Sometimes it�s too much
When you try to infect me
Right now on my crutch
You try to molest me
It comes out of nowhere
You�re smiling, stealing my soul
But you�ll never do it alone
You can�t make me let go
Seduction, disruption
Corruption, destruction
All I wanted � a little respect
You shrug it off; that�s nothing new
Then you try it again, to infect
Makes me want to reject you
How can we ever be friends?
When every other word you say
Rips my pride, and makes me dread
Your disdain, so I turn away
Seduction, disruption
Corruption, destruction
I don�t feel as innocent as you think
You�re always out to profane me
Why are you trying to make me sink?
Accept me, respect me, don�t wreck me
Just stop it
Seduction, disruption
Corruption, destruction
Then two minutes later you seem more real
Not hiding behind your clich�s
Your layers are starting to peel
I can see inside, your broken ways
Your silence
But the beast comes back now
Its claws digging into me
And still I swear I�ll not allow
Your shit to break me, take me
Seduction, disruption
Corruption, destruction
You try to corrupt,
I try to protect,
I try to direct,
You try to infect�me
How can we be friends when you always want to change me?
It pains me every day to see you coming near
But still I smile, you laugh, I sigh
And every time you joke
It makes me almost choke
And want to say goodbye
I try to forget,
You try to project,
I try to object
You try to subject�me
Seduction, disruption
Corruption, destruction
You don�t mean that much to me
But until you�re gone I�ll endure it
And eventually I�ll be free
Never again will you I see
You�re broken inside
I can�t save you, honey
And all the invisible tears you�ve cried
Are of no concern to me, honey
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"Pit"
It was only a matter of time
Before I fell into this pit again
Drawn in, taken this time
Beckoned, lured into your sin
I knew it was happening
But I ignored the itch
This blackness eats at me again
I've become your slave, your bitch
God it feels so unreal
Please tell me I'm not crazy
That it's a dream, an illusion
But I'm too damn lazy...
To pull myself up from this pit
Pull me out of it, help me
Don't leave me alone, to sit
Grind my teeth, so unfree
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"Kill the Butterflies"
I can�t wait to see you
But it hurts when I do
You�ve invaded my thoughts
You�ve called all the shots
And all I want now
Is to be with you, it�s true
I thought I knew why
The butterflies die
But knowing you better
You�ll probably kill �em all
And not even try
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"Love and Reality Suck"
You�re my cancer, you�re my pain
And I feel this hatred through you
You are there inside my brain
Sticking, staying, toxic glue
Now I can say this, now it�s clear,
Why I let you take me over
I wanted love, I didn�t care
That you�re nothing but a useless
Nothing but a useless
Nothing but a useless
NOTHING
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"Random"
False love
Moment of weakness
Daydream blackened
Royal destroyer
I never wanted this
But you�re always there
Falling apart, fading
Vivid red, running
Away from me
Away from me
Take this tumour, I don�t need it
Take your pretty face away
Face my demon who never knew me
Leave my mind, let go my heart
My heart thatshould be mine.
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(C) 2004 L.D.
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