From: "Jennifer Suzara" <[email protected]>
To: [email protected]
Subject: 4 hours left...
Date: Mon, 24 Jul 2000 04:59:41 EDT
Hey Baby!
It is 4:50am on Monday morning (July 24th...my b-day!) and we got off the phone not too long ago. Right now, you are in dreamland at my house in NJ and I can't wait to go home and see you :) I miss you already! I told you....you've spoiled me and I am going to be sad when you leave me tomorrow :(
I've had so much fun with you this weekend and I am so grateful you decided to come visit me. I know I tell you this all the time, but just being with you makes me happy. We could be doing everything and nothing at all and I am happy because I am doing it with you. Thank you so much!
Well, I'll send this off now. I get to see you soon and hopefully you'll still be sleeping so that *I* can watch *You* sleep for once! :) But I just wanted to write to you to let you know that I am thinking of you and missing you!
Hugs and kisses,
me :)
xoxoxoxoxo
princessnews: ANYWAYZZZZZZZZ......
princessnews: hey! u're not paying attention to me!!! :-(
DNA GeeQu: uh, yea i am...
princessnews: r u busy chatting with your hoes?
DNA GeeQu: just u...
DNA GeeQu: hehe...
princessnews: thanks...
DNA GeeQu: but ur mine...hehe...
princessnews: ya...i am....
princessnews: if u want me...
DNA GeeQu: ill think about it...
princessnews: but i don't wanna be categorized as ur hoe
DNA GeeQu: aw man...
princessnews: i'd rather just be ur bratty girl....or ur princess or somethin'
DNA GeeQu: right...
DNA GeeQu: how about my wife?
princessnews: ya...that too!
DNA GeeQu: what if i asked u?
princessnews: u won't
DNA GeeQu: like i didnt even ask u to be my gf...just asked u to be my wife...
princessnews: u wouldn't
DNA GeeQu: but what if...
DNA GeeQu: u never know...no one knows...
princessnews: u know and i know...
DNA GeeQu: no...neither of us do...
princessnews: i'd have to be your gf first...i couldn't just automatically be your wife!
princessnews: what if i asked u?
DNA GeeQu: but i could just straight ask u to be my wife and forget about the gf thing...
DNA GeeQu: asked me?...yea right...
princessnews: you could...but that wouldn't make any sense...
princessnews: will u marry me?
princessnews: there, i asked!
DNA GeeQu: ur a girl...u said it urself, u wouldnt initiate anything...
DNA GeeQu: oooh...and ur so serious about it too...
princessnews: i wouldn't initiate anything because i would havta know that you had mutual feelings...
princessnews: if i was serious about it, u would run away...
DNA GeeQu: oh brother...yea right...thats what i said...u just dont, period...
princessnews: well...maybe i will for u...
DNA GeeQu: mmmh...
princessnews: not ask u to get married (at least not this weekend) but initiate other things ;-)
DNA GeeQu: oh, well that, maybe...maybe...big maybe...
DNA GeeQu: ...maybe...
princessnews: huh?
DNA GeeQu: nothing...
princessnews: can't wait so see u!!!
DNA GeeQu: =)
princessnews: only 9 1/2 hours away
DNA GeeQu: ditto...
"...I MISS U SOMUCH JEN!...I DIDNT THINK IT WAS POSSIBLE FOR ME TO END UP MISSING/THINKING
ABOUT U...BUT I GUESS ALL THE TIME WE SPENT TOGETHER IN THIS SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME...=)...BUT, IM GLAD WE DID GET TO SPEND TIME WITH EACH OTHER...AND I DONT REGRET MISSING/THINKING ABOUT U A LOT...I LIKE IT...I LIKE IT A LOT...HEY, U DONT REGRET ANYTHING, RIGHT?...OH, ALSO, EVEN IF WE HAVE SPENT ALL THIS TIME WITH EACH OTHER - DO U STILL 'NOT' EXPECT ANYTHING?...*SIGH*...OK...ANYWAYS..."
princessnews: =*
princessnews: i miss u....
DNA GeeQu: =*
princessnews: :-)
DNA GeeQu: equals asterisk
princessnews: equals asterisk back.....
princessnews: with tongue...:-)
DNA GeeQu: equals uppercase p...
princessnews: =P
DNA GeeQu: equals number nine...
princessnews: but that's not a kiss....
princessnews: =9
princessnews: what's that?
