*kicks, screams, and cries* WARPED TOUR IS ON THE 19TH!!! FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUUUUUUUUCK! I leave for Brazil on the 12th. I'm missing it... I'm fucking missing it again.... it's not fucking fair.... AFI, Rancid and Less Than Jake aren't playing this year, so I'm not as upset as I would be, but NOFX is still playing, so is Anti-Flag. Fuck. My mom said she'll make it up to me by taking me to any concert. But she promised that before. And then said no to AFI in October (I will never let her live that down, missing my favorite band in the whole world because I would have to miss half a day of school.) and then she also said no to Anti-Flag for the same reason. She even fucking said no to Millencolin, they were playing durring spring break in Vancouver, she just said no because she could. Excuse me while I go wallow in self pitty.


Thought of toasters... 03/31/2002, 9:47am.


March 30, 2002

I look like a boy, I look like a boy, yay for me, I'm finally a man! ICK. I don't actually look like one... I just feel like it... I don't think my hair's been this short since my mom made me get a mushroom cut in the second grade. My mom is so weird though, she'll let me dye my hair any colour from blue to orange but she wouldn't let me go black. Too bad she wasn't there to stop me.... heh heh. So me hair is short, spikey, and black with red cunts chunks (wow, I wonder what I'm thinking about...=P). I got my passport photo done today... The lady taking my picture was really bitchy and kept watching the little kid behind her and fucked my pic up 3 times. I'll admit, the kid was cute, but still, it would have taken a total of 5 seconds to take my picture... instead of 10 minutes fidling around with film. Oh well, her problem, not mine. I saw Ice Age again with my mommy today, it's so gosh-darned good hehehe... I made a new layout featuring Scrat, I just haven't done the sub-pages, and I probably won't because I fucked up the image after working on it for an hour. So I've basically given up, like always.


Thought of toasters... 03/30/2002, 6:15pm.


March 29, 2002

Urk, the past few days have been hell. My mom has gone on this crazy cleaning spree and is painting and scrubing and yeah... It's all gone to her head... I was eating in my room and she walked in as soon as I was finished and saw me put my plate on the floor and freaked out and made me take it to the kitchen. People are going to start looking at the house this week so she wants everything perfect. Let's see, I also got kicked out of math, by the principle... The teacher doing it wasn't enough, they had to go all the way. I've never had to see the principle, just the vice's, so yeah, this was big. He started planning what school to send me to... Gave me details, started calling people, I was so sure I was gone... The only reason I'm still at ND is because of Mrs. Jossul (who I really dispise) and Mr. Freeman (the vice who deals with moi)... She convinced him that if I passed all my other classes besides math I should get to stay... and Mr. Freeman saw me crying (hey, if the scary big priniple man was lecturing you, you'd cry too) and said he'd talk to him for me and see if there was some way for me to stay. So, for now at least I'm staying. They won't give me a spare for D block though so I have to sit around the counselling offices for an hour and a half, lucky me. In a week or 2 we start a new term so I can go into cooking or something. Okay, so, Kristen (my sister's life long best friend) just came by to pick up a bunch of her stuff that she left her while she lived in Japan. It was cool to see her again, her and Leslie. Anyways, I was going though a box of my sister's old CD's and I found Siamese Dream! She took all the CD's she really likes with her when she moved out so I'm claiming this one... weeee =) Annnnd Travis gave me Mellon Collie and The Infinite Saddness when he came home... so yay I have music! Ummmm... 3:00 today I'm getting my hair cut and probably dyed black, and tonight hopefully going to Steve's. Alrighty, done for now...


Thought of toasters... 03/29/2002, 1:29pm.


March 25, 2002

Well, the first day of school passed and I'm still in one piece. I think... I feel like school is such a waste of time. I'm kicked out of Math class, and I'm not allowed back this time, so it's a spare for me. Or something along those lines, Mr. Harvey just said something as I was leaving the class about not being welcome there anymore. Yay for me. I've pissed him off to the point where he can't look at me. In PE we're doing basketball. Oi. We're supposed to have our swim unit (there's a pool next to our school, weee) but then the boys class won ... something (I think it was a coin toss) and get to go now, and we have to do 2 weeks of basketball, fun. Oh well, we get Friday and Monday off, I love Easter.


