters... 10/15/2001, 9:39pm.


October 15, 2001

Hahaha okay, I have to start this off by telling YA'LL about what I saw today... hahaha I left near the end of my science class and was walking around the halls with Mike and we hear the most annoying twinky laughter "TEE-HEE-HEE *snort* HEE HEE" so we look over and these two girls in ass-tight pants are walking towards the stairs and all of the sudden one of them trips and falls down the whole set of stairs! Like she even hit that middle landing... Yet she kept falling... HAHAHAHA I have no idea who it was... and she wasn't hurt so don't get all bitchy at me for making fun of her... LOL If you were there you would have laughed too... Anyhoo that kept me entertained for a long time... *snort* just like that pig tail thing in the guys washroom... Peter and Travis actually dragged me into the guys washroom to look in the urinal... haha I went to the School Olympics today... it was pretty pathetic and really loud and annoying... heh Uhhh... After school I went down town ... I got this cd called "At War With Society" ... It's so good... I keep listening to 'Die For The Government' by Anti-Flag over and over..........


Thought of toasters... 10/15/2001, 5:47pm.


October 14, 2001

I love this movie... *grins* it's at the best part too... The parade scene... If you've never seen this movie before (Ferris Bueller's Day Off) there's something wrong with you and you must go see it now! =) So... yeah... Fumiko slept over last night... I survived my little run down to the store... LOL If you could have seen me you would have probably pissed yourself laughing .... thank god it was dark out ... lol, I was running down the hill and then the dogs started up so I stopped and slowly walked but like sliding at the same time... and then I'd run... and I was in the middle of the road looking around all paranoid... Doing the whole mission impossible jog with the music and everything (if you don't know then don't ask) heh I made fun of myself a lot afterwards... I was so freaked that the psycho man was gunna come get me... Damn dogs and their damn barking... Anyhoo, we rented Billy Madison, only to find that the tape was trashed *sniff* and we were both too lazy to go back to the store and deal with Mike (creepy porn man) so we just watched Happy Gilmore instead. This morning ... I ... did nothing... haha oh oh oh I laughed about ugly balls for about an hour (HAHAHA Ugly balls... heh it's still funny) ... Then I went to Travis's, listened to a lot of metal (oh goody) and spent most of the time hiding from the guests... haha Anyways, I should probably head off... I have to get up EARLY tomorrow morning and ... well yeah ...


Thought of toasters... 10/14/2001, 11:50pm.


October 13, 2001

Dammit, the creepy man is going to kill me... lol I left my bike at Fumiko's and I have to meet her at the store in a little while... This means I have to walk... If I make any noise at all (ie. BREATHING) the dog on the corner will bark... and then like a chain reaction they all will... Causing the psycho evil man to come out with his gun and try and kill me... Fuck I hate this neighbourhood... I COULD go the back way, but that would add on 15 minutes and add the risk of this huge dog to come out and chase me all the way to Fumiko's (again...lol)...... Urgh... oh well.... I'll survive I guess (I hope).


Thought of toasters... 10/13/2001, 11:27pm.


October 13, 2001

Fuck ... so there was no show tonight... That's next week's ... I was just being stupid... This weeks got moved to The Cambie, so we couldn't go =P So I ended up just hanging around Travis's 'till around 6 then we ate and walked over to Kyle's... We hung around there for awhile doing ...*stuff*... and then we (Me, Travis, Kyle, CJ, Julien, Mike, Neil and Lane) left and went down to Barsby ... oh yeah Mike and Neil went somewhere else, oh well... Anyways... We hung around the playground and then we met up with these 2 weird grade 9's and they all went on the roof, (me and kyle stayed below) scoping out the camera and harassing the security guards... Meh... Not much else happened... Urgh... I need a drink :\


Thought of toasters... 10/13/2001, 1:21am.