DNA GeeQu: yea, thats just pure wet tongue...
DNA GeeQu: hes lickin his lips...
princessnews: oic...i thought he was just smiling with a little piece of his tongue on that one =P
DNA GeeQu: sure, ok...
princessnews: so what's the cute one that u always do?????
DNA GeeQu: oh right...
DNA GeeQu: equals kevins secret code for tongue (�)...
princessnews: so so so mean!!!!
DNA GeeQu: nooo, ur nice...
princessnews: ur sooooooooooooo mean :-(
DNA GeeQu: but im a good kisser...
princessnews: true....but stilll!!!!
DNA GeeQu: still, im a goooooood kisser...
princessnews: i miss ur kisses!
DNA GeeQu: u dont pay attention to them to miss them...
princessnews: whatever....
princessnews: of course i pay attention...i love kissing u!
DNA GeeQu: sometimes it seems like u just do it...
DNA GeeQu: like just going thru the motions...
princessnews: why do u say that? that's not true....i love kissing u more than anything else....
DNA GeeQu: i dunno...guess sometimes i just feel that...
princessnews: babes...that's not true at all....kissing u is the best thing ever....even better than all that other stuff...
princessnews: ...although all that other stuff is yummy too
princessnews: :-)
DNA GeeQu: uh huh...
princessnews: i never expected all the other stuff, in fact....
DNA GeeQu: me neither...
princessnews: all of that was a big surprise for me...
DNA GeeQu: kissing was even a distant thought...
princessnews: a great surprise...
princessnews: i knew i had to kiss u...or i would never have forgiven myself...
DNA GeeQu: riiight...
DNA GeeQu: thats why i made an attempt on ur bday...
princessnews: i'm serious....i wanted to so bad, but i didn't know whether u wanted to or not...
DNA GeeQu: and if i hadnt been playin with u hair and been that close to ur face that nite, it wouldnt have happened...
DNA GeeQu: with ur hair...
princessnews: ya...b/c u would never have tried....
princessnews: but i wanted to that whole time...
DNA GeeQu: maybe...
DNA GeeQu: but u wouldnt have either...
princessnews: i wanted to kiss u the first time we slept in the same bed...
princessnews: but i knew that was too soon...
DNA GeeQu: so, same with me...i wanted to the whole time too...
princessnews: i didn't think u did...
princessnews: that's why i got u that one card...the kissing one...
princessnews: it was my way of hinting to you :-)
DNA GeeQu: cmon now...attractive girl who i got along great with, in my face, in bed...
DNA GeeQu: right...cuz u said it kinda made u think of us...
princessnews: i had no clue what u were thinking...
DNA GeeQu: i got that hint...
princessnews: real subtle, huh?
DNA GeeQu: uh huh...
DNA GeeQu: when/if i decided to make the move for one, i wanted to do it like that card for u...
DNA GeeQu: just so that it would mean that much more...
princessnews: when i found out u were coming to visit, i had to mentally prepare and tell myself that nothing was going to happen b/c i didn't want to freak u out....
princessnews: that's why, when u kissed me on my b-day, i was so shocked....
princessnews: i wasn't prepared for it....
DNA GeeQu: yea, almost like, 'uh, i didnt ask for that, excuse u'...
DNA GeeQu: which is why i apologized for it...
princessnews: wait...so u don't like the way our first kiss happened?
princessnews: i was so shocked and nervous after that....i didn't really know what to say...which is why it probably appeared that way...
princessnews: but if it were up to me, our first real kiss would have happened right then...
DNA GeeQu: i thought i was doing a sweet thing by giving u one for ur bday...but, the reaction/facial expression after wasnt a really really really good one...
DNA GeeQu: and it was a goodbye one too...but, oh well...
princessnews: i told u...i was in shock...saweeeee!
DNA GeeQu: and somehow i had hoped that we both woulda froze there and it woulda been more than a peck...
DNA GeeQu: but that stuff only happens in the movies...so...
princessnews: well, that's the thing...i thought that's all u wanted to do....
princessnews: i didn't know until after that u wanted to kiss kiss me...
DNA GeeQu: i was leaving (and it was ur bday), i didnt think id ever have another chance...
princessnews: but y'know what? even that peck put me on cloud 9!!! you should have seen me when i walked into work...i had the biggest smile on my face and everyone noticed....
princessnews: why did u think that?
