Prism*Fragments || NO! MINE!!! >____

01 October 2004:

{*} Haha!! Anyone notice how long it was since I updated? LoL!!! ^^ Currently I'm just perky, although I should be panicking (still can't spell) for next week's SAT I. >< EEks! I need about 1450 according to the nice mister who works on wood that's on my way home. ^^;; I forgot his name already... Bleh... It was over a summer ago!! Anyways! I wanted to update because I wanted to put up my new layouts!! I dunno where to put them, but I might put them on [_@P]GotSnails?[_@P]. Like 'em?

{*} Another piece of news, as Jason put it: "SHIRLEY GOT A BOYFRIEND!!!! AHHHHH SHES ALL GROWED UP!!!!" ^^;; Hahaha! It's Allen Au! So yea... don't make such a big deal out of things... Some idiots *cough*BAILEY*cough* have been acting like we're suddenly married! Geez! Just 'cause we're the first couple out of Chinatown! ^_~ LoL

{*} RANT: FITZ!!! ARGH! He doesn't tell me what he wants on his site and he's been forcing me to do it. I'm getting second hand that he REALLY likes 3D effects (gradients) and I should incorporate that into it now. BLEH. This has got to be the third time I totally started over... except for the main page... I don't care how much he doesn't like it, me and Tracy like it that way and it's staying that way!!!!

{*} MOVIES! I wanna go to the movies!! And watch almost all of the movies out! Peoples!! Let's all gooooooooooo!!!! >________________<

28 May 2004, about 5.5AM:

{*} Argh... @_= I think I'm sick... Why? Because I'm up doing my book report. Yes, I am one of the worst procrastinators there are, but I NEVER thought I'd get like this... bleh. DO NOT EVER ON YOUR LIFE Try to read "A Perfect Spy" by John Le Carre by madly skimming through it, in what I know suspect as a dimly lighted room. I keep thinking I'm seeing things... ppl... *cowers in fright* Damn it all... and I still haven't got a clue what the hell the theme is. So yea, my head's all woozy, and I still have to write the essay part of it, which as of right now I'm trying to rack my brains to recall what makes up a tragedy. But damn damn damn... And curse that rotten book I'm swearing. >< LoL. I have to go reread the end, maybe barf a little too... bleh-ness... and damn it all. This is definitely the last time I procrastinate. I damn well love my sleep to much to give up my sanity like this... bleh... my tummy's weird too.
{*}Tragedy = Death at the end; Realization of own fault and tragic flaw; Anything else?
{*}Maybe I'll add a few finishing flourishes to this site and make it fully operational. >___< ... yay... =_= z z Z Z Z

16 April 2004, about 10PM:

{*} If you'll all excuse me, I'm in a very depressed and massively ranting mood right now. The world sucks when nobody understands when something upsets you, even if it is the little things. But aren't the little things the important things in life? It's always just a little this and that, which all adds up to make your day, right? Anyway, I'm a little less upset over the memory cards that my brother lost. Like Thomas said, I can start over. I wasn't very far on any of them, and they're all one disc 'cause it's GameCube! ^^ Still, it pisses me off when people says it's not my problem, because if I'm a part of your life, it damn well better be!
{*} In the middle of all my complaining to nearly everyone I think that would care and respond on AIM, I came across some very interesting points. Why the hell do people play mind games with each other? Concerning love I mean! What the hell am I suppose to do when guys mope and describe all their feelings to me about some girl? I don't mean it harshly at all, but I'm just wondering those thoughts that float through my head before I fall asleep at night. At first it made me lonely, like why isn't someone mopin' about me? Then I start to wonder if I'm suppose to be jealous when some guy goes 'aww... a girl kissed me today'. Should I have said something like, "I'm sorry it wasn't me"? And what the hell does 'follow your heart' mean? Sure it's fun to hear that in the movies, but I'm sorry, I don't have vampiric hearing and a heart that whispers "I love so-and-so". If you ask me, that's all a bunch of bull, especially since people are subject to the whim of their bodily emotions and outside influences. And another thing, can't opposite genders talk to each other about their problems without people getting the wrong idea? Or even go out together by themselves? I mean, someday, when gay-ness is accepted or widespread, nobody can, and I mean go out in groups less than five without others going "Ooohh... someone likes so-and-so". And is true love for real? I suppose it works for one-life only beliefs, but that seems wasteful in my mind. If you get re=incarnated over and over, or even in a single life-span, people change and change as things happen and stuff is being learned. So how can you still love that person after all that? Going from all the stereo-typical stuff. Physical-ness doesn't matter, then it's personality and tastes. Well, people's tastes change as society changes, and things 'go out of style'. And personality? Maybe I'm the only two-faced weirdo out there, but doesn't that kinda restrict you? I know I'm different when I'm by myself versus out with people, simply because when I'm with friends I get giddy/hyper/whatever. But by myself, I like to think and daydream and escape life. So the way you do things is subject to change and alter, even according to your own will. If love is based on something so flimsy, how can it be true love? But then personality can be something deeper, ne? 'The natural way someone reacts and responds to things...' someone said... just like in Vampire Game... ooohh creepy.. I'm gonna tell 'em that. Argh, suddenly I want to finish Kare Kano/His and Her Circumstances. Oh well, it's all gonna go in my fiction as soon as I find time away from school to start writing about school! *LOL* I'm in a much better mood now. Hope I didn't offend anyone! That's why I'm not directly giving the link to this site to anyone. *smirks*
{*} Food for Thought: "I hate it when you cry like that."