Dare to look at the world as it comes before you, then be open and willing to change your mind about what it truly reflects.
That is the time of transmutation and shapeshifting, the Miracle of remembering Your Inherent Nature...

The Navy over and done with, marriage was soon to follow. Being in love and becoming a parent was turning out to be a profound teacher of sharing and communication, on the finer and more obscure levels, that only a woman can offer...
The rough work on the North Sea oil rigs for weeks at a time, became a strong contrast to family life. Both sides forcing me to explore the depth of their individual patterns of belonging and commitement.
Very interesting indeed, except for the fact that I at the time had blocked out my conscious Spiritual Awareness of the interconnectedness of all things.
Much later I learned that I had turned away from Spirit, from God, when it was the teachings of the church that disgusted me. Totally different matters, but so commonly mixed up and confused. Like God is more present in a church than in the supermarket down the road...

Revolution, war, accidents and sudden death had played an all important role on my path since the age of 16 years. The work in the North Sea turned out to be another teacher of the same curriculum. The first North Sea blow-out on the Ekofisk Bravo platform, the loss of the Alexander L.Kielland platform..., my Teachers always made sure I never missed a lesson. I found myself immersed in it, trying to make sense of Higher Spiritual Teachings through the use of the intellectual part of the mind alone. Refusing to listen to the Quiet Teacher within, out of fear of loosing my atheistical faith to some religious concept, took me even further away from Spirit.

My own accidents started to increase in numbers. One should think that when I was totally beaten to pulp, in what may be called 'a near death experience', I should begin to read the road-signs with greater care. My survival and speedy recovery was even by my doctors considered to be no less than a miracle of unusual magnitude.

Yes, I saw 'the Light' and met My Teachers and my return to life was sealed with an agreement of a totally new direction for my life...
Never the less, upon my recovery, my wish to be 'a good provider' took me right back to the old patterns. A few months later my eyes got totally burned by chemicals, my side business burned, with no insurance coverage and the marriage dissolved.
Still I refused to listen to the 'Quiet Voice' and kept on pushing to scratch out a living with the dwindling remains.

When Spirit calls you by Your Name, you can run, but you can not hide... The irony being that what we run away from is Love, Joy and our very own fulfilment as Spiritual Beings.

Following the intellect alone, will ultimately lead to surrender to Our Spirit, through pain and strife or through death and rebirth.
The Free Will is not for the ego, but for the Animating Spirit that resides deep inside our hearts. Following 'the system' and trying to be 'nice' about it, is not going to cut it with Your Spirit. Following the Inner Voice through the maze of the interior Self, in order to Enlighten the Whole, is the name of Spirit's game.