DNA GeeQu: yea well, something like that i would actually have to have seen in order to believe it...
DNA GeeQu: i dunno...wasnt thinking too far ahead from that moment...coulda been my only chance..
DNA GeeQu: and i woulda never known how those perfect lips felt...
princessnews: which ones?
princessnews: j/k....
DNA GeeQu: i told u thati couldnt help but notice just how perfect they looked...
DNA GeeQu: riiight...good one...
DNA GeeQu: u pervert...!
princessnews: takes one to know one! :-)
DNA GeeQu: at that point i hadnt seen the others to compare...=�
princessnews: and you've seen a lot, huh?
DNA GeeQu: to compare ur 2 lips, fewl...
princessnews: oh, right...
Hi Boobs!
Right now, I'm sitting next to you in the computer lab and you're having problems updating your web page...sowee, babes!!! That stinks! But I know you'll figure it out cuz your a genius!!! Anyway, today is the 3 year anniversary of Lory's passing and I know how hard it is for you...The reason I have been so sad is because I hate knowing that you feel any kind of pain...I guess I've grown to care for you so much, that seeing you hurt so much, is making me hurt too :( I really wish I could take away all your pain...and if I could, I would feel the pain for you so that you wouldn't feel it at all...But I know how much Lory means to you and I know how painful it is...But as I said before...Lory will always be with you...she is watching over you right now and loving you as much as you are loving her...
I can't understand exactly what you are going through because I haven't lost anyone that close to me before...but I can only imagine how your heart is aching...And if there is anything I can do at all to make things a little easier...please let me know...I want to be here for you...
I wanted to thank you for allowing me to be here with you today...I'm not sure if I'm making it easier or harder for you...but being with you means a lot to me because in a way, it shows me that you are welcoming me in...I'm glad you are able to show me your true feelings...and I hope you never hide them from me...
Okie dokes, Babes...I just wanted to say those few things to you because they were on my mind...It's crazy how much of my mind an my heart you occupy! What are you doing to me??? Well, whatever it is...I am 100% loving every minute of it...so thank you!!!!
For now, I will leave you with this thought:
"If he loves me only in my dreams, let me be asleep forever..."
Bye Babes!!!!
Always....
me :)
xoxoxoxo
hey boobie...
im here at work and just got off the phone with u...=(...i miss ya babes...we've done this before but it gets harder and harder each time...=*...dinner last nite was great...wish we coulda took our time and had intelligent conversations...hehe...but, the food was good...good job...mustve been hard for u cuz the salty chicken...for me, it was good...=)...thanx for all the leftovers...u didnt eat ur pasta!!!...oh wells...anyways, i still dont have a fully operating cell phone to talk to u with...at least im not in class or anything, so ill be at home or home home when u need to call me...hopefully i can contact my friend for their phone and switch to cellular one...*sigh*...so much trouble...anyways, id still have to pay for sprints $30 a month...unless i get rid of cellular one and get that $50 sprint package i showed u...the one with 1000min a month...ya think thatd be better?...id be paying $20 more but hopefully i wont ever go over my minutes and i wont be wasting that $30 a month if i stick with cellular one...but, id have to get a new phone, which would be another $50...damn!...all my problems stem from $$$...or lack of...*sigh*...its makin my head hurt thinking about it all...but, i have to decide soon cuz school starts and i wont be able to talk to my boobie if i dont do something...=*...anyways, i miss u...when i go home my room will seem so different...guess im getting too used to having u in my room...anyways, i printed out that leo-scorpio thing and am gonna read it carefully...most of it seems to be on the $$$ tho...=T...anyways, after dinner i should be due for another dose of tylenol cold...i just wanna get better for the weekend, who cares about school...hehe...in about 30min ull be home sweet home in NYC...oooh...thats ur city...2nd one at least...anyways, i gotta get my tv and vcr out of allans room before he sees it...hehe...i gotta pack for home too...*sigh*...ill only have a little sleep if i gotta take my dad to the hospital ear! ly in the morning...oh wells...oh - thanx for the email, and the 2 cards...actually, thanx for just being here this weekend...babes, i cant help but feel so bad that all this $$$ is being spent for us to see each other...i love the time we spend and wish it was more but its costly...and most of it is coming from u...i told u i dont like u spending $$$ for me...i know u wanna see me too but still...most of it is for me going up there...i dont mind going up and maybe i let u pay for me only because i really wanna see u...but thats not right...and then u bought me those expensive shirts...baby, im supposed to be the one getting u stuff...i really wish i could...anyways, dont spend unnecessary $$$ on me please...k?...k...cuz u have ur own life that requires