Thought of toasters... 03/25/2002, 7:30pm.


March 24, 2002

Everyone go to riot, why? Because I say so, and on here I like to believe I'm boss. Plus, it's the group blog and it's entertaining, come on... you people don't have REAL lives anyways ;) Don't worry, mine's more pathetic no matter how you look at it.

Heh, so, I just got back from seeing Ice Age. Man, that movie is awesome... I love that squirl thing, he's so funny... and if I didn't love this layout so much I'd make one starring him and that damn acorn he chases around the whole movie.


Thought of toasters... 03/24/2002, 8:44pm.


March 23, 2002

:::::You're the epitome of insane. Either you're very smart, or you're too damn stupid. The world is your playground, and everything -- and everyone -- in it is a toy for you to play with. People should be scared of you, but because you're so affable, they aren't. Tough for them.:::::

I don't want to go to the fight tonight... but I do, I have nothing better to do... I should go... but I don't have $10. Oh well, another night spent at home. I went to the SPCA today to fill in the volenteer application. They've changed the rules around so since I'm under 19 all I'll be able to do is help around the shelter, feeding and grooming pets and stuff like that. Which is generally what I wanted. I'm going to probably start doing that every Tuesday after school. If my cat wasn't such a meany (I can't call my cat names, I love her too much... heh) I'd have adopted this cat I was playing with today. He was all black and sooo friendly, I wanted to take him home with me. Oh and I found Pierces cat... it was exactly like Mr. Binglesworth (sp?) from Austin Powers or the kitty from Cats And Dogs... He was all white and fluffy and had these evil eyes... heh, so Pierce if you still want that cat, there's one there. So I'm going to shut up because I'm sure you really don't care. I'm just really excited.


Thought of toasters... 03/23/2002, 6:13pm.


March 21, 2002

I think my mom might actually let me get my lip pierced... The more I bug her, the more she doesn't say no... lol I was talking to the guy at electric lettuce today (red mohawk, lots of tattoos) and they're doing everything 40% off right now. I'm not sure if I trust them with piercing my face, but they are a lot better than they were last year. So, who knows. Heh, I went bowling today with Pierce and Krista. Chris and Isaac were supposed to come but they missed the ferry or something and ended up staying on Gabe. Oh well. I lost to Pierce by 4 points on the first game and kicked both their asses on the second game with 134. I don't care if it's a shitty score it's the best I've gotten in awhile. Heh. Krista sucked and got like 45 and 70 or something like that.

And now, because I'm that weird, I'm going to show you guys pictures of my new house! I'm not too sure if I even want to move yet, but I'm still excited and yeah, pictures are fun. The outside... see that window at the top? That's my room, it looks pretty small in that pic, but it's actually bigger than the one I'm in now. The kitchen is so cute I had to include a pic even though I'm sure you don't care. Not that you care about it anyways.. Oh oh one more. Theeeee hot tub! It's got it's own room outside which is pretty cool, but my mom might even connect it to the house which would be awesome. Alrighty, done for now. ^_^


Thought of toasters... 03/21/2002, 4:50pm.


March 20, 2002

Yay! A huge thanks to Laney who helped me get an ftp back up.

I'm so confused, my damn tag box is working again... I'm starting to believe it hates me, just like geocities did. Yes, everything is after me. Oh oh Carol introduced me to an awesome new band! They're called Cheapskate and they're punk/ska from England. They have this song called 'I Want To Be Canadian', if you have the means I suggest you download it, it's pretty damn good. Look! It's my new theme song... (not that I had one before..) It's called I'm Just A Kid by Simple Plan.