October 11, 2001

Whooohooo! Show tomorrow! 7:30 at the NYSA center... $2 to get in... Bands are.... The Crusties, 96 Rats, Wake Forest and The Genius Pool (from Victoria) =)
Alright, enough of that... Urg.. Today was 80's day... I was supposed to dress up cause I helped put it on (Apparently I'm part of the "80's Fashion Police" ...scary) but I just went in my normal punky clothes... and this way April couldn't yell at me (well, she did anyways) about not dressing up becasue Punk is 80's... lol Anyhoo, I got to miss chunks of classes to go around and take pictures of people while Shai and April handed out candy... T'was fun... I also got to yell at people for stealing candy... and smack some grade 8 in the head cause he was being 'cheeky' heh heh
Ummmm... I'm thinking of adding a new section thing, but dunno... it just seems to hard and boring at the moment... So I'll wait it out and add it later...


Thought of toasters... 10/11/2001, 5:05pm.


October 9th, 2001

*snort* I love how I always start these "Well...", "Let's see...", "Well, let's see...", "Okay..." haha always the same... (See, this is my pathetic way of trying to be different) .... Anyhoo, Travis just left and now I am stuck here wondering what to do for the rest of the night... I'm thinking of just getting on my bike and heading off in some random direction and seeing where I end up... but I'm just too god damn lazy... Heh, last night I went to Fumiko's and watched this old horror movie from the 70's or something.... HAHA It was so funny... There was this evil tiki doll thing chasing this girl around with a butcher knife barking and growling like a dog... It was hilarious... Then we (me, her, and her mom) were fighting about when we would have given up on killing the doll and left the house instead... (stupid horror chicks) lol and then on to drugs and stoopid boys .... heh For some reason I was very entertained with everything... But you all know me, I'm just that dumb. ......... Hmmmmmm ....... I apparently had my last talk (if you can even call it that) with Petro last night when I came home. It basically consisted of me saying "Stop whining and get over it" and him saying "Fuck you, you heatless bitch get out of my life" ... *shrugs* that's fine with me. ...One last thing... Lara, if you're reading this... Don't do anything I would do... Just wait it out, you know it will all turn out better in the end.... =)


Thought of toasters... 10/09/2001, 10:46pm.


October 8th, 2001

Well, I'm back... That was the longest 4 days of my life... So many things have changed down there it almost isn't funny... Oh well, it's still my second home, and I miss it already...


Thought of toasters... 10/08/2001, 10:57pm.


October 4th, 2001

Yay, tonight I leave for Olympia! =) I get to miss school tomorrow and there's no school Monday, so my mom FINALLY said we could go... I'm so happy, I didn't get to see any of my friends down there this summer so I get to go for our Thanksgiving, and possibly theirs...! So I guess I'm just posting to say that I won't be around till Monday night so I'll see everyone then (and at school today of course =P) ........


Thought of toasters... 10/04/2001, 7:20am.


October 2nd, 2001

Okay... Time to updaaate... ....Let's start with, I'm through feeling sorry for myself, and I'm DEFINATLY done feeling sorry for Petro. For feeling bad about what I did, fuck that, he doesn't deserve sympathy (I hope your reading this Petro because it might be the only way I can get you to listen). I was feeling depressed, pissed off... I was so mad at myself, I shouldn't be, I like Travis and I have a fucking right to be with him. Yeah, maybe it was a bit soon to start a relationship with him but I'm through with thinking that because I'm actually happy with him. I wasn't happy with Petro .... sure I was at first, it was great (and I don't take the relationship as a joke it did mean something to me) but near the end it was getting rough and I just wasn't happy, so I cut it off. My point is, no matter what people think, I didn't break up with Petro for Travis, and I didn't cheat on Petro either. It just wasn't working for me, end of story... Plus it shouldn't be any of your business, but right now I just don't fucking care and I'm telling you all anyways. Alright, I guess I'm done, because after writing all that I don't even remember what I was going to put before.... =P


Thought of toasters... 10/02/2001, 8:06pm.

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