$$$...especially after spending $700 for ur car which is not even really fixed fixed...uhmmm...i guess ill see u online after 1am cuz i still have to pack then drive home...ill call ur work when i get to my place before i leave! for home k?...so, answer the phone...u can call me if u want at work from ur work before i get off...oh - i got to edit my page from here last nite...i kinda had to rush it so its not exactly the way i wanna set it up...hopefully its aiite tho...so, u can check it out...lorys section, that is...ill edit it more tonite...and when i get home, maybe...anyways, this is a long email eh...yea, i must be bored...hopefully ill get my pitiful check from here friday morning before departing for NYC...great...gas and toll $$$...yippee...and hopefully ill have my glasses done and urs ready for lenses...yay!...actually, grooosss on my part...i know those lenses r gonna be sooo thick...im a geek...anyways, plan out what we gonna do this weekend babes...we mentioned 6 flags but not too sure about $$$...or whos coming with us, if any...or if itll be nice...we're definitely getting ur eye exam...what else is there babes?...were we planning on eating somewhere different?...how about rain?...we! could get all dressed up and stuff...not like we dont when we go out anyways...did u wanna go to those parties??...its whateva for me...we dont have to if we come up with something better...we definitely 'have' to finish film this weekend k?...and if possible, start another...=)...we'll do it...we'll dress up and take pics indoors if we have to...ur moms going to florida again right?...*whew*...longer email...hehe...anyways, i guess ill just talk/chat with u laters about this stuff...but, think think think k?...kewl...aiite, u should be calling in about 10-15min...talk to u soon babes...=*...thinkin of ya...
just me...
ur boobs
hello boobs...
how's my baby doing? right now u're sleeping and i'm at work thinking of u as always...i hope ur dreaming of me...or if not, i hope ur at least having pleasant dreams...i miss u, i miss u, i miss u!...oh ya...and...i miss u!!!...i can't wait for u to come on friday...it just gets harder and harder to say good-bye to u...but hopefully, in the near future u'll be here in nyc with me =D...babes...do u think we could live together?...i mean...do u see urself living with someone like me?...or do u think u'd wanna kill me by the first week...hehehe =)...i hope not...u always say i'm too difficult or too much...do u always mean that?...i mean, i know u think i'm a princess and all...but is it too intolerable?...hmmm...i wonder...but i think i would love living with u...i can never get too much of my boob =D...anyway...just thinking aloud, i guess...don't mean to scare u...hehehe...but babes...on a serious note...one thing i think about...when u mention u being in nyc eventually...is...i always wonder if i'm one of the big reason u would be here...i mean i know that having a job here is what will finalize everything for u to be in nyc...but i guess i would hate to be talking about u moving here...and me not even be a reason for u moving...y'know?...hmmm...do u get what i'm saying?...in other words...maybe u were thinking about moving to nyc before u even met me...and here i am thinking i'm one of the reasons for u moving here...i hope that doesn't upset u...i just wanted to share my feelings...and u really don't need to answer that...it just crosses my mind from time to time...so sometimes i have to make myself not get my hopes up high...
*sigh*...why do u have to be so great?...i know that we argue a lot about things...but even through all that...i manage to see all the wonderful things that make us us...and babee...i don't mean to upset u all the time...and i'm sorry...u know that if i could make u happy, i would...and i try...but i can see that it doesn't work...=(...oh wells...i thought maybe i could be the one who could...but so far...it hasn't happened...but we still have the future and maybe one day...u'll be happy...and maybe i'll be responsible for it =D...but that's wishful thinking, i suppose...but i can say that u make me happy :)...u are always making me laugh and smile...thank u!...so don't worry about me not smiling at u...cuz when i'm with u...i'm smiling...at least for the majority of the time =)
anyway...thanks again for another wonderful weekend!...i really hope it does continue...we're on a roll babes!...and thanks for all my treats too!...u really spoil me...just adding to my princess status...hehehehe j/k...but seriously...u are so sweet and thoughtful and romantic ;-) ur "fools rush in" surprise was the best...it was well thought out and unexpected and yummy...thank u, thank u, thank u!!! :-)
so...5 days til i get to hold u again...the countdown is on!...and this weekend, i won't have my period...hehehe...yay...i hate it...oh...and i started the pill last night...so hopefully there will be no more paranoia...i didn't like that scare i had last week...it got me thinking about lots of things...what i would do if...what i'd say to u if i had to tell u...how u would react....ay nako!...it was very scary...anyway...ummm...i also wanted to tell u that i don't usually make love without protection...i mean...i have before...but not until i really feel something special for someone...so...i guess that say lots about u, huh?...but ya...it was wonderful without protection...even though, it kinda got messy....sawee!...but it's always wonderful with you...with or without...i love making love to u...u r so wonderful =)...ok...gotta stop thinking about it...i'm getting carried away....hehe...i still have to wait 5 more days!