I woke up it was 7
I waited 'till 11
Just to figure out that no one would call
I think I�ve got a lot of friends
But I don't hear from them
What's another night all alone
When you're spending everyday on you own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that its not fair
Nobody cares
Cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

And maybe when the night is dead
I�ll crawl into my bed
I�m staring at these 4 walls again
I'll try to think about the last time
I had good time
Everyone's got somewhere to go
And they're gonna leave me here on my own
And here it goes

I'm just a kid
And life is a nightmare
I'm just a kid
I know that its not fair
Nobody cares
Cause I'm alone and the world is
Having more fun than me tonight

What the hell is wrong with me?
Don�t fit in with anybody
How did this happen to me?
Wide awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep
And every night is the worst night ever

Tonight I'm all alone tonight
Nobody cares tonight
Cause I�m just a kid tonight

Okee... all done...


Thought of toasters... 03/20/2002, 3:15pm.


March 17, 2002

Fumiko is a dork. Then again, so am I... We find odd odd ways to entertain each other. Now now, there's no need to be dirty. I simply meant watching The Crow isn't enough to keep us busy. Fumiko got this brilliant plan in the middle of it and ran into the bathroom and came back looking like she did in the 8th grade. Yay for her. But of course, she wasn't about to be a freak all alone... So of course I'm all done up too. Confused? Good. Basically we gothes ourselfs out... well not in this picture I'm about to show you, but I do have makeup on so shield your eyes. Click me, click me, yah yah CLICK! Urgh, I was bored, fuck off....

Paul and Scott were supposed to be here like 3 hours ago... Losers. I think they've ditched us and gone to hang out with Yves, lucky them. Oh well, I got to visit Miko's goats today so I'm a happy child. They're so cool, I think I might have to go steal one later... (Yes Travis, there are two goats now.) Oh speaking of Travis... the bastard left for Edmonton today, so he'll be gone all week and I'll be at home being the loser I am. Yippee for me. Alright, I'm bored, I'll ramble tomorrow.


Thought of toasters... 03/17/2002, 10:22pm.


March 16, 2002

I'm a punk/hardcore fangirl I like screaming, I like kicking it up in the mosh pit, and damn do I like spikey hair.

What kind of fangirl are you?

I'm mooooving! =P I don't know whether to be excited or upset... I love my house so much, but I really do want to move into town. The place is on Comox Rd. about 3 doors down from Scott's place. I have to admit, I'm going to miss living here in the boonies, it's my true home. lol I'll always be a bush person..... It's a cool house though, it was built some time before the 1930's so it's got that cool old look to it. I claimed the big room upstairs, it's SO nice... hehe it's got a kinda curved ceiling, wooden flooring, and this cool window. The whole upstairs will pretty much become mine because the other room will be for the computer + a room for my sister when she comes home... It has a sink in it though *shrugs* it works too... just a random sink... Sorry, I'm so easily amused. Moving on....

Last night me and Travis went out to a movie. We were going to go see Ice Age cause we both think that squirl thing is so rad. As soon as we got to the mall (5...30?) Kyle -litterally- ran into us with Brain, Darcy and some girl. They were going to Resident Evil so we just went with them. We all hung around Woodgrove until 7:30 being stupid, because that's what we are... I'm so surprised we didn't get kicked out of the theater, we were being SO loud and obnoxious... Haha near the begining this zombie chick comes out and bites one of the girls so I leaned over and bit Kyle on the sholder while going "raawrg" and he screamed and jumped *grins*. Fun times... We kept yelling about how stupid all the actors were because they'd all wander off alone and then get eaten. I'll stop giving the movie away now... It's pretty good, the end REALLY sucks though, heh, I mean come on, the chick is wearing a table cloth.

My stupid tag box isn't working and it's pissing me off so I think I might go get a new one, if I can. The whole site thing is down, so I can't just fix it... Argh. Hmmmm... apparently Petro's asking some stuff about me... I want to talk to him now, I'm just scared to call cause I'm a baby. *skips off*


Thought of toasters... 03/16/2002, 2:41pm.