hey...u just called me...it's 6:30am! what r u doing up???...u sound like a sleepy baby...go back to night, nights...ok...u just did...good..u need ur rest...thanks for calling me, babes...it was so good hearing ur voice...especially since i was writing u this email and missing u more than ever...but what else is new, right?
so...this weekend...u get here late friday, but we'll still eat out...even if it's casual and fast...maybe uno's or something? and we can watch "duets" or rent a movie depending on how u feel....and saturday...we'll go take some pics...and look for frames...and we'll eat macy grays papaya hot dogs =)...and maybe get some ice cream for dessert?...then who knows...it depends on the weather too...maybe on sunday, if the weather is nice, we can finally have that picnic we've been talking about...and that would mean we'd have to go to the grocery store on saturday and prepare something...i have to ask my mom if my aunt will be back from the PI this weekend...i hope so....i like having the apartment to ourselves...then we can be as loud as we want...or at least i can...ur never loud...hahaha!...i guess u don't enjoy it as much =D....
if my mom has to stay in the apartment this weekend...do u wanna consider going to my dad's on saturday?...the only good thing about that is that there are malls that we could go to there that will keep us busy...we won't be as cramped b/c it's a house...my parents will let us do whatever...but sleeping together will probably not be cool w/ my dad...so i could just sneak into bed with u....*and*, u'll be that much closer to bmore when u leave on sunday...but there are cons to doing that as well...like not being in the city on sunday for us to have a picnic...and maybe having to deal with my parents "getting to know u" and asking u a whole bunch of questions...i know how much u'd enjoy that...hehe...however...they usually have plans on saturday nights...so maybe they won't even be in...who knows...i guess it's something we can talk about on the phone...but the major downside would be that we wouldn't have "our" room...=(
hey babes...i can't wait til x-mas time in nyc...with the lights on and everything...we can go ice skating at rockefeller center and have snowball fights in central park and make a snowman and make snow angels, and see all the x-mas displays on 5th avenue, while eating honey roasted peanuts...=)...maybe i'm thinking too far ahead...but i envision doing all this stuff with u...i guess i'm assuming too much....but for now...the thought makes me happy =)...and autumn in ny is cool too!...we can re-live the movie and i can die of my heart problem that i have....u'd like that huh? hehehe...j/k...but seriously...it should be turning cold soon and u'll love it b/c u like being cold...me, on the other hand?...i wont like it but, i'll like u holding me to keep me warm :)
ok...i'm getting way to far ahead of myself...wow...i told u this was a long email...*whew*...r u sleeping yet?...sawee!...i hope i didn't bore u...it's fun writing to u....if we can't be together, i can at least feel somewhat like i'm with u, when i email u...but don't get me wrong...it doesn't even come close to actually being with u...but...i'll take what i can get for now....
...so, i guess i should end this now...it's already 7:20am...and i'm leaving to go home soon...yay!...i'll just wait til 10am, til i can hear ur voice again...=D...but til then...i'm just gonna have to day dream about u...and believe me...i will!
...anyway, babes...i hope u have a wonderful day at class and at ur fasa meeting...i hope u don't meet any pretty girls...and i hope u didn't wear anything too nice....*sigh*...i hate being like that...and it's not that i don't trust u or anything...it's just i know how awesome u are and i know that others think that too...even though u don't believe it...i'm scared that one of the girls u meet may spark an interest in you and she'll be there...close to u...and not all the way in nyc like me...and she's not a princess like me and then u'll like her more =(...yucky thoughts...see...there's my insecurity kicking in!...anywayz...hopefully u'll tell me all about it when we talk later....and don't leave any details out, k???? k! thanks, babeee, for dealing with me...i hope i'm not too much!!!
ok...i'm really gonna go now!!! remember that i'm thinking of u...and missing u so much it hurts.....
always ur princess....
me :)
xoxoxoxo
hey...as u can see, i emailed this like 1224pm this afternoon...im jewish cuz i
didnt put '.com' at the end of ur email addy...i know u wouldnt check until ur
at work anyway, but just want u to know i appreciate what uve done for me...and
that goes for everything, not just the cover letter and resume...uve done a lot
for me for whateva purpose/motive...thank u, jen...=*...talk to u soon
babes...=*
hey...
i know things are pretty sh*tty between us right now...and i guess yesterday was the first day we haven't spoken to/chatted with each other in the (almost) 3 months we've known each other...i guess neither of us was really ready to talk to each other...but that doesn't mean i wasn't missing you and thinking about you all day long...i was very sad and depressed all day (and all night) and was wishing that we could just be together to hold each other and make everything ok...but i guess that's not possible...
but, anyway...the main reason i wanted to email you is because tonight, after not talking to you in 24 hours, i decided to log on to your webpage, which i do often when i miss u...but tonight, i ended up going onto the "no one even comes close" page, which i tend not to look at too often...and tonight, i discovered that u had put a picture of u and i on there...i didn't realize u had done that...i wanted to thank u so much for doing that...it was a pleasant surprise and it really, really means a lot to me...and what u wrote was very sweet...so, thank you, babes...i guess because of the fight we're going through right now, it was very hard for me to see that pic...cuz it just made me miss you even more...but...it gives me hope...it makes me see this fight as just a little bump in the road...because i think what you and i have is something a lot stronger and i think (and hope) that we can get through it...real soon...
...anyway...i just wanted to write to thank you and let u know how special it was for me to find that...and tell you how much i miss you...hopefully, if you're up for it, we'll talk later today...until then...you will be in my thoughts...
always...
me
xoxoxoxo
hey babes...
how r ya? it's almost 4am and i'm here at work, thinking of u and getting all sad =( i really
miss u, babes! i wish i could be with u right now, sleeping in your arms *sigh*...i dunno,
babes...i'm really sad...i think that the dream i had the other night really affected me...i'm
sure you've noticed, but i seem to be getting more and more attached and that dream, i guess
just worsened it...i tried not to really let it get to me b/c i know that it was only a
dream...but i woke up that morning really sad...i guess the part of the dream that really upset
me was that you were so fine with leaving me for good and it didn't really phase u...and (i
didn't tell u this but) in my dream, i had thought to myself that the real reason u were moving
to the philippines was to be with chai...and not really to help your famiy out with their
business...and me, being too proud (in my dream), didn't say anything to you, b/c i knew that u
would be happier there...and i guess that's what was really bothering me...it just brought back
all the insecurity i feel about chai and made me feel sad and worried =(...*sigh*...so, in my
dream...while i was helping u pack, u were kinda just throwing things together and i noticed
that you didn't have my pics up anymore and i asked u what u did with them and u said u were
keeping them in storage while u were away ...=(...anyway, i just miss u a lot right now and wish
we could be together...but i guess we'll have to wait 4 long days...and i know how rough this
week is gonna be for you and i'm sorry!...i wish i could take on some of ur workload for u
=(...but try not to stress, b/c u r bomb! and u will get through the week just fine!!!
i'm sorry for crying so much lately...with all our fights and stuff, i seem to be getting super
emotional (and u know how emotional i am to begin with)...but i just want u to know that, the
majority of the time i shed any tears, it's mainly because i miss u and don't wanna leave u (or
have u leave me...) it's not to make u feel sad or bad or anything...and i hope u don't get
angry when i cry...like today, when i said good-bye to you...those were just tears of sadness
b/c i was gonna miss u...and nothing more...i remember u saying once that u didn't like me
crying b/c u couldn't do anything about it...but i don't expect u to do anything about it,
babes...that's just me showing u my true feelings...and believe me...i try to hold in the tears
as much as possible...so, i guess what i'm saying is...bear with me, if i do end up crying,
ok?...the tears are not meant to be a bad thing...if anything, u should take them as a good
thing...b/c that's how strongly i feel for u! =*
anyway, babes...good luck with all your work and stuff this week...u know if u need me to vent
or anything, i'm here...and if there is anything i can do to help u, lemme know, k? good luck
with your quiz and ur project!...oh, and thanks again for the letter u wrote me during work on
saturday night! i love getting things like that from u! =*
ok, my love...i guess i'll just end this here...hopefully u'll get to read this today
(monday)...i sent it to both of ur accounts, just in case...i like emailing u so that it's kinda
like a little treat for u during ur day...and of course, i hope it lets u know that i'm thinking
of u...cuz i always am =)...hope ur day goes well...hope ur mango's ripe! hehehe! ok, i really
miss u ~so~ much...it hurts =(
bye, bye baby boobs!