March 12, 2002

"Bang bang, you're dead, hole in your head" ... So, I was in full mode of my anti-people mood by the end of the day. I was late for 3rd block (Mack) as always and he locked me out so I was leaning on the wall by the door when these two girls walked by. One of them was this girl Travis is always calling a twink (because she is. She even replied by saying whatever a few times... STOOPID) so I reconised them, and of course they reconised me... As soon as they were about 10 feet away they starting talking about me really loud and then turned around laughing and called me a whore and a bunch of other really harsh shit and then started talking about how I wasn't so bitchy when my boyfriend wasn't around to protect me... I've never said one word to this girl in my life, I've just laughed at her when she gets all offended when Trav bugs her. That's it. So I slid down the wall and sat there feeling like shit for awhile until he finally let me into class. Between blocks I passed her friend and she said 'whore' when she went by... I just ignored her, it's what the main girl said that keeps going through my head... her friend is just backing up whatever she says... I never used to care about shit like this, then again, I never used to cry either. Lately I've become this broken down little girl who takes everything to heart and crys much too often. Anyhoo, moving along... Mr. Harvey called my mom at work today, told her I'm failing his class and blah blah blah. So she called the school and then found out my marks from last semester... Now, you'd think I'd be in knee deep shit right about now eh? Haha guess what! I'm not in any. She talked to me, but when she asked me why I hadn't told her I said it was because I was scared she would yell at me and how I hate it when she yells... so she sat down and talked to me about it. It was awesome, I'm not in trouble AND I didn't get yelled at. I'm so unbelievably lucky.


Thought of toasters... 03/12/2002, 7:30pm.


March 9th, 2002

School got out at 1:25 yesterday, just like it does every Friday. I was there until 3:15. Why? I'm still not too sure... Me and Travis were waiting with Rob until he had to go to his CTC class at 2. I threw my lock at him and it broke so me and Trav share a locker now until I get a new lock. I'm so stupid sometimes :) Around 3 we found Tanacia, she was almost in tears because she had no way home to Cedar... So me and Travis were going to walk her downtown to the bus stop, but instead pointed her in the right direction and went home to get yelled at by his dad. I've decided he's now the scaryest person I've ever met, yes he even beats that guy at the show who tried to kill me. Haha. Uhhhh... did a bunch of shit at Travis's until 9 when we FINALLY left for the show... Arrived durring Nectare and missed the Crusties first set. Over all I think the show was damn good, Trevor finally learned how to make a good one ;) Of course, adding the free bowling thing to the poster got a lot of twinks and preps to come... lol I'm not judging people fuck off... Yeah, sure, some of them are nice, but the majority of the people there that I'm talking about were really annoying... They even had the nerve to complain about the music. Bleh. Mmmm.. I got myself a Desents shirt, they're not that great, but hey, I have one and you don't so =P .... We ened up leaving at 10 after 12, the show wasn't even close to being finished... but my mom was supposed to pick me up at Trav's at 12.... Walking home we seriously thought we were going to get raped. When we got to his place around 20 after I found out my aunt had been there since 11 (Eeeep) and she was pissssed off. So she yelled at me ... and yelled some more... And then couldn't punish me cause she's my aunt... hahaha sucker. So I got off easy... but I'm pretty sure Travis won't be leaving his house for a very long time =( Anyhoo, I think I'm done.... I might be going to VV's later on today... I really want another pair of black pants... But for most of the day I'll be living in my room watching cartoons !


Thought of toasters... 03/09/2002, 12:19pm.


March 7th, 2002

Show tomorrow! YAAAY! The Decents are playing *giggles* I'm still not too sure why I love them so... Travis really likes them too, I'm sure that's how I got into them, but now I just feel like a stalker. Oh well, the lead singer is "quite an attractive man" as someone puts it (why can't I remember who? grr), the bass player is hot (yes, she's a chick....), and the drummer is so cool ... he's the guy who went to the AA place with me that one night. Anyhoo, Shortfall (vic), The Rampant (vic), The Crusties ('we rule all' ... and don't we all LOOOOVE Ken! *hack*), Nectare (pretty local boys), aaaand Steve And The Brews (never heard of them)... So, that's the show, pretty spiffy huh? If you're in the area you'd better come or I'll find something to shove up your ass. It's a $5 show which licks, but it's at the bowling alley and we get free bowling so I'll stop complaining. It snowed today, wow, I'm amazed... not really... I just have nothing to talk about and I'm trying to sound interesting. Yes, by talking about the weather.. ack... I think I'll just go watch Family Guy instead.......


Thought of toasters... 03/07/2002, 8:03pm.


March 5th, 2002

Micheal Jackson, I love you. You're a creepo and you look like a girl, but your voice is wonderful and I just can't get enough of these classics... Lol. I hate my sister... she listened to him and Madona the whole time we were in Portugal together and since then I've grown to love Micheal Jackson and some of Madona... (none of their new stuff, only the best, like Material Girl and Thriller) I of course hate myself for it, hehe it's sick music... but yeah.

First go here... yay for kittens! ...LOL It's hilarious! My hunny bunny Lara [haha sorry, I had to ;)] sent it to me... hehe

I went to school today! Aren't you all proud of me? I almost died, I swear I am dying... Everyone thinks I'm just exagerating but at times I honestly believe I'm about to fall over and never get up. English was actually fun today, we're doing our song lyric projects so we basically listened to music all of class. There were only 2 songs I didn't like, I was so proud... lol Steph played some song about sexy noises and condoms... I kept glancing over at Mr. Zandee and he looked all embarassed, I was laughing hysterically. In the middle of Dave's presentation (Rage Against The Machine, weee) my contact lense fell out and I made a huge scene (by accident) and ran out.... Yay for me. Oh well, it gave me and excuse to wander for a bit. Capp was horrible, the class aspect wasn't bad, I got to do an IQy testy thing that said I was very musical (WOW, I DID NOT KNOW THAT!)... but I was in so much pain I wanted to die. I tried to sleep but the kid in front of me kept slamming his chair back into my desk (I almost killed him).... but Mr. Mack let me leave cause he knew I wasn't feeling well. He's actually nice to me now... it's almost scary. PE was right after that and Mrs. Webb was a bitch about it. Grrr she's mean in such a nice way it makes me feel guilty for being pissed off at her. She's nice, she just really favors people like Bronwen and Cori (who I cannot for the life of me stand) and she gave me a zero and wouldn't excuse me from class even though I had a fucking note. And I swear if it was Bronwen she'd have said something like "Oh hun, I'm sorry you don't feel well, here have some candy" Hah, yes. Anyhoo... I'm bored of this, and I'm sure you are too. So goodnight.


Thought of toasters... 03/05/2002, 7:08pm.


March 3rd, 2002

Does anyone have a gun handy? I really need to be shot so I can go to the hospital so they can put me on morphine.... My body hurts so much it really isn't fucking funny anymore... I was laughing at myself yesterday when I almost passed out while doing up my jacket. But then I realised it KILLED to laugh so yeah.... I didn't go to that course (after I had convinced myself it would be cool to go) and I ended up not leaving my bed all day. I watched a bunch of movies and tried to sleep and, well, my day sucked. And today is going to be worse... Well, maybe not, I did make it to the computer ;) but I'm not sure how much longer I can take sitting up... my fingers hurt... lol


Thought of toasters... 03/03/2002, 11:16pm.


March 1st, 2002

Ick, I was SO sick today... I felt like dying... My head hurt so much at one point I burst into tears... lol (I KNOW I'M PATHETIC) Actually it was just an overload of stress... I was getting stuff out of my locker for class and my diskman fell and it just really got to me and yeah... Of course Travis had to laugh at me because it looked like I was crying because my diskman fell... hehe But it cheered me up so I'm glad he was there to make fun of me. Ummmm... new links! So go see them... Okee? I saw Andrew today after school in Harbour Park, they kicked him off the parliament lawn and threatened to arrest him so he was on his way home to Vancouver. I also saw Mrs. Grindler (wow, how exciting) and she some how convinced me to go to this work shop tomorrow... I get to learn about teaching people about sex ed. And it starts at 10am... How did I get talked into this again? Oh right, I don't have to pay the $30 because the school will for me... heh heh suckers. Buuut I feel SO sick, so who knows if I'll even go.... I can't even talk without my throat caving in, I think there's something dying in there. AND I CAN'T BREATH.... *sigh* I loooove complaining.


Thought of toasters... 03/01/2002, 8:22pm.

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