love always...
ur princess
xoxoxoxo
hey u...
im just here in the computer lab for the first time this week...its funny...i
used to always try to go in here but this semester i havent really been
trying to...first session of summer i was always here everyday...2nd session
after meeting u, i would just go straight home in anticipation of talking to
u on the phone...i guess thats sorta the reason why i run home after class
this semester...the other half of course is cuz im lazy and i just wanna be
home chillin rather than face the fact that ive got tons of work that i could
be doing on campus...im gay...i feel school slippin away from me...im getting
caught up in FIND and FACES...
anyways...i also wanted to say that im sorry that things might seem to be
slippin away concerning us...i do miss times of chattin and talkin a lot...i
havent 'chatted' with u in a while...i dunno...deep down part of me hopes
that itll come back here and there...i guess lately ive just been getting
home late or finishing up something late where talkin on the phone is better
than chattin since its so late...but i like talkin on the phone more...but i
just wouldnt want to think we've lost that aspect of chattin with each other
cuz its what started us out...but sometimes i think maybe it started us out
and thats what its job was; now we move on...and same for the phone,
kinda...cuz a lot of the time when im silent on the phone and worried that ur
concerned about my silence, im thinking that i just want u to be next to
me...like at that time ive done what i can on the phone and just wanting u to
be with me in person so we could chill that way...of course thats impossible
at that time until the weekend hits...butthats what i think about...maybe thats
why we're more subject to have anepisode on the phone or chattin rather than
in person...i guess its a way of saying that i cant wait for the week to end
so that we'll see each other...idunno...just some thoughts...i just wanna
apologize for the times when itseems things have changed...
cuz i do think certain time can come back (not like theyre lost)...
so, other than apologizing for the past time of worry, i wanna apologize
ahead if i get really preoccupied concerning school...i feel that the times
coming where imma have to be putting in more time on campus
and trying to get help from friends and/or classmates, especially with the
finalization with projects and stuff...that would just mean that time spent
together in person on the weekends have to be 100X meaningful...and im sure
thats possible...so accept my apologies (for the past, present and
future)...=*...hopefully everything works out...
i dunno about after graduation either...thats why i really wanted this intern
so i can get some kind of training before applying to actual jobs...maybe a
better resume would impress them more...duh...i know finding a first job is
gonna be hard cuz of my lack of experience and knowledge...but how am i
supposed to convince my parents about living in NYC if i cant get a job
offer???...hehe...=)...im not really trying to see to far into the future
right now tho cuz im worried about passing...
anyways, i cant think of anything else i wanted to say...u wont get this
until work tonite...and im sure ill talk to u for a little bit later...but
DNAs coming up to practice around 930-10...rowies coming up and we're gonna
try to get our props before practice...then imma let whoevas at my place to
chill while i go to my officers meeting for a little bit...then all nite
practice...but ill let u know that later...i gotta get out of this lab
now...so, talk to u soon babes...missin u lots...
823...xoxoxo
joseph-kevin
hey u!
i just wanted to write you and wish u good luck with all ur work...i know u'll be studying all day today and tomorrow up until ur exam...so, good luck, babes!...don't stress out too much because u'll do fine!...i won't be speaking to u too much today, i guess, so have a good day and remember that i'll be thinking of u and praying that u do well!!!...i miss u, babes!...thanks for a fun weekend...i had fun at find, but i kinda wish we could have spent more "alone" time together...but what can u do, right?...spending sunday with u was fun, even if it was for a short time...i'm sorry i spent those few hours napping...i would have much rather stayed awake to spend those hours with u...but i knew that with me driving home, i need to get a little nap in...but...at least we'll have this whole weekend together...yay!!!...ur b-day weekend!...r u excited???...i am!...i can't wait to be with u again...i miss u so much...
anyway, babes, again...good luck with all ur work...keep ur head up...all this will soon be over =)...so, i guess i'll speak to u later, ok?...til then...here are some kisses for u...
MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*MUAH*
bye, babes!!!
love always,
me =)
xoxoxoxo
hello babes...
hope you slept well last night, even though it was only for a short time...I love when you spend time at work with me and I always say I don't want you to leave...but sometimes I think you leave too late...i hate when you drive so late/early in the morning...but i do enjoy and appreciate the time you spend with me at work...thanks, babes =*
anywayzzz...here comes another L O N G week!!! =( the weeks go by way too slow and i miss you too much...but i guess that's the price i have to pay if i wanna see you, right??? but it's *ALWAYS* worth the wait!...i hope you had a good birthday weekend...like i said...it probably wasn't as memorable as mine, because nothing will ever be able to beat that weekend...but i hope you enjoyed ur presents...and then next weekend, we'll get your windows tinted =)...if you don't get in touch with sophe this week, then maybe you can call some of those place on the list i gave you to see where you wanna get them done...either way, you should make an appointment by thursday or friday...
*sigh*...i miss u!!! my heart hurts =(...babes...i wanted to thank you for telling me you love me...i know it's not really anything i should be thanking you for...but, like i said...i wasn't expecting it...and i just hope that you didn't feel pressured by me...because that's what i was tyring to avoid...but anyway, i love you and i'm so happy you're in my life...you are the best, babes...and i
R E A L L Y miss you!!!
it's probably gonna be another stressful week for you...don't worry, babes...i understand that u probably won't be able to talk to me a lot this week...i've been trying to be better about not getting annoyed or mad and hopefully, you see a difference?...i hope so...i'm trying, babes...and i do understand...so good luck with all ur work this week...and try not to stress out too much, if you can help it...i'm here for you, if you need me, k?
well...thank you so much for making YOUR birthday weekend so SPECIAL for ME...it's a weekend i'll never forget...and your 24th birthday, especially, is a day i'll never forget 1) because it's ur birthday and 2) it's the first time we said "I Love You..." (AND, it's the weekend you gave me my Pooh blanket =)...thanks so much, babee...i love it!)...only someone as amazing as you would get someone else a present on YOUR birthday...you are amazing...
ok, babes...i'll let you go now...again, thank you for such a wonderful weekend...remember that i'll be thinking of you every second of every day, until i'm back in your arms...
love always,
ur princess =)
xoxoxoxoxo
hey u...
thanx for the email...im in the lab 25min before my lab class upstairs...i found out i had lots of stuff to do...im so losing it...babes, i need to get back into this stuff...i dunno how or even if i can cuz of my lack of interest in the subjects...but somehow i concentrated really well during the 1st session of summer school...granted that was before i started chattin with u but even in the 2nd session, i did well also (not as much, but still)...im not blaming u, of course not, but if im not concentrating on school, its u im thinking about...ur not distracting me...im doing it myself...imma try to stay on campus wheneva i can so that i dont get urges to watch tv at home or call u when im there doing nothing...i think thats it most of the time...me being home...anyways, i just wanted to give u a heads up on things...
anyways, im outtie...til later and cant wait til friday...sometimes i think if we did lessen the communication more during the week, it would make seeing each other fridays so much more exciting/worth it...but i know that would make the week go by even slower...and i cant NOT talk to u...ok then...ill talk to u later...bye babes...
=*
me
hey babes...
i just wanted to email u...i got cut off AOL...anyways, i miss u..by thistime ur at work reading this and gettin ready for ur nite of work...another 5 days without my babes...i had a great time this weekend...maybe saturday coulda been better...to not have the plans i had in mind for that whole day/nite fall thru, bummed me out again...and this time it was early...but anyways...we woulda just walked around the mall and took our time...then ate something in the mall or redlobster or TGIF or whateva then rented a movie on the way home...thats what i had in mind that nite...but i liked our weekend regardless...i dont like it when u leave me...anyways, hopefully we'll find a way to see each other sometime during thanksgiving...but ill see u in 5 days...and talk to u soon babes...miss umiss u miss u!...=*...byes...
